JulesB124
I'm Back from Vacation - And Not a Pound Gained!!
Jan 09, 2009
Jules
13 week update - IM FEELING GOOD!
Dec 29, 2008
I am terrible at maintaining my blog, I read everyone else's for inspiration but when it comes to me inspiring anyone, forget it, I just cant find the time to update, and my home computer has been on the blink for the last 4 weeks which is a pain in butt, because it has all my passwords, photos, finances, basically everything I need to survive and be a productive person is on the computer, AND I CANT GET ANY OF IT! I knew I shouldn’t have given in to my 9 year old son's plead to get a computer at home. I was perfectly fine with only using the one at the office, everything was stored in one place, and I never had to worry about losing my files. And then my friends daughter was selling her home computer, really good deal, and I finally gave in and bought it. Got it all hooked up and within hours I was hooked, my poor child was now pleading with me to let him have a turn on the computer. Well I have all my finances nicely completed on spreadsheets, passwords stored nicely in a file, weight loss info beautifully graphed out, right down to my shoe size loss(gone from a size 10 shoe to a size 9 - how bizzare)! And then I got the dreaded black screen and a message that’s seems to indicate some drivers are missing or corrupt. What’s a gal to do? I suppose I am going to have to take it to be fixed, but I am going to the Dominican very soon so I will not be getting it fixed before the trip. I feel lost without all my files, but luckily I have the computer at work, so decided it was about time I give you all an update on the weight loss. So, started weight loss program on March 19, weighing in at a whopping 305.4lbs. Lost 38.4lbs on my own (which would not have stayed off for very long given my multiple weight loss attempts in the past). Had the gastric bypass surgery on Oct 6th, 2008 and its been 13 weeks, and I have lost 52lbs, so a total weight loss of 86.4lbs in all. And more importantly I have gone from a 26 dress size down to a size 16, and I even bought a few pairs of size 14 dress pants yesterday, although they are a bit tight if you know what I mean. I’m kind of sucked into them nicely and then the roll of flab comes up over the top of the pants, so its loose flowy tops for me for a while until I fit "normally" into the pants!! But regardless of how tight they are, I am able to wear them and with both buttons done up! Its a miracle, this WLS is the best thing that has ever happened to me. Despite having to have an endroscopy twice for 2 strictures, I would do it all again. I can’t believe it but I am actually loving trying on and buying clothes, its like a new addiction for me. Thanks god I am frugal and only buy clothes on the sale racks, otherwise i'd be broke by now. AND I LOVE WORKING OUT, not something I thought I would hear pass from my lips, but its true, I really enjoy my 60-80 minute work outs, and some weeks I go every day. Now that is just frickin crazy, this is from the gal who would be in despair if she couldn’t find a parking spot right outside the door of Wal-Mart, god forbid I had to walk too far! But seriously, feeling so fit and healthy is amazing and I thank god everyday for sending me Dr. Kaban, he did a great job. This will be the first time in 25+ years I am comfortable about wearing a swimsuit on vacation - yipee!
2 Week Post-op and I'm Going Back To Work...........
Oct 15, 2008
I have decided that although its only been 9 days since the surgery, I am going back to work on Monday. I'm getting bored at home, and I don't want to become too obsessive about loosing the weight, and knowing my addictive traits, I know that I will start weighing myself every bloody hour at home to see the weight loss and it will become all consuming and that end up being the only thing I think about. I just want to get on with my life, go back to work and focus on my job and not obsess over the surgery. So I am back to work Monday, although I will only work approx 8-2 for the first week, and as long as that goes well for me, I'll ease into full days the following week. I know my parents are a little concerned about me going back to work so soon, but I think I have eased their minds that if I get too tired I will just leave the office.
On Wednesday I meet with Dr. Kaban and Allison, my nutritionist, for follow-up. I will have started pureed foods by then (although I have had a couple of spoonfuls of pureed peaches and applesauce already)!
I Survived the Surgery and Now the Fun Begins!
Oct 11, 2008
Well, I am recovering well at home now, and it feels so good to be in my own home with the windows open and fresh air breezing through the house. Each day I feel a little more positive and today is the first day I have not regretted my decision to have WLS. Over the last few days I have felt very nauseated and very miserable. At the hospital you are given water and jello, and i was so hungry my body ached for something other than water. I was bloated like a puffer fish and extremely sore. I had terrible nightmares from the morphine and eventually asked to have it removed as the side effects were worse than the pain i was experiencing. I came to enjoy the pain relief suppositories that were pushed into my butt every few hours, and they provided me with a more gentle form of pain relief. I had a room to myself and I was very glad of that as I spent most waking hours crying, the feeling of regret was enormous, and I felt such despair, I couldn't understand why I wasn't happy as i had finally received the WLS I had dreamed about having most of my adult life. I wasn't prepared for the feelings of sorrow I had, especially as no-one seemed to have mentioned this in their blogs, they only mentioned how happy they were, I felt like there was something very wrong with me. Well, it is 5 days after the surgery and my body is healing, i went for a half hour walk yesterday which was great, its chilly here in Sask now so I walked around the park with my sweatshirt pulled up under my boobs to get the fresh air on my tummy, the coolness felt so wonderful. My stomach and bowels appear to be working o.k (not something I ever though I'd mention in a blog to people) and the bloated feeling is gradually disappearing. And for the first time since the surgery I actually got on the scales in my kitchen and weighed myself (i couldn't face going near them after the surgery as I was so despondent I didn't care less). Anyway, on Monday I went into surgery at 267lbs, and today (Sat) i weighed in at 254.6lbs, so I am overjoyed.
I really believe every day is getting better for me and I am feeling less depressed about the surgery and beginning to feel more positive for the future. The fog that I felt so immersed in is finally lifting, and I am beginning to look forward to living my life again.
Stay tuned for more news!..................... So I had my surgery performed by Dr. Gordie Kaban at noon on Monday Oct 6th, and I survived!LOL. Despite reading all about the blags on the surgeries, and what to expect etc, I was still not prepared for the after effects of mine. DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER UNLESS YOU REALLY WANT TO KNOW ABOUT MY EXPERIENCE, AS I DO NOT WANT TO SCARE ANYONE FROM HAVING THE SURGERY.
2 more days to go before the big day
Oct 03, 2008
So only 2 more days left until the big day, and despite hearing the not so nice side of WLS, I am still very excited, and am ready to do this. I just wish that before I started the 2 week liquid diet I could have had a nice plate of fish and chips form Joey's only - my last treat, but unfortunately I wasn't smart enough to think of it at the time! I am looking forward to no longer thinking about food in the same way as I have done in the past though, and am hoping that this surgery will help me no longer turn to food as a crutch. Here's hoping!
Only 8 more days to go!!
Sep 29, 2008
I have no preconceived ideas of how much I will loose weekly/monthly, but as long as I do loose I will be happy. One friend told me I ask allot of questions about this surgery, but that's because I would prefer to be as well read and knowledgeable as possible before the surgery, and if that means I am going to ask questions, you bet I am!
My Top 15 List of "When I Loose Weight I will"............
Sep 28, 2008
2. No longer worry about the sturdiness of the chair before I sit down in it. 3. Not have to hide under layers of clothes during the summer and be so self conscious.
4. Be able to lie on the beach or by the pool without worrying about people staring at me because I am so fat.
5. Be able to join in fun events with my son, and not worry about embarrassing myself or him.
6. Feel more feminine and sexy.
7. Jog for 1 mile, bike for at least 5.
8. Be able to see my collarbones clearly defined.
9. Wear a size 8-10, but not be obsessed by this number, even a 12 or 14 would be wonderful.
10.Be able to buy clothes off the rack in a regular size store.
11. Have great sex again!
12.Take trampoline lessons.
13. No longer have triple chins.
14. Not hide from the camera and allow pictures to be taken of me!
15. Feel alive again.
Surgery on Oct 6 and Im on the liquid diet already!!!!
Sep 26, 2008
Also I am terrified of surgery, never had one before and I have been told they will put a tube in my nose and down my throat. Please god, someone tell me I wont be awake when they do that as I have terrible gag reflex and I am terrified of the thought. Also, can anyone who's had the surgery tell me if the tubes are out before I wake up as I don't want to have a panic attack when I wake up and find they are still there.
Well that's my ranting for today, nervous but very very excited - my dream is finally within my reach - YIPPEE