RissaCup
Day 4 - Liver Shrink diet
Jan 23, 2014
I must say that it is getting a lot easier as I go. I'm on day 4 and I'm barely even hungry anymore. Last night was probably the worst. I was having trouble sleeping last night because the hunger was so intense. I just chugged a bottle of water and it helped. I woke up this morning feeling refreshed and not hungry! Hallelujah! I went to the OSU Bariatric Support Group last night and it was awesome. I had never been before but I think it really helped seeing those and talking to people who have gone through the same thing. We talked about spouses, how much addiction is a struggle and how fat people are much more stronger than skinny people haha! The coolest thing so far is that I am noticing the scale going down so its nice. I just need to get my ass to the gym but work has been kicking my ass so much lately.
The surgery is in less than two weeks and I'm excited and scared to death at the same time. I'm not really afraid of the procedure as much as I am a reaction from the anesthesia. I will definitely be talking with anesthesiologist on the morning of the surgery, I am just afraid my heart my have an adverse reaction as I had PVC's during my last operation at 14 years old (I was told that was a normal thing). But Non the less, it still scares me.
Probably the best thing that has come from this is my ability to seek out some problems I have had with anxiety, history of bulimia that I have hidden from the world, and the ability to make decisions for myself. I am a very independent person but still feel like a trapped little girl. This process has really made me grow up in so many ways that I didn't realize I had to before. Tim has been my rock. Hes my baby and the one good thing about him is that he is so supportive. I didn't really have that in my past relationships so its a great feeling.
What is certain is that I cannot wait to get this surgery underway. This is because I really am ready to be the person I have always been , just stuck in the fat girls body.
