Still Here!

May 22, 2012

It's been awhile since I've been on here...so to my "buddies" who share my surgery date...sorry! I'm still alive! lol It's been a crazy month for my family. A month ago, my step-mother passed away kind of unexpectedly. She had been battling lung cancer, and was doing pretty well so we thought. Then she had one last round of chemo and it depleted her immune system, she got pneumonia and a horrible infection and had nothing to fight it with. So, it was a shock to say the least, especially after everything she had been through and fought off the past several months. She and my dad made a perfect pair, and he really is lost without her. So, among dealing with my own grief, I've been looking after him almost nightly. Finally getting to a point where I don't have to be there with him every evening now. He's doing a little better, a day at a time. So that on top of nursing school and my own family obligations has left me exhausted and with little time to spare. I'm still losing weight...haven't hit the 100 lb mark yet, but hope to get there soon. I am in a size 16 regular, not women's, and happy to be there! Hope to get to a 14 this summer. My eating habits have been TERRIBLE to say the least. By that I mean, I'm not getting the nutrition I need every day. Some days I forget my vitamins, and for a few days I really felt it. So I've been really adamant about keeping up with my supplements. Feeling my energy return for sure! And also, I've started back on protein shakes again twice a day. Gotta get myself back together here! I'm pretty sure that's why my weight loss has slowed down...my body isn't getting what it needs and so it's holding onto what it has. And my HAIR!!! It's thinning so much. I really can feel it and see it. Other's don't notice it, but I sure do! I have lost a LOT of hair. It really bothers me. I spoke with someone at the last support group meeting I went to and was assured that it will start to regrow very soon. Boy I hope so! So I am really making a full effort to get back to paying better attention to my nutrition and give my body what it needs. Not easy, but doable for sure. Oh, and my belly STILL makes obnoxious noises after I eat! I am super careful about what I eat at school because sometimes it's so loud other's can hear it too! (The girl next to me thought I was hungry one day and offered me a granola bar!! lmao!!!) Does anyone elses belly sound like there's a battle going on in there?!?! It's insane! And embarassing to say the least! But I just deal with it like everything else! lol Try and find the humor, that's all we can do!
Kids are almost out of school...10 more days! And in a few more weeks, I'll be out for the summer myself...can't wait! I look around my yard and see LOTS of projects to do this year...things I couldn't do last year because I was so heavy and miserable. I look at pics of me last summer and WOW! What a difference! No regrets at all. This surgery was by far the best thing I ever did for myself. For the first time since I was a teenager, I am looking forward to summer again. Hope everyone else is doing well! Now that the dust is settling, I'll be checking in more often again. Happy Memorial Day!

1 Comment