Six weeks out

Sep 07, 2010

Weight: 332
9/7/10

Last week was difficult for me as I was at a school conference all week.. 7 days of 12 hour long classes plus a 2 hour round trip commute.  Additionally it was a highly stressful conference so I maintained the same weight all week.

I ate the insides of the free sandwiches they gave out, and the meat was saltier than the meat I usually make when I cook fresh.  I didn't lose much of anything last week.  I did do a lot of walking on my lunch/dinner breaks. 

I'm glad to be back home and getting more sleep, having access to a kitchen to prepare my own fresh foods, being away from the stress, etc.  I was able to wear some clothes to the conference that I hadn't worn for a while, and noticed that I felt a lot better physically when going for walks, etc.  So that was definitely a positive.

I've noticed that I want to eat all the time now.. it's like since I can't eat volume like I used to, I now want to eat more frequently.  I'm trying to stick to eating mostly dense meat as I can only eat 2.5 ounces and then I'm full for a few hours. 

Even if I try to eat soft lunch meats or cheeses I can pack more of those in more frequently.  Yesterday I was able to eat about a cup of green beans with no problem.  But I couldn't eat more than 2.5 ounces of meat.

I'm still adjusting and trying to figure out what works for me as far as what foods cause me issues and when to stop.  Unfortunately I've had a few times where I ate too fast or too much (or both) and got sick and threw up.  

I'm so habituated to wolfing down my food I am having a hard time changing.  Frequently I feel bad that I don't lose as much as others and worry that I won't lose my weight.  Several days of no weight loss are disappointing, but I can't avoid the scale as this puts me in denial when I'm on the wrong track.

I just started classes again and it's a bit overwhelming.  I really want to join a gym again but I'm not yet sure how I'm going to juggle the gym with school.  Believe it or not my incisions are still healing quite a bit.  Two of my largest incisions are still recovering.

They don't seem to be infected - no smell, redness, etc. but have had some goo oozing out.  I put hydrogen peroxide on them, then covered them with large bandaids and some neosporin.  That seemed to help right away.  I feel like they should already be healed.. I wonder why I am such a slow healer.

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