4 months! -59

Oct 28, 2010

59! ugh why cant it be 60!!! I am not complaining I have NEVER lost 59 pounds in my entire life. This was a slooooow month! I only lost 10 pounds, it has been about 15 a month before now. Hey as long as I am still losing right. I regret not measuring my inches because I think even though I am not losing pounds I am losing inches. I have to roll my size 16 jeans up becuase they are too lose and I look like I have a saggy butt. So even though its *only* ten pounds, I am still losing inches!!! Horray!

I started on the patch again this month I am wondering if maybe that is why the weight loss slowed. If it doesnt start up again after I start back at the gym, I am going off the patch, condoms were working just fine!  SIDENOTE:  on the package it says if i weight more than 198 the patch may not work for me! and I got nervous!!! until I realized that I weight LESS than that!!! It has been a LOOOONG time since i have weighted less than that.


I seem to go back and forth between the same 3-5 pounds and havent passed 182 yet! Since the day I got out of surgery this weight has been my biggest fear! This is about how much I weighed during high school and early college, this is the one weight I actually remember being. I am so scared I am going to be stuck here! I think when I was 12 I was probably around 160. My biggest fear is that I am never gonna get past the 180s and I am doomed to be obese forever.

I think my hormones have settled a little, thank you God! Life is good I cant complain, at least *i hope!* the weight will continue to come off, even if its only increments of 10....

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