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Okay today I am re-deadicating myself.  I have gained 7 pounds since I finished my 90 day diet.  I do not want to slip any further.  I will start my journal today also.  If anyone reads this please pray for me.

Today I have 35 days before my surgery and need to start planning better.  A will and other legal papers are a must.

I start today...................

YES !!! 
After a little frustration I have a date for my surgery.   9/30/2008. The countdown has started.  Can’t wait to start a new life.   I received an email yesterday about 3:00 pm telling me that they had found my chart and would be calling me soon.

Well it continues. I called this morning (9:40) and Tricia was out of the office so they sent me to her voice mail where I ask if she had found my chart yet. Also left my work and cell phone numbers.

Just called again, (1:15 pm) and was asked who is calling and was sent to her voice mail again. This time I took down her email address and sent her an email.

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I was wondering if you have found my chart yet? If not, is there any way you can schedule my surgery and continue to look for my chart. My concern is that I am getting pushed further and further back in the schedule.

Thank you for your time.
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The wait game continues.

Just (9:30 am) called the doctor's office to see if they had tried and called me about scheduling my surgery and the scheduler can not find my chart.  Said it might be on the doctor's desk.  Took my cell number and said she would call me back.  She is very nice. 

More to come, I hope.

It's raining and everyone is gone different places.  Got up cut the yard and now resting.  I guess my age is starting to show through because I was thinking about life and how I fit in.  Lately it has been a lot about me and my journey.  So I have realized that I need to relax, and listen more to others.  My youngest daughter is starting 10th grade and my wife is having issues at work so my journey might not be the most important thing. 

Now for the hard part.  How to listen and be a better dad and husband.  Sounds easy to do but certain habits are hard to break.  I will start with less TV.  Oh yea, and more family dinners.  Currently my wife and I have picked Wednesdays as our night out.  That's a start...  Wish me luck...

Within two hours of my last post I received a call from my doctor's insurance lady telling me that I had been approved and the paper work was in the scheduler hands.  So now I am waiting to get my date.  So maybe another post will help.  Let's see.....................

August 1st I called Aetna and found out I had been approved.  Then August 5th I received my Approval Letter.  The Friday August 8th I called the doctor's office and was forwarded to a voice mail and even gave them my cell phone number to call anytime.  But still no call.  I had a very bad weekend with depression and eating issues.  And of course the wife caught the brunt of my child like actions.  Not only that but we now have one of my daughter's kids because of child protection concerns.  We love him to death but we are not emotionally able to handle a whole lot anymore. 

Lately I have been thinking about giving up.  I saw the pictures from my daughter's wedding, (little over a week ago) and I still look like a fat old man.  So I know I need the surgery but the waiting is messing with my head and heart.  Please stop........... 

Today I called and Aetna said I have been approved.......

Now waiting for the doctor's office to call and schedule the big day...


wwwwwwwwooooooooooowwwwwwwww........

I have moved my story to:

http://randyslifejourney.blogspot.com/

I am three days shy of a month to go with my 90 day diet. I go to the dietican tomorrow for my second visit and July 5, 2008 is my 90th day. Can't wait till this part of the journey is over. I still need help, support, and practice on my eating. I have convinced myself that I can eat what I want since I am only on a insurance requiremed diet. This mind set will not work after surgery. What can I do?  Other things in my life are causing issues also. Where are we suppose to get help with these issures? I will keep trying, because it is worth it, it is my future.