Welcome to Spring!!

Apr 16, 2010

So here we are again.  Christmas and Easter are behind us and spring and summer bbq's are on the way!  It has been a good ride.  I am currently sitting with a total loss of 143 lbs.  It has been very good.  I am now wear size 14 jeans and dress pants and being true to my family build really have no ass or hips to speak of!  The chest would be a bit bigger if I could get it back where it belongs, but alas, without a lottery win or a profiterable corner to strut my new stuff, plastics will be a ways away just yet.  My son will be heading off for University or College in the next year and somehow that takes precidence for how I need to spend my excess cash...That's ok for now...As long as I have my Fat Sucker undershirts and control top undies, the rest is ok.  What are a couple of flabby arms or legs where good friends and lovers are concerned!! 

The journey has been a good one.  Sometimes exhilerating, sometimes overwhelming and tiring.  I would never have thought that I would get annoyed with the same people telling me how great I now look.  Isn't that just stupid?  But sometimes I just want the attention to my former self to stop and let the new me shine.  Really it's just the package that's all that different.  My essence is basically the same...It just has more energy now and isn't afraid to move about. 

Relationships have changed.  That is an understatement.  The biggest one is the relationship I have with myself.  I am changing my ways of thinking and reacting.  My relationship with my husband and son have changed.  They are needing to get used to new me with new needs and new demands...For far too long my life has been about serving the needs of my family - a plight that we can all relate to.  I would think that each one of us puts too much out there and in most cases, that doesn't come back to refuel.  The biggest difference is my demand to refuel...Either by mine helping me or me helping myself.  Maybe it's maturity, new sense of awareness due to this experience or a new found selfishness - either way, it's long overdue and trials and tribulations aside it will work out...

To those who have gone before me in this journey thanks so much for being my guiding light, my sense of direction, my laughter and my tears.  To those yet to come, don't be afraid...this is AMAZING!!!!!

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