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TLC did not have us do the show, but have called about a few other (for which we/I did not qualify) but you never know what might happen.

My feet and hands are better, we discovered my ADHD med were causing the vaso-constriction...I am on a different med that addresses both the ADHD and manic behavior, but now that I no longer take Concerta, I am gaining weight. I exercise without fail, but my weight has creeped up. The doc said he might have some other alternatives, I see him next week, hope he can help me. UGH!

Going to two reunions in the next few months. One if for my old gang in LA, a bunch of mod/scooter people from my teens. I actually look forward to seeing many and many seeing me in my new body! Last they all saw me I was 280 pounds, including my ex hubby.

Then my high school reunion, same scenario. Should be a kick.

I am now working on a new project, fueled by love for riding my trike, travel and costumes. It's a travel show and the concept is riding my trike and arriving at local events in appropriate costume, pulling some antics and having a fun time. Using the "secret" I am sending out as much positive energy as I can and I know things are going to fall into place.

I realized that goals/dreams are like an airplane. You can sit at the airport, you can wait on the plane, but no matter how long it takes, you know you will arrive at your destination eventually. You must. Furthermore, you never know who you might sit next to on that plane.

Well, still having the Raynaud's syndrome with my feet and hands, but the new prescription is helping a little bit. It is a calcium channel blocker that opens up the veins to allow the blood to flow better, but I still have cold/numbness and some pain, but not as bad as it was. The medication makes my head hurt and my eyes blur ( I think it's from that) but I go to a specialist next week to see what we can do and try to find out what is causing the Raynaud's. 

In the meantime, I took a shot in the dark and applied for a TV show on TLC. They called me back right away and the whole family will auditioning in Burbank next week. Even if we don't make it on the show, I am enjoying the process and the "team work" attitude that the four of us are gathering up to make our family ready for the task. I know we'll have fun no matter what the outcome! 

Heard from many old friends recently on myspace, I started rooting around one of my friend's site, and voila, there were many other friends and more and more...so now hearing from them all. Many have not seen me in over 15 years, and were very surprised at how different I looked. I don't expect to rekindle friendships, but you never know. Some of them were really fun people to hang out with, and I miss hearing the stories!

Taxes today, oh goody, and rain. I will work on art work and try to get the application done for the show.

Okay, been dealing with a "mystery" ailment that I thought was B-12 deficiency. My vitamin levels came back perfect. My tests for rheumatoid arthritis and other immuno-type tests came back with nothing. Then it got worse: Tired, nauseated (losing weight because of it), sore, not able to think, blurred vision, aching, toes blue and numb/sore, overall feeling sick! Then we discovered that the fire burning stove in our living room was damaged (smoke came pouring in last week). Then we realized everyone in the house had "symptoms" of carbon monoxide poisoning. Anyhow, I got tested last week, will know today. In the meantime, replaced the chimney stack and have been feeling better, but still not totally recovered. I hope it is what we think so we can take care of it, otherwise I am at a loss! Hopefully I did not get too much damage if it is CO poisoning.

Numb/painful toes and fingers, feeling whoozy and spacey, moody, tired...got a shot and feeling MUCH better. Had the same problem last year about this time, might need to start getting regular shots. I take a sub-lingual, but may not be working.

My weight is actually less than it was at this time last year! Been holding between 139 and 141 for months now. Going to Curves regularly and really watching my night time eating and portions again. Snacking more carefully too! I would still like to drop about 10 pounds, but I am happy at this size too. I am going to try pilates soon and hopefully tone up. Doing great at this time!

My eyes healed nicely, I am loving the ability to wear a lot less make-up on and around my eyes. I just had to get glasses, so I wear them most of the time. I like them, but there are times I catch a glance of myself in a mirror and see my mother! LOL But she is pretty cute, so that's okay. My weight seems to stay between 138 and 144 lately. Been going to Curves again, but not much happening progress wise, probably because I am not going as frequently as I once was. I think I am getting a bit bored and might try to do something else like pilates?! My dog, Percy, had to be put down last week, it was terribly sad. He was thirteen years old and the best dog I had ever owned. He had a giant tumor in his stomach and had stopped eating. Like me, this dog loved to eat, so I knew something was seriously wrong. I won't get into the details, they are too painful, but I realized that he was always my friend and never cared what I weighed, what mood I was in, where I took him, he loved me unconditionally. God is so generous to give us our pets! I am still working with the property management company and love it. My bosses treat my like family, pay me well and give me lots of perks. I just like working with them, the pay isn't the important part. My marriage is strong, the kids always seem to cause the most riff, but I know that is normal in any marriage, especially with step-children. It is so much work, that's why I didn't want kids in the first place. I still fight skin issues/adult acne from time to time. Some of it is the skin version of MRSA, and I have to get sulfa meds to kill it, some is just hormonal. I finally tried Paula Begoun's line of products, and they are definitely working. She writes the book "Don't Go to the Cosmetics Counter Without Me" and studies/tests and evaluates cosmetic products for quality and use. I will stick with these! My husband has gained so much weight since we got together that I am seriously worried about his health. He gets checked all the time (blood work, etc..) and supposedly everything is okay, but diabetes, heart issues, etc...all run in his family. We have tried to diet before, he can't stick to it, he really does not make an effort to exercise, except for golf. I don't nag him too much about it, I am just worried he'll end up very ill. His parents died in their 60's and looked like they were in their 90's. I know he has thought about WLS, I am starting to wonder if it might be a good idea. It would have to be his choice though.

Feeling swollen, but very pleased with the results of my surgery. No more unnecessary surgeries after this! I know many think I am being vain, etc...for doing this, but I am so glad I did it. I could still have a leg lift, butt lift, arm tuck, etc...but I am happy and healthy. ENOUGH. Weight about 143 right now, but no gym and IV are to blame. When I get back to the gym, I know it will come off.

Since last update: been singing a lot, but suddenly things have come to a halt. Not sure why, but my singing partner seems burned out, so I am giving him space. I really enjoy singing, hope to find another project or pick up where we left off! People really enjoy us.

Weight is bobbing around 142..stepped up the work out at Curves recently and have taken up golf. Seems I am more hungry these days, so watching what I eat very carefully.  Would still like to drop ten more pounds!

Got my hair cut in a spunky bob, everyone loves it, I fell younger and more sophisticated, I feel like it suits my age and personality more.

Sept. 10 I am getting my eyes "done", in other words, the eye lids un-drooped and the bags under my eyes taken away...I have always had the shadows under my eyes, I look tired all the time. Hopefully I will look more well-rested and not so old once this is done. My eyelids have sagged from the weight loss, and  though it isn't too noticeable, I can see it will be a problem in the future. I am using the same surgeon my mom did, so I feel pretty confident about it.

Home life has gotten better lately, Randy and I are really getting good at working together and thinking on the same page...

I am a couple of weeks away from my five year WLS anniversary, so hard to believe! I have mostly kept the weight off (I am actually a few pounds lower than my last check-up with Dr. Higa) but still up a few from my original lowest weight...I am losing size though, many of my jeans I was wearing a few months ago are positively too big, falling off too big..so I am now officially into 6 petites and very close to 4 petites (can wear 4's but they are very snug.) Everyone has definitely noticed. I just wish my thighs looked a lot better, they are so baggy, but I am not willing to undergo surgery to correct them...in the future I think I will buckle down and try body building in that area and try to fill in the loose skin with muscle if nothing else.

This weekend my husband and I dropped the kids off at overnight camp, so I am glad to have some time to myself. My singing partner and I are ramping up for our first public appearance, open mic at a local saloon next week. I am singing some Pretenders, Janis Joplin, Joan Jett and maybe a few more..my dream of performing as a singer is coming true. I am not expecting to be famous, but I do love to perform!

Ironically on the way to drop the boys off I noticed a really fat guy on a silver Harley Davidson. on the freeway..we all commented that his head looked too small for his body and how his butt crack was hanging out, etc...haha Well, guess who??? My ex! He is on the before pic on this profile. What are the chances of that happening? He didn't see me, thankfully, but it just reminds me of how far I have come since my WLS. New husband, new family, career, etc...

I was pondering this morning...would I have done all that I have done in the last five years if I hadn't lost the weight? It's hard to say, I suppose I have always had the ability to do all the things I have wanted to do, but maybe losing weight made me more willing to do them.

I am only 8 pounds away from my immediate goal of 133, weighed in at 141.5 today...yesterday went shopping for pants, back to size 6 petite (4 petite was the smallest) and I actually like the way I am looking in the dressing room mirror! Skirt size I am a 4/small...dress I have to be a bit bigger due to my boob balloons...but that's okay!