pre-op weight loss/ rant

Aug 31, 2015

so far i have been on my pre op diet since monday 8/24/2015. as of friday 8/28/2015 i have already lost 8 pounds. and fortunately fit in the dress for my brothers wedding... however its already been a long long broing process. i still have 7 weeks of this. i over the weekend had a spell where i was extremely tired, weak, and just exhausted. i didnt do anything but go to the cemetary in kansas city to visit my grandmother. and then on sunday my dad had the family over for dinner and i couldnt eat! i was pissed off to no end! i wanted some dang mashed potatoes. i settled for peas and went to another room. then i think my bf doesnt support me as much as he says he does, i tried to move away and hide from the food and he threw a fit bc i would help put the food away and do the dishes... seriously? i just told you im not strong enough to be out there right now! but you throw a dang hissy fit!!! i think he does it on purpose. he doesnt want me to have the surgery bc he likes me big but he wants to have children adn i can not do so at this weight. and our sex life has been non existant for like 2 months and we've only been together 6 almost 7. its sad. but this is my main focus right now. not him ! i know bad to say but i have to make myself healthy and happy. i need to do for me for once and not every one else... call me selfish if you want i really dont care!  #sofreakingfrustrated!!!

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