Been such a long time....
Aug 05, 2010
Here I am once again. It has been such a long time and I havent been following the rules, or getting regular fills or losig weight. I have been in a FuNk! I went to the doc on Wednesday (different doctor yet again) and got a fill. He put n 1cc which brought me up to 7cc's in my 10cc band. I FEEL HORRIBLE! I feel like I have indigestion. I am on liquids since the fill but, it just seems like the liquid is kind of stuck. I feel the I have to keep burping and while I sleep I cough because fluid is coming back up? Like I'm gagging in my sleep. I think I might be ready to find a different doctor as my original doctor no longer works where I got banded and I have seen three different doctors there. This last one told me how great he is and that my doctor did a lot of his bands wrong. I dont know I am pretty confused. I might see if I can get a slight unfill on Saturday fingers crossed they are open.
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New Year...New Beginning...
Feb 01, 2010
Well It has been a long while since I have been on here...its 2010 and I want to get things back on track....I know I am not where I should be. I realize that I have put in no effort since September...Now I have to take responsibility for my actions...I have to get MYSELF back on track...First things first I have started exercising again and I am going to make an appointment to get a fill...I have gained 12 pounds since September...gotta get back on the right track....So I may have to lean on some of my OH friends...
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Monday...New beginning....(again)
Sep 20, 2009
Ok...well...Its Monday and I need a new beginning again. Hey it happens. So I am going to get going again on the eating right and exercising. So to all you out there that feel like they aren't doing as well as you should be you can always begin again, No one holds it against you. You cant hold it against yourself. Smile and start anew!
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Too full?
Aug 17, 2009
Well it's been a long while since I have been on here. So many things in my life have changed. My eldest son got married. My nephew died. Lots of ups and downs. I hadn't had a fill since the beginning of April so I called and made an appointment. I get there, wait and hour and finally get put in a room. I never see a doctor. Instead the office manager comes to me and tells me my doctor no longer works there. WTF? And the new doctor wants to do the fill under fluoroscope. OK so I have to come back the next week. I come back a week later. I sit in the waiting room for 2 hours. When I go to the desk to find out how much longer they ask me if I signed in. Of course I signed in. Can you believe they never checked me in. The guy who does the fluoroscope has already left and the doctor wants t do a regular fill. WTF? they could have done that last week. So he gets pissed and I get pissed and I really should have left but...I called the owner and told him. He assures me that this is going to happen and quick. Well I think that by calling the owner, the band doctor got even more pissed. He did the fill under fluoroscope but OMG i haven't been able to even drink water since. I was out of town and ended up in the ER to get iv fluids. Im going to call today and see if they can see me today. I am so freaking hungry and thirsty
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Port pain and fill
Apr 10, 2009
So...yesterday I went to my doctor to get a fill and find out about this port pain that I have been having. I wasn't feeling too good about getting weighed...I mean I have been exercising but I haven't really been watching what I eat...so I figured that I hadn't lost anything and I probably gained a little...To my surprise I lost 8 pounds...and the port has pain because of the exercising...I also got a tiny fill...1/2 cc...I couldn't believe that that small amount would make a difference but surprisingly I think it might...we shall see...I really need to watch what I eat. I think what I am doing is bargaining with myself. If I go walk and then go to Pilate's I tell myself that I can cheat with food...its really a bad way of doing things and I haven't ever done that before...New bad behavior that I am learning...I need to nip it in the bud...
Words of Wisdom:
The place where you are now is vital. Never avoid what you must face. Challenge your circumstances and steadily persevere. The path toward victory opens from where you stand.~ Daisaku Ikeda
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Strangest things happen....
Mar 29, 2009
OK...well....I guess its been a good couple of weeks and one bad one...first off I lost 8 more pounds....that was a good thing...also some guy asked me out...Mind you I am married but dont wear any jewelery when I go walking in the mornings...so I had to inform him that I could not go on a date with him (but I have to admit I so loved the attention I got from him when I would go walking in the mornings and see him) needless to say I have changed my walking route.....on the bad side of things...I got my first period in over a year...I feel so strange...all of a sudden there it was...damn it...I almost liked not having a period...so...yeah that about covers it...I am walking about an hour and a half everyday and pilates twice a week...I so want to get under 200 pounds....
Words of Wisdom
"Make today blossom in the manner most appropriate to the person you uniquely are!" ~Daisaku Ikeda
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Its been a while
Mar 23, 2009
OK?....so it's been a little while since I blogged anything at all...since my last blog I had another fill...This last fill hurt...I have no clue why but it did...also I lost 14 pounds...so that was nice....Today I had my first pilates class...it was kind of tough but I loved it...I go back Wednesday...It has been a tough couple of months...but like everything else you get thru it...I wanna thank Kiki for taking me to the "Eating" class its actually a how to eat class I got some great information...and we had a few laughs...So thanks Kiki...
On the bad side...I haven't been eating the way I should and I haven't been true to my walking...to be honest I think I have gotten bored...but I am back on track..I figure I have had a bad week and I need to step up to the plate and redeem myself....Its kind of a busy time for my family right now and I am being pulled in so many different directions...It's kind of hard to find a time for myself but I AM GOING 2 DO IT...I owe it to myself...
Well thanks for reading and if you have a chance drop me a line....
Words Of Wisdom:
To be aware of a single shortcoming in oneself is more useful than to be aware of a thousand in someone else.~ H.H. The Dalai Lama
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I dont understand
Mar 09, 2009
Today I went for a two mile walk. I have been kind of down since my last doctor visit 4 weeks ago. I have an appointment for tomorrow with him. I almost cancelled it. I really dont want him to tell me anything. I went to my dietician today and got myself weighed. Seems that I have lost 10 pounds in three weeks. Now normally I would be so excited about it but...her scale is so different from my band surgeons scale. I am sure that when I go there tomorrow it will only show a 5 pound loss and in 4 weeks he isnt going to be happy. But I know I need a fill...so...I guess Im gonna take it...I will go and take what ever crap he throws at me...but I sure hope that he gives me a fill...ohh well we shall see...
Words of Wisdom
It is not difficult circumstances that defeat one, but one's own weakness.
~Daisaku Ikeda
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a wow day for me
Mar 02, 2009
Today I was doing my usual walk and decided that it was taking way too long...So....I started to jog. OK not a big deal to a lot of folks but I haven't jogged in over 12 years....I was stoked...I actually did it...I met a friend today. I rarely go have coffee with anyone...OK I never go have coffee with anyone...Well today I did..I had a great time and had a few laughs. Thanks so much Kiki...You are an awesome person.
I haven't weighed myself...I am afraid I might be disappointed. I have been doing everything the doc told me to do. I have upped the exercise. Stopped snacking and stopped eating the food that slide thru the band. I just don't feel or see the difference. I so don't want him to get on my ass again...
Words of Wisdom
"A word of encouragement during a failure is worth more than an hour of praise after success."
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