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October 2, 2007                         2 weeks out

Deep breaths are what I have been taking a lot of. Alright surgery went well, was in the OR an extra hour do to some bleeding issues. But all turned out well. 2 1/2 dys in the hospital (good hospital) no complaints. Nurses were great! I was released on a Wednesday and back in the ER on Sunday with terrible pain. They thought it was appendicitis, nope ended up being my drain tube had migrated down to my appendix/bladder area. Obviously causing some substantial pain. Anyhow ER treated me wonderfully was quick doing a battery of test and pushing pain meds as needed. Dr.Davis on call bariatric surgeon found the problem removed the tube and BINGO!! Pain was gone just like that. I am having a good deal of discomfort still in my left side still. Today I am 2 weeks out from surgery, feeling scared that I was nuts for thinking I could handle this right now with my husband leaving so soon. 
That takes me to last night. I had the grand crying session. About 4 hour’s worth of out of my mind thoughts of sadness. I am sure this is because of the upcoming, very long deployment, not feeling like me yet, saying good bye to food for now and learning to be alright with this change I have permanently done to my body. It is really hard, can’t make light of that. I am so proud of all the people out there who just breeze through this, power to them. Guess I am just me and what can I expect. I hope to feel better soon, I prey that something gives me that inner strength I really need right now.
O.k. that about wraps it up for now. I am just trying to be strong, love my family, deal with these huge changes I have created for myself and love myself. That last one I have never yet achieved but is one of my biggest goals...

Yikes, getting close now, 3 more days. I am having the same jitters I think everyone gets. Mine are more about the first few weeks following. I read so many posts about how bad the first 2 weeks or so can be. I am really preying for an uneventful beginning. Dr.Scot’s office just called to let me know the surgery has been moved an hour sooner Monday. Yeah, the sooner I get in there the sooner I am on my way to recovery to see my hubby . I am so thankful it has worked out for him to be here by me through this first week or two. O.k. enough rambling, but then again one more thing to say. Yuck is the liquid diet. I am on day 5 (only minimal slips-lol) but this part is not great...

September 7/07
Wowosers, 10 days to surgery... Getting pretty excited. Thursday was my last appointment with Dr. before surgery (DOSA appt.). Appointment went great, all my questions covered I headed for the hospital for pre op clinic. Had the normal (EKG, chest x-ray, blood work) they were right on task, not a lot of waiting around. I am to start my liquid living on Monday , freaked out just a little about loosing food. But it is a new beginning and the challenge to becoming healthier is on-lol... Not sure if anyone else has volunteered to be in the study but I am doing the buttress study on both linier and round staples (should be interesting). Also I volunteered to do the breast cancer/ obesity related study. Hum did that first part today, not sure that I will stay in that study...