RissaCup
Almost a year since last blog
Jan 06, 2015
SO I'm just writing because I am bored at work haha - So my vsg surgeversay will be on 02/05/15 - I weighed 270 on day of surgery - Today I weigh 143. I bounce between 143 and 145 depending on salt intake. It has been a crazy ride! I have gone from size 22-24 to a size 5-7 depending. I wouldn't change it for the world. I have become slightly anorexic and bulimic ( I am working on these issues) due to fear of gaining weight back if I eat over 1200 calories in a day. Its hard to transition back to eating to nourish yourself when essentially I've been starving my body for about a year. But I take it one day at a time and try to not get overwhelmed about food. The mindset of wanting to eat is still there. My eyes want food then I eat and am like ugh - I don't really eat anything bad for me and if I do its only once in a while. I am hoping to strengthen my mind in 2015.
1 week post op
Feb 13, 2014
So I am officially 8 days post op. The post op right after wasn't really what I had expected. I was expecting a lot worse. I have had minor pain - I am officially off the medecine they sent me home with. I am having protein shakes, jello, apple sauce, and pudding - all seeeming to go down just fine. For more of a salty taste been drinking Chicken broth. I have been eating so little which is the point, its just different. I dont feel hungry anymore, I just feel really weak and that is how I know to eat.
Basically ive been eating the same thing everyday except for the first few days back. One the first few days, I was only able to drink about 24-48 ounces of water per day and 1 protein shake. I was mainly eating chicken broth with added protein. I had maybe gotten 40 grams protein in that was it. I couldnt stomach much else.
Below is normal for what i eat - in no particular order
- Pure Protein Shake (23 Grams) Chocolate (takes about an hour to drink)
- Bottle of Water (take about 2 hours for full bottle)
- SF Jello cup
- SF Pudding (with tsp unflavored protein powder)
- EAS Advantedge Carb Control Protein shake w/ PB2
- Applesauce
- Water Bottle (2 hours to drink)
Since I started my Preop Diet - I weighed in at 284 and am now 259 so that is a 25 lbs loss in about 3 weeks. I have lost about 6 lbs since surgery. My stomach is still swollen. and normal pants are uncomfortable to wear. I love sweat pants that is for sure! The strips over the incisions are coming off. HAHA I bought despicable me bandaids to put over them just to be cautious. I laugh at myself over that one. I got my tax returns and am being paid tomorrow so Im going to buy a new computer! So excited! Ill be updating as I go.
2 Days away!
Feb 03, 2014
My surgery is 2 days away and I couldn't be more excited and nervous about it. It's an overwhelming feeling that is for sure. On one hand im scared to death that im going to go to sleep and not wake up. What i'd be leaving behind and how much I haven't experienced yet. I think it's there more because this is an elective surgery. I am only 26 years old and in reasonably good health! On the other, I know I'm making the right choice. I don't want to end up like these people in the series My 600 LBs life. I refuse it.
So some awesome news is that my starting weight was 283 and this morning I was 269. That is from the liver shrink diet! It's an awesome awesome awesome Feeling. I've decided to just do nothing but liquids these last two days (not actually reccomended by Surgeon) to help get my liver smaller.
My family is coming to town tomorrow to support me for my surgery. It means a lot. At first I got a lot of slack for just looking at the option and now they are really supportive. I love my family.
Moving forward, this is a time in my life where I get to change it all. I cannot wait until this process ends because my life gets to restart again. A New, exciting, healthy ME!!!!
Also!!! Feel free to check out my YouTube Channel - RissacupSleeved
Day 4 - Liver Shrink diet
Jan 23, 2014
I must say that it is getting a lot easier as I go. I'm on day 4 and I'm barely even hungry anymore. Last night was probably the worst. I was having trouble sleeping last night because the hunger was so intense. I just chugged a bottle of water and it helped. I woke up this morning feeling refreshed and not hungry! Hallelujah! I went to the OSU Bariatric Support Group last night and it was awesome. I had never been before but I think it really helped seeing those and talking to people who have gone through the same thing. We talked about spouses, how much addiction is a struggle and how fat people are much more stronger than skinny people haha! The coolest thing so far is that I am noticing the scale going down so its nice. I just need to get my ass to the gym but work has been kicking my ass so much lately.
The surgery is in less than two weeks and I'm excited and scared to death at the same time. I'm not really afraid of the procedure as much as I am a reaction from the anesthesia. I will definitely be talking with anesthesiologist on the morning of the surgery, I am just afraid my heart my have an adverse reaction as I had PVC's during my last operation at 14 years old (I was told that was a normal thing). But Non the less, it still scares me.
Probably the best thing that has come from this is my ability to seek out some problems I have had with anxiety, history of bulimia that I have hidden from the world, and the ability to make decisions for myself. I am a very independent person but still feel like a trapped little girl. This process has really made me grow up in so many ways that I didn't realize I had to before. Tim has been my rock. Hes my baby and the one good thing about him is that he is so supportive. I didn't really have that in my past relationships so its a great feeling.
What is certain is that I cannot wait to get this surgery underway. This is because I really am ready to be the person I have always been , just stuck in the fat girls body.
My date has been set.
Jan 06, 2014
I am set to have my surgery on February 5th at 7:30 am which means a 5:30 arrival - ughh.... no sleeping the night before... I suppose thats a good thing... I'll be konked out all day....
I've been approved!
Dec 09, 2013
I have been approved by my insurance and have scheduled my date with the surgeon and anesthesiologist. I am getting more and more excited. for the past 26 years of my life I've been overweight and for the first time - theres hope . I have tried and tried and tried weightloss other ways. I even suffered from bullimia when i was a teenager. Now I'm taking control of my life and I cannot wait to see what is on the other side!
30 by 30
Oct 08, 2013
In addition to reaching a healthy BMI and weight by the age of 30, I also wanted to make a list of other things I’d like to do before that time. Anyone that has struggled with their weight and especially those that suffer from morbid obesity know that some things just aren’t possible/easy anymore. SO, you’ll see that a lot of things on this list are everyday things for people of a normal weight, but not so much for me
I have not finished the list so any suggestions would be great!
I have not finished the list so any suggestions would be great!
30 by 30
Oct 08, 2013
In addition to reaching a healthy BMI and weight by the age of 30, I also wanted to make a list of other things I’d like to do before that time. Anyone that has struggled with their weight and especially those that suffer from morbid obesity know that some things just aren’t possible/easy anymore. SO, you’ll see that a lot of things on this list are everyday things for people of a normal weight, but not so much for me
I have not finished the list so any suggestions would be great!
Quote to remember - My Motto every day
Oct 07, 2013
I wake up every day with the realization that this is it, that there's only one shot at this life and I can either enjoy the ride and live it to its fullest and to my highest potential or I can stay the way I am.
