mylou
It has been a while...
Jun 23, 2010
It has been 14 weeks and 1 day since surgery. I now weigh 238.6 as of yesterday. I think about loosing weight, the surgery or eating all the time. I occasionally think of exercising but have not started a routine yet. I do want to. It is very hot now and I am kept so busy with the kids. I like staying busy, it is easier to keep calories down when I have a busy day. When we are at home I find myself eating more carbs than I would like. I have stopped journaling my food. Many of the foods I eat are difficult to track. I didn't feel like I was getting an accurate calorie, protein or carb count. I have been using caloriecount.about.com. I think we eat out too much. I feel as though I am ill prepared to eat at home because we have such a busy family. Last week we ate out 7 times. We also went to a movie and I had popcorn ( a very small amount...it made me feel sick) and we spent 5 evenings at the ball park and I had a few of my daughter's nachos two of those nights. Up until about 3 weeks ago I had not eaten very many carbs. Just before my period I was craving chocolate... that is not something I ate often before surgery. I do a pretty good job of listening to my body when I have had enough food, but I could do better. Some days it seems that all I want to do all day is eat and other days I'm fine with very little at all. I still can not tolerate whey protein powders so it is difficult to get all my protein in if I don't go by Smoothie King and get a gladiator...thing about those is I cannot be sure how many calories and carbs are in them once they add the fruit and fruit juices.
I feel a hundred time better about my body now than I did before surgery. I still feel "fat" and I think people still see me as "fat". Not very many people have commented on my weight loss. A few have and I have struggled with whether or not to tell them I've had the surgery. I feel compelled to tell those who are overweight about the WLS because it has been such a great tool for me. I finally feel a sence of control over the food I put in my body. I want other people who suffer like I have to know their is hope. Before surgery was an option for me I felt SO hopeless. In the beginning I was worried the weight wouldn't come off. I think I've proven to myself that the surgery works and I can beat this food addiction I am battling. I want others to know that their is help out there.
I am going down in clothing sizes, but wish the scale would move faster. I feel like I have been trying to get down to 238 (50 lb mark) for weeks now. Of course currently I am on my period and as a result I believe I am retaining water. I am wearing a very loose size 22/24. The pants are falling off and I will soon need to buy smaller sizes. I was a little discouraged the other day in Wal-Mart... I thought I would try some of their clothes because they are so inexpensive and I do not want to spend a fortune on clothes as I continue to drop sizes...however their 1x was much too tight for me... I was hoping to be out of the 2x shirts by now. I tried not to get upset...I guess I am just getting ahead of myself.
It is so much easier to stay active during the days. Before surgery it was nothing if not habit for me to sleep 1-2 hours in the afternoons. Many of those days I needed the rest just to make it through the day without biting someone's head off. But now I do not need the rest and can accomplish so much more during the day than before. I just have more energy than before... I guess this is how 'normal' feels. It is amazing the correlation between food and how I feel. If I eat crappy then I feel crappy. This is not news to me... I mean I knew this is what people said before, but now I know it... I can feel the difference for myself and that is huge for me. For me it is like smoking... 10 years ago I knew it was awful for me but until I quit I never really knew just how sick it was making me and just how bad I was hurting myself. Same with the food. I can totally see how my diet was killing me before and how important it is that I teach my children to take better care of their bodies.
I have been rambling...I guess I will just wrap it up by saying I am very happy to be loosing weight and figuring out this food addiction I've got.
Keep Smilin' :-)
