zimmersdreamer
yeah its tuesday!
Feb 16, 2010
It’s Tuesday and it’s just getting to be too much; life that is. Overwhelmed is an understatement. I had an EMG done on my right hand, I figured this Doc was as coo coo as the last, the last one did a manual test and told me it WASN’T carpal tunnel. So I get a call on Tue and it is moderate carpal tunnel. So not only do I have it but I have apparently had it for a while. I have an appointment with the orthopedic surgeon on Thur. on Wed I have an appointment with a dietitian, sadly not because my Doc wants me to go into the bariatric program to have surgery, but his pathetic attempt to have me give the old diet and exercise “one last chance”. Dude I have been dieting and exercising for almost 20 years I am about exhausted that try. Let’s, oh I don’t know, try something ELSE! I have also come down with a stomach bug, last week and had 2 days where I didn’t eat. You would think that it would have helped lose these 12lbs that have crept on, but nooo they are still there and I think they even found a friend or two! I still get sick to my stomach, am more tired because being the nice and considerate mommy I am I had to share this bug with my 5 and 3 year old. Oh but don’t think I was able to put my life on hold for any of this! I did allow myself to call off the day I was throwing up, but it was back in the kitchen the next day and 5 other things other than sleep for the rest of the day.
That my dear reader is only my physical stress! Here is a few things that I am dealing with emotionally. I won’t bore you too much but I would suggest getting a potty break in now… don’t worry Ill wait… oh good your back.
Apparently I am not spending enough “quality” time with my children, my 18 year old brother thinks I am never around them, they have more activities then any child needs and they see more of the baby sitter than they do of me. Got to love the self-centered, lazy conceded, brats view of the world. I am a single mom who works 10 hour shifts over night. I get my children up and ready for school or daycare. I attempt to get SOME cleaning; either laundry or dishes (which ever smells worse) get a shower and get to bed about 10. I then have to be up to get my daughter off the bus at 4, make snack set out dinner plans ( I feed 6 ppl total) then get the kidget from the sitters. We have plans 3 days a week for either kid to have an activity. Then I go home make dinner, feed kids, get them a bath and off to bed. Get myself dressed and I’m off to work. Rinse and repeat 5 days a week.
Then there is the personal life. The love of my life that I had painstakingly planned to go see last month has not called or attempted to contact me in almost 3 weeks. (That’s when I was down there last) he lives 500 miles away. There has to be a limit to when I should let go but I’m just not there yet, I need to forget about him)
My ex has promised the kids he would come up to see him, first it was around Christmas,, then my 3 year olds birthday in Jan then it was spring break, now he says he is just going to wait till we go down there. This may be in July… maybe not. The kids have finally stopped asking about him. His loss!
Then there is the lazy good for nothing son of a cracker! I call a brother. He sleeps all day, talks the remainder of the day with a girl that swears she doesn’t want a relationship, but still wants to sleep with him and tells him she loves him…teenagers… then when he does immerge it is so he can borrow money, or do a chore to get it. He expects $20 for vacuuming the floor…man I wish I could get that much! I had to do that growing up because I lived there, these boys do NOTHING! And get away with it! It disgusts me! He was stood up by the girl who “loves” him on Valentine ’s Day she spent the day with another boy. He had planned a nice dinner, made chocolate cover raspberries. Researched romantic home cooked meals (I swear it was sickening!) So mom played into it and told him he could rent a movie, a game ect. Bought him dinner, let him take the car and leave it on E! I was pissed!
I have to get off my soap box it is about to crumble. Have a blessed reader, and thank you for letting me vent if you did make it through!
ETA:So i made it to the address that I was given, it was a vast field. I went to the closest gas station, they had NO clue where a hospital was found! the closest one they knew of was 20 min drive away. so i drove 20 min, half asleep at this point and just in time for my appointment only to have no one either know who the Dr was or where to locate her. they found her in their system but got the same voicemail box that I was given! ten more phone calls later they finally got a hold of her schedueling deaprtment. Aty that point i was not driving the 20 min back to the original area where I was an hour ago. I called my Dr frustrated adn told them they needed to give me a new referal! she called me back in 5 min asking me if I wanted an apointment for today! I was like no I want SLEEP! argh! the hospital staff seemed clueless, dare I say stupid, and extreemly unhelpful. I hate that I am asighned to this hospital!
