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My Emotions are now running in high gear as my surgery is so close. I want this more than anything but I am still afraid. I am not sure of what, but I am afraid. I did get to do something tonight that I hadn't dreamed I would have accomplished. I walked across this huge pedestrian bridge and back and then found out it was a 1/2 mile there and 1/2 mile back! I have actually walked over a mile! IT is a miracle! I wasn't too bad out of breath either even as I finished the walk. Wow talk about amazed! I am still in shock! I think next time without this extra skin hanging it will be a much nicer walk though. I just want this week to fly by so that it can be over. I have tried to prepare myself for the hurt I am going to feel and get my mind set. I haven't gotten there yet but I will update when I do!LOL (Between you and I, I am hoping I reach that point before Monday)*big smile*

02/05/03
Got all the clearance for my Surgery done today! Had my EKG and my chest X-ray, bloodwork, and urine test and they have officially given me the GO! I am so wound up! My surgery will be at 7:30am Monday Morning! I hope to update again prior to that time. I also have got my new remote recliner so that I will be able to sleep when I come home! What better thing than to get a tummy tuck and new furniture!LOL Gotta love it!

02/09/03
This is my last update since my surgery is for tomorrow! I am hoping to be home by Wednesday or Thursday!I met the Anesthesiologist the other day and he was so sweet! I am alot calmer than I was before I got to speak with him. I trust him completely. This picture above was taken today of my son, myself and my boyfriend Robert together before going out for a nice evening to calm my nerves! I don't know what I would do without such great support! I will hopefully be updating my page again soon. Thank you to everyone for all your great emails and kind words!

02/10/03
Guess I couldn't stay away! I slept really well which is a miracle that I did. I am leaving for the hospital in about ten minutes. I have part of myself that is so calm, and the other part needs heavy sedation!LOL I will update when I return! Just wanted to do a quick update. Hope no one sees me on the way to the hospital, NO makeup, hairspray etc. This is not attractive!:)

 

I have now posted my new After picture in the dress I bought before surgery. I always dreamed of wearing it so I am very happy today! The bad news, is that after my plastic surgery, it will be too big! But I will get over it!LOL Those of you that follow my profile, will notice that my name has changed back to Reed and this is becasue My Husband and I are no longer together. They say that this surgery will make good marriages better and bad ones will fall apart. Well, Enough said. He and I have no hard feelings and we both understand that this is just something that happened and we knew it could all along. I am very happy in my life now and doing better than I've ever done. I have so many goals and plans for my future and things just don't happen fast enough for me. I will update again soon as the Plastic surgeon's office called and finally sent the pictures in to the insurance company so hopefully I will hear from them any day! BTW... I have recently tried my first medium rare steak from Applebees, OMG! That is to die for! All two bites of it! But heck, it was wonderful!:) *:)

01/15/03
I got the phone call today and I have BEEN APPROVED for the first of my three plastic surgeries! I am supposed to hear from them by tomorrow to get my surgery date! I am so excited! HAPPY DANCE! I will update as soon as I get the exact date!

01/16/03

Just got a call from my Plastic Surgeon and I am having surgery on FEBRUARY 10th!!!!!!!!

HAPPY DANCE!!! HAPPY DANCE!!! HAPPY DANCE!!!

01/22/03
I go in today to get my paperwork done and prepare for my surgery on February 10! Reality is setting in and is a bit unnerving. BUT ON THE GOOD SIDE!!! I lost another 11 pounds! I now weigh 333! Life is so good!

 

I am still waiting for the final decision from Tenncare On My Plastic Surgery Approval. It seems they had not actually approved the procedure, but the consult. (Heard that before)LOL. Regardless the Doctor's office assures me no worries and that I should have a decision any day now! I am so excited! I am really ready for surgery. The extra skin I am carrying especially my belly area is killing my back. It hurts to walk very much and sleeping is near impossible when I try to move. But there is always a light at the end of the tunnel!:) I will update more as soon as I hear from the doc!
12/30/02 WOHOOOOOOOOOO! Official Weight in! I now weigh 344lbs! I am so happy! It is still melting away! I sure do hope this lasts! I have lost a total of  lbs since May 2001:)

WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO! I weighed in this morning at 375lbs! That is a total lost in 15 months of  lbs GONE FOREVER!!!!!!!! LIFE IS SO AWESOME! I am more active now than I have ever been! I tell everyone I see about the WLS and how it saved my life!

08/28/02
ALRIGHTY THEN! I weighed this morning and I am now down to 360lbs! IT'S A MIRACLE! I am in shock, will write more later!LOL Grand TOTAL LOST AS OF TODAY:  lbs! SOMEBODY STOP ME!LOL

10/18/02
I HAVE BEEN APPROVED FOR MY PLASTIC SURGERY!! I go for my consult on November the 8th and then get a scheduled surgery date!

Well, this is definitely a happy post for me! I just returned from a weeks vacation with My mother, husband, and 9 year old son and for the first time in a decade...I had some fun! I went into a Super Walmart which I had never seen! I had so much fun! I bought stuff I didn't even need and just spent hours looking and going through all the neat things! I have had to buy christmas gifts online the last 10 years due to being unable to go into stores! I was afraid of people and of crowds due to all the horrible stares and comments I have endured over the years! I rented a wheelchair for the big places like that, but the smaller stores and souveneir shops I actually went in and walked around on my own! This is such a miracle and something I had only dreamed of doing for the last ten years! I bet I hit every store between there and home!*LOL* I am definitley getting the hang of this "shopping" thing!:) I will update more later! Just had to stop in and share my good news and my fun time!

07/10/02

UPDATE** Today was my first PCP visit to start the process of getting my plastic surgery. Dr. Florence was so very supportive and helpful! I am very excited about getting this excess skin off and getting all the surgical things behind me! I will update more as I progress!
Hello! Wow, things just get better and better here! I actually went bowling (YES BOWLING) with my son, mother and husband! Wow that was fun! I never dreamed that I would be out being active and having fun this time last year! My son was so excited that he and I were out together doing fun things! He just kept hugging me and kissing my arm and helping me learn to bowl:) That meant the world to me!

Just wanted to update since I am close to my one year post op mark. I was thinking how blessed I have been over this past year. I have made so much progress, and most all of it has been due to my wonderful family! My uncle Ron and my husband were there for me when I went to have the surgery. My Uncle went above and beyond what anyone could ever imagine and I love him so much for all he did for me! Then I have my husband who Never left my side, through all of this journey! I couldn't have made it without him! He cared for me and waited on me hand and foot through all my recovery process! He goes for walks with me and just always gives me positive thoughts! I even had my mom and dad who were completely behind me! I read about so many people whose families are negative but I can say I've had nothing but 100% support!

I think today did more good for me than anything! My mother overheard my 9 year old son talking to one of his classmates today after school. He said "My mom is still a big woman, but she has lost a TON of weight, and she could walk like 10 times around this whole school yard if she wanted now, I am proud of my mom!" Well as you can imagine, I am beside myself with happiness! What a beautiful statement! I am continuing my walks and trying to prepare for my 1 year checkup. I am trying to not obsess over how much I've lost but to keep thinking how far I've come from this time last year. I have truly been given a second chance at life!
ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY POST!!!!!!
I just got home! I went for my 1 year check up and I had lost another 97lbs! THAT makes a grand total of  lbs gone forever! I AM SO HAPPY I DID THIS! I can't stand it I just want to scream it from the top of every mountain!*LOL

Hello to everyone and thank you for all the support! Next month will be my one year postop visit to the doctor and I cannot wait! I am feeling so Great and it just gets better every single day! I can still feel the weight coming off! I hope it doesn't end for a while! I am already so much happier than I have been in years! It has truly been a blessing!

I have scheduled my one year anniversary check up on the 15th of May at 9:30am. I am so excited to get an official weightloss total! This short year has brought so much to me, I am truly blessed in my life! I can do things now that this time last year I could only dream about. Yesterday, I went outside and actually played with my son, and we went for a walk, cleaned out the car and worked in the flower bed! I couldn't even get up OUT OF MY BED this time last year! I am so happy! I will update as soon as I have my new update on my weight!:)

Hello! I just thought I would update my profile. I have also been updating my obesityhelp survey! Pretty interesting to see where your journey is leading you. I recommend it to everyone!I have been feeling so wonderful and just can't wait until May to get my Tummy tuck process going! I am actually venturing into stores a little here and there and just getting out more and enjoying doing things! I feel so good about myself now, I just feel as if nothing can stop me! I sure do hope this feeling lasts! I notice alot of people write about having days where they are hungry all day long and I want you to know I do the same thing. Sometimes, I think something must be wrong with my new stomach because I am able to eat. But I really think about it, and it is probably not even ENOUGH food for what I should be eating! I guess guilty feelings about food are gonna be a long time in leaving me. I also have some days where I don't want to eat anything at all. I still battle with getting all my water down but most days I manage it pretty well. Well I will update more later on! God Bless!
Hello! Just thought I would update my page today. I am having such a good time now days! Each and every day is just getting better and better! I actually was cleaning the house the other morning. I walked around outside and picked up the yard, took out the trash, swept, did dishes, all kinds of things that most people dread! I am completely just thrilled that I can ACTUALLY do them now! My poor husband came home and thought someone else had been here*LOL Bless his heart! He just doesn't know what he is in for huh? I feel so good now! This surgery has truly been a miracle for me and I dont think I would be here to speak to anyone today had I not gone ahead and done it for myself!

Just checking in. I am still feeling great and the weight is still coming off. I have to wait 6 more months however to get my first tummy tuck. But that's okay since It is going to happen! I still can't get many meats down often, but I do pretty good with everything else. I have to fight to get all my water in every day and for some reason, my meds are giving me problems when I try to swallow them. But I am spreading them out during the day so that I am not overwhelmed by them all at once. THanksgiving went great and it was so nice to sit down and just eat a few bites and be totally satisfied. I love it! Can't wait till Christmas! My son is so happy that he and I can take walks together now. He holds out his little hand and says "mom, i will help you if you need me to" and it just brings me to tears and I realize how blessed I am to have such a sweet little son. I will update more later!
Hello again. Just updating. I am feeling wonderful! My weight loss is still progressing nicely. I can tell in my clothes and how I feel. I also got married on Dec. 18th! I am so happy! It sure seems like my life is coming together quite nicely for me now! I am looking forward to getting some of this extra skin gone in about 5 months! I Won't know how to act! I will update more after the Holidays! God Bless everyone and I hope you have a WONDERFUL Holiday Season!!!!!!!!!

WOOHOOOO! Been a while since I have written. But I go for my 6 month Post op checkup tomorrow. I am so excited as I haven't got to weigh since My 8 week out mark. So it should be a good loss by now. I sure do hope so. I will post again when I get back from the Doctor tomorrow and I hope it is a great report! My hair loss has slowed quite a bit now and I am doing better on my eating nowdays. It is still difficult for me to eat meat sometimes, but it is getting better. I am completely in love with eating beef jerky now! It is so good and full of protien! A great way to get ahead on it. Well it is late so I will write more tomorrow after my doctor report!!!
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WELL HERE IT IS! MY OFFICIAL LOSS FOR MY 6 MONTH MARK IS  LBS!! I am thrilled! I now weigh in at 520lbs. I realize it's a long long way to go still, but I am so happy that I've come this far in this short of a time.