feeling like i failed

Sep 27, 2009

I had a new WLS called TOGA on March 11 of this year. I lost a lot of weight pretty fast. I have went from 270 to 204. But I have been loosing and gaining the same 4 pounds for 2 months. I have totally gotten off of track. I know I have stretched my stomach out because I can eat a lot more than I should. Last night I ate a whole double cheese burger from McDonald's. I have been eating like that for a while now. I cant stop myself. I tell myself NO NO NO, but I just do it anyway, I really cant stop. I know you will say that I can stop if I really want to. I am sure I can too, but its hard. I keep telling myself I will start back on track on Monday, but then I don't. Its hard to be around all the good stuff and not eat it. My husband and son are not on a diet and still want to eat like they did. They don't wanna eat like I need to and like they should be. They are also overweight. I need to get myself back on track and I don't know how. I don't wanna be stuck here at this weight. I wanna be smaller. And I am at an awkward stage in clothing. The plus sizes are to big and the regular sizes are to small. It really sucks finding cloths. I just don't know what to do to get myself back on track. I am sooo frustrated with myself.

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