Surgery was April 2, 2012 and I am not doing so well

aw.. sorry about your mom..
but i think you need to eat..
try drinking protein shake at least..

and u're not crazy, u can handle everything..
wishing you well..

 Sorry about your mother, you are probably still in shock.

Re puree foods, buy from the baby food aisle if nothing else.  

Weigh****chers (at meetings) sells shakes that are very delicious.

Food is a crutch for me, and definitely and we all have to learn to do without it, but losing your mom NOW, at the beginning, must be killer odd.

Focus on your health and let the rest fall into place.  Best wishes.