Two weeks out

Aug 10, 2010

Weight: 345
8/10/10

My incisions are much better.. almost ready to sleep in my bed again instead of the recliner.  The hunger is  much more manageable but I still feel a sort of chemical hunger.

My stomach is full, my head doesn't really care if I eat more, but my body is still "craving".  I must have a lot of ghrelin working its way out of my system.  Maybe I need to do a Ghrelin Exorcism.. *out damn hormones, the power of VSG compells you!*

Had my first mushies.. chicken salad and baked ricotta.  I ate both relatively fast and felt my tummy relatively full, but didn't have any issues.  Sometimes I feel a tiny wave of nausea which recedes within a minute or two.  I was able to eat about 1/8 of a cup of chicken salad and 1/4 cup baked ricotta.

As of today I've lost 15 pounds since surgery but I haven't lost anything in 4 days or so.  I won't be one of those people posting on the board about it.. I've seen this is very common.  I can't help but be scared that this won't work for me though.  I hear stalls are common but now I understand why they scare folks.

In general I've felt a bit pessimistic about this all.. I've tried so many things and none of it seems to help so in general I've become so discouraged, that VSG was really a drastic thing for me.  So I can understand now why stalls scare people...  I'll have to keep reminding myself that this won't be forever (logically) and ignore my (emotional) fears.  

People still think I was on vacation the two weeks I was out at work.  I've told the few people who asked that I was out for medical reasons and have left it at that.  I am OK with my decision not to tell people but it feels weird.. I'm usually so open.  I just have to remind myself that I really don't want this to get around the office.

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