Why do candy bars taste so good on a bad day?

Jan 10, 2016

So having lots of emotional issues today. The hormones are raging, the mind is racing and it's like someone's kicked me in the chest. I don't want fast food, I want candy. I had a skor bar. 200 calories and I'm not proud of it. It didn't make me feel better but I'm also seeing the compulsion. I reached out to people before hand but no one was available. So I said ok...lets wade carefully through the motional mandline which is my brain and the only thing to light the way is this candy bar. 

Except it did nothing. Just made me sadder, still hurting, still not able to take my mind off of it or find relief. I know, I KNOW these feelings will pass but god until they do...it's like being kicked in the chest over and over. I cannot wait until this passes. I'm strong enough to get through it but it's going to hurt for another few days. I did at least get in my work out and am toying with doing a second work out tonight to exhaust myself so I'll sleep and not focus on whats bothering me. Am I using exercise to block out an deflect my feelings? 110%. I need to deflect these feelings until I can come up for air and deal with them calmly instead of letting it consume me. I don't know if I'll actually be able to get in the extra work out, but I'm thinking about it, surely that's got to count for something, right?

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