to get to the other side

Jan 14, 2010

Well that’s why the chicken crossed the road! but is the grass always greener? Hmm?

Ok so as I attempted turbo kickboxing the other day I had yet another epiphany, what if I don’t weigh ENOUGH to get the surgery? I am 5' 9" and 270lbs. I border the 40 BMI range. I’m Fat and have no diagnosed co morbidities.


I have a STRONG family history. My grandfather was in his early 40 had a heart attack and died. My uncle (on my mom’s side) died also in his early 40s with heart disease. (Heart attack) my father 2 years ago with at the ripe old age of 51 had...wait for it... heart attack. He had pulmonary edema and is fighting SSI right now. He also has insulin dependent diabetes; my mom is pre diabetic with metformin (Ok I so can’t spell!) Mom also has sleep apnea. Cancer runs in my family (man why did I ever procreate? Oh yeah I make pretty babies)

SO I am there sweating my butt off and planning another class in 2 days, what happens if I lose too much weight prior to getting the appointment with the surgeon? I am getting my insurance cards in the mail, (just found out I am on Medicaid woo who I guess) I am in the phase where I record my eating, but not watching what I eat. I do end up watching it; I am not beating myself up about it. I’m only a week out so I guess that it’s ok. I am not talking about 15-20 lbs either I am talking about a simple 3lbs. three lbs takes me down to 39.3! Even if my Dr rounds to the nearest whole number, I am just under hence the non co morbidities rant.

Waaah. Ok growing up now… So I have a few options, I can either forgo the surgery (and yoyo diet yet again) or talk to the Dr once I get a chance. I firmly believe if this is supposed to happen it will!

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