Mymamona1
So I havent given up really I havent....
Apr 07, 2011
Its thursday and I've been sitting on my butt not doing a darned thing. I wish I could report to you that I have been exercising and losing tons of weight but I cant report that. Its been about a month and I've been at the same weight. GAH! I'm not making excuses but I just found out that I'm going to be a grandma. Can you believe it. I'm beyond in shock I would love to say I'm happy about it but I'm not. I don't know what I'm going to do? I want to knock some sense into her head but what can we do now? Whats done is done.
Ive been a single mother all my daughters life and this isnt at all what I wanted for her. I love my girls and I will love this child just as much. I want more for my kids and I'm so disappointed that this has happened. I know God has a purpose for everything on this earth. But I dont know how financially I can afford to raise another child. But I also cant afford to let my daughter fail and not be able to make something better for herself if she will let me. Thats the struggle I'm having. I've led her to the right choices and decisions. Ive taught her right and wrong. Though we all make mistakes. I know Ive made plenty of them. I want to learn and have her learn more and more than I ever did.
As a parent I want for her and my other daughter to surpass any thing I have ever accomplished. I have good kids but at this moment. I want to be happy and look forward to this new era of my life.
I'm going to try to continue on this journey and keep trying to lose as much weight as I can. I want to pursue every avenue of my journey. I hope and pray that I not give up and press on. I feel like a shell of my former self.
So what does this new era bring. I'm going to be a grandmother. I'm going to not be the free person I thought I would have been once the weight loss would be gone now I have a different weight. YIKES! So as far as the weight loss support that I'd been given. I'm going to need a weight gain support for this load that I'm beginning to carry. Yes I don't have to carry it but what else can I do? I'm scared and quite honestly I dont have anyone to express it to so here you are OH friends. Keep me in your prayers and this is new to me and I hope to tell you next time that I have a more positive outlook on this whole adventure we are about to start.
I wont give up. I will press on. I will work on getting back on track with exercise and working on my weightloss.
Thanks for listening.
Mona
