What a wonderful way to start the new year! I'm engaged!!!! The love of my life proposed to me last night on bended knee! After kissing many many frogs, I've finally found my true love and this is just so exciting. Something I never thought would happen to a girl like me! We don't have a date yet, but I'm sure it will be sometime in 2008. 2007 is just too busy of a year for our family. I just had to share my news!! This week is a very emotional week for me as we are coming up on the date that I lost my Mom two years ago. So I just can't help but feel she approves and is smiling down on us! I always tell everyone that she's the one that led me to him. Our engagment is a little bittersweet because my finaces' 85 year old father was admitted to the hospital last night. My fiances' original plan was to ask me tonight just before midnight, but with the unsurity of his father's condition and the realization that life can be so short, he didn't want to wait any longer. So please say a prayer for his Dad today. Anyway, I hope everyone has a wonderful and fun New Year and that 2007 brings much love, happiness and good health!!! Thank you for taking the time to read this!!! Michelle PS: I'm getting married! Woohoo!!!

hi everyone its been a long time but with good reason...one i was working my butt of litterally and two i had started interferon treatments for my liver last march...... the good thing is that it seems to be working but the bad about it is that im not looking well these days it seems the side effects are getting worse...... its like being on chemo... when i started my journey i got to my personal goal which was 140 after my surgery which took about 9 months ...... then i started the treatments and i lost another 20 lbs which i didnt feel i had to lose in the first place bringing me anywhere from 120 to 125... i never feel good anymore and right before xmas i lost my job.... im in constant pain with the medication and its probably better i dont work till the treatment is over........ i do have a few credit cards to pay off which is going to be an isisue and getting me depressed with no money coming in but as everything i do in my live this too shall pass.... i finally went for my 2 yr check up with the surgeon and found out that i have another hernia probably related to my job as a grocery deliverer.... so i now have to have surgery...... i guess this too shall pass....but with every thing going on i start to emotionally eat im still trying to stay to basics but for the most part if i put somthign in my mouth iss a miracle so i just do it ....... i really hope for a better 2007 as this year has been from hell..... i also wish all the july babies a happy and healthy new year and hope we can all stick to our resolutions .......... Stacy

Tanja - I've posted before that I experience exactly the same thing. Once I start to eat, I can't stop - it's a compulsion. I also have no side effects to sugar or over eating. I'm frantic. I have to diet the same way I did prior to surgery, and obviously, that was not a success. I also do OK if I just don't eat. I can drink protein shakes, but once I put solid food in my body, regardless of what it is, I am obsessed with shoving more food in for the rest of the day. I have gained about 12 lbs. I am planning to go back on liquids for a couple of days starting on Tuesday, then following a strict plan, but I'm afraid of the compulsion issue. If I can't control it I will make a visit to my surgeon and see what he says. I started going to a therapist with the main goal of working on my eating compulsion, but after three visits we haven't even discussed it. I have stopped my exercise routine, and I know that doesn't help either. I vow to begin again on Tuesday. Let me know if you find any way to work on the compulsion, and I'll do the same. Hugs, Nancy

Still no baby, and it's starting to look like there may never be. I had my 4th IUI today, and my doctor has changed protocol just a bit. I have to take prometrium and an HCG booster. I only had one egg. If I am not pregnant this time around, I will have another HSG to look at my uterus again. If all is well, we're supposed to move on to injectible drugs (instead of clomid), but if we can't afford the drugs, then we're done. DH says we can always try naturally (we've been using donor sperm to avoid passing on his genetic disorder), and I suppose that EVENTUALLY, it might happen. At this point, my insides are all black and I have no hope left. It's scary to think that this might be the end of the road for me, and that leaves me with a big empty hole in my heart. I always wanted more than one baby... My weight is the same. I haven't seen 215 again, and I've been hovering around 220 for the most part. I've been so wrapped up in this infertility mess that NOTHING else has mattered...not even the child I DO have. I really need to get myself back in order, and I'm guessing that means I'll need a shrink and some antidepressants. I'm a mess. Bruised, battered, and defeated. But maybe 2007 will turn around for me, baby or no baby. Sorry for the whining, I'm just really out of sorts right now.

or I guess I should say munchie the rest of the day. But if I start out the day with water, vitamins then protein shake and don't eat, just continue to drink I never get hungry. But once I decide I better eat something, just because I know I should eat something.......then I find myself munching the rest of the day. But if I don't eat until dinner time, usually I'm fine. This is something I just don't understand! I know not eating messes up my bodies metabolism, but if I do eat, even if it's something healthy like chicken, I get an almost uncontrolerable urge to just stuff my face with whatever I can find. And if I eat something with more then a few carbs in it, the urge is three times higher. I know it's all in my head, but dang it's hard to resist! Does anyone else have this problem? My weight loss; or lack of here recently is due to this. Because to be honest, once I do start eating I just keep on. A bite of this, bite of that..........every hour I'm eating a bit of something; or so it seems. But I can also, and have; gone days doing no food, jus****er/protein shakes,decaf coffee and naturally my vitamins. Both scenarios are wrong. I just can't seem to find a happy medium and the doctors here are no help. Since we moved, I swear everytime I've gone to a doctor to ask a question or to even request blood work I've had to go into complete details about the surgery; some didn't know a single thing about gastric bypass or how to treat a post-op patient. Plus I no longer seem to dump. Heck even just a few months ago a bite or two of something sweet would have me sicker then a dog, shaking, sweating and eventually either vomiting, sleeping for a few hours or both. On Christmas I ate a slice of apple pie with no side effects at all. I just don't know what to do. I really really want to lose more weight before I start the plastic surgery process and at over 2 years out, I know any weight loss I do have will be me, not the surgery. Well some will be the surgery, but not like in the first year. ~Tanja