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Topic: Sticking Close to AA
I have a huge fear right now that I have to share, and put out there. As a lot of you know, I had sinus surgery about 11 days ago. Prior to the surgery, I was concerned about relapsing on alcohol because of being on narcotic painkillers for the surgery. Well, I took the pills as prescribed ONLY when necessary, and stuck close to AA, the Steps, my sponsor, and my phone. Well, there has been a glitch in my recovery that has messed with my head. I am not out of the woods pain wise yet. My sinuses have developed some terrible swelling, which is causing fluid build up to press on my ear, and not drain. The pain and pressure I have been experiencing has had me in tears at work. I returned to work on Thursday, and Tylenol did not make a dent in my earache when it flared up both days. So, on Saturday, I fell apart in tears on my couch. I prayed for God to show me what the best course of action was. I needed to really check my motives, because I can abuse anything, and I did not want to set myself up for another relapse. I called the doctor's office and explained I was still experiencing the pain in my ear. The doc explained what was causing it. My reason for posting this is to be honest, and stay close to my program. I live alone, and am not geographically near anyone who can monitor my meds. If I am still experiencing the pain by Wednesday, the doc will get another call from me. That day will be two weeks post-op, and I will stay on top of it with the doc in order to come up with some plan, should the pain continue. Huggles to everyone, Trish R.
I have a huge fear right now that I have to share, and put out there. As a lot of you know, I had sinus surgery about 11 days ago. Prior to the surgery, I was concerned about relapsing on alcohol because of being on narcotic painkillers for the surgery. Well, I took the pills as prescribed ONLY when necessary, and stuck close to AA, the Steps, my sponsor, and my phone. Well, there has been a glitch in my recovery that has messed with my head. I am not out of the woods pain wise yet. My sinuses have developed some terrible swelling, which is causing fluid build up to press on my ear, and not drain. The pain and pressure I have been experiencing has had me in tears at work. I returned to work on Thursday, and Tylenol did not make a dent in my earache when it flared up both days. So, on Saturday, I fell apart in tears on my couch. I prayed for God to show me what the best course of action was. I needed to really check my motives, because I can abuse anything, and I did not want to set myself up for another relapse. I called the doctor's office and explained I was still experiencing the pain in my ear. The doc explained what was causing it. My reason for posting this is to be honest, and stay close to my program. I live alone, and am not geographically near anyone who can monitor my meds. If I am still experiencing the pain by Wednesday, the doc will get another call from me. That day will be two weeks post-op, and I will stay on top of it with the doc in order to come up with some plan, should the pain continue. Huggles to everyone, Trish R.
Seek always to do some good, somewhere. Every man has to seek in his own way to realize his true worth. You must give some time to your fellow man. For remember, you don't live in a world all your own. Your brothers are here too.
Albert Schweitzer
Albert Schweitzer
Topic: RE: It Works if You Work It!!! Really!!!
Congratulations on both of your anniversaries. 
I had five years of sobriety when I had my surgery in 2006. Now, I have less than two months. I know it is possible, I just made it harder on myself by going out and staying out for almost a year.
Today I work my AA program as rigorously and honestly as I can.
Keep up the good work.
Hugs,
Trish
I had five years of sobriety when I had my surgery in 2006. Now, I have less than two months. I know it is possible, I just made it harder on myself by going out and staying out for almost a year.Today I work my AA program as rigorously and honestly as I can.
Keep up the good work.
Hugs,
Trish
Seek always to do some good, somewhere. Every man has to seek in his own way to realize his true worth. You must give some time to your fellow man. For remember, you don't live in a world all your own. Your brothers are here too.
Albert Schweitzer
Albert Schweitzer
Topic: It Works if You Work It!!! Really!!!
I cannot even begin to tell you how grateful I am today to be celebrating not only my five year WLS anniversary but I also picked up my TWO YEAR sobriety chip this morning at my AA meeting. I just wanted to share with anyone out there who doubts their ability to get sober that they CAN do it if they are willing to go to ANY length to get there.
I heard someone share this morning that God can't drive the car if the car is still parked on the side of the road. Wow. What a message....I truely believe that it is impossible to stay sober unless one finds a Higher Power (meaning ANYTHING more powerful than themselves-even members of an AA meeting) that they can turn their care over to and REALLY mean it.
Letting go of trying to control others and even trying to control the outcome of our own futures is self-defeating and impossible. By allowing life to run it's course under the assumption that our only responsibility is to not drink or drug for today only; that a Higher Power will be in control of all else, is such a relief and allows me to concentrate on just me. I finally realilzed that not everyone on this earth was going to like me. Just as I don't like everyone else. It's really none of my business what others think. That's their junk.
Thanks for listening to me share my experience today.
Karen
I heard someone share this morning that God can't drive the car if the car is still parked on the side of the road. Wow. What a message....I truely believe that it is impossible to stay sober unless one finds a Higher Power (meaning ANYTHING more powerful than themselves-even members of an AA meeting) that they can turn their care over to and REALLY mean it.
Letting go of trying to control others and even trying to control the outcome of our own futures is self-defeating and impossible. By allowing life to run it's course under the assumption that our only responsibility is to not drink or drug for today only; that a Higher Power will be in control of all else, is such a relief and allows me to concentrate on just me. I finally realilzed that not everyone on this earth was going to like me. Just as I don't like everyone else. It's really none of my business what others think. That's their junk.
Thanks for listening to me share my experience today.
Karen
Topic: RE: feeling horrible :(
Thanks chickie!
I've been better about my eating for the past week or so, so far. I need to hit the dreadmill today too. Right now I'm off to go food shopping (in the snowstorm)
Hugs,
Marie
I've been better about my eating for the past week or so, so far. I need to hit the dreadmill today too. Right now I'm off to go food shopping (in the snowstorm)
Hugs,
Marie
Topic: RE: feeling horrible :(
Hey Chickie,
My weight gain has been horrible since I first drank in December 2007. I am out of control, just in smaller portions. But, like our recovery with everything else, we must work the 12 steps, and make the Spiritual changes inside of us so that our behavioral changes can come more naturally.
Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and put one foot in front of the other in our journey toward health and freedom.
Love you tons,
Trish
My weight gain has been horrible since I first drank in December 2007. I am out of control, just in smaller portions. But, like our recovery with everything else, we must work the 12 steps, and make the Spiritual changes inside of us so that our behavioral changes can come more naturally.
Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and put one foot in front of the other in our journey toward health and freedom.
Love you tons,
Trish
Seek always to do some good, somewhere. Every man has to seek in his own way to realize his true worth. You must give some time to your fellow man. For remember, you don't live in a world all your own. Your brothers are here too.
Albert Schweitzer
Albert Schweitzer
Topic: RE: feeling horrible :(
Thank you so much Rhonda! I guess I am in that statistic too, and keep forgetting about the "lifelong" part of the journey. I've looked at the glass as half empty rather than half full. Thanks for the reminder!!! :)
Hugs,
Marie
Hugs,
Marie
Topic: RE: feeling horrible :(
I think it's known that there will be a percentage of weight gain after the honeymoon. I know I was in that statistic. I think I got to my lowest of 147 and currently weigh 168i**** goes up and down so much from day to day. I'm 5 years out and battle to maintain constantly. Andddd I live alone.. if I lived in a household were I had to bring food in to feed my family who didn't battle weight.. I'm sure I would probably be back to were I started. *sigh*.. maybe that's God's answered prayer to why I'm still single. .. 
hugss Marie
you're not a failure.. it's a lifelong change and a journey each day to make the right choices. Soooo today is the first day to make the right choice. *muah*
hugss Marie
you're not a failure.. it's a lifelong change and a journey each day to make the right choices. Soooo today is the first day to make the right choice. *muah* It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: RE: Surgery, recovery, dealing with physical pain
Hi Trish.. no whining just voicing your concern hun.. I hope you are doing okay. Keep us updated .. Bigggg Hugssss to you!!
Bigggg Hugssss to you!! It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: ~SPIRITUAL~ A DAY AT A TIME
02-28 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
We're taught in The Program and the Twelve Steps that the chief activator of our defects has been self-centered fear -- mainly fear that we would lose something we already possessed or demanded. Living on the basis of unsatisfied demands, we obviously were in a state of continual disturbance and frustration. Therefore, we are taught, no peace will be ours unless we find a means of reducing these demands. HAVE I BECOME ENTIRELY READY TO HAVE GOD REMOVE ALL MY DEFECTS OF CHARACTER?
TODAY I PRAY
May I make no unrealistic demands on life, which, because of their grandiosity, cannot be met. May I place no excessive demands on others which, when they are not fulfilled, leave me disappointed and let down.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
The set-up for a let-down.
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We're taught in The Program and the Twelve Steps that the chief activator of our defects has been self-centered fear -- mainly fear that we would lose something we already possessed or demanded. Living on the basis of unsatisfied demands, we obviously were in a state of continual disturbance and frustration. Therefore, we are taught, no peace will be ours unless we find a means of reducing these demands. HAVE I BECOME ENTIRELY READY TO HAVE GOD REMOVE ALL MY DEFECTS OF CHARACTER?
TODAY I PRAY
May I make no unrealistic demands on life, which, because of their grandiosity, cannot be met. May I place no excessive demands on others which, when they are not fulfilled, leave me disappointed and let down.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
The set-up for a let-down.
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: feeling horrible :(
I saw my surgeon last week for my 18mo. check up. I GAINED four pounds. This might not seem like a lot, and it really isn't, but I've NEVER had any regain until now. I'm still not great with weight lifting (he suggested I do that immediately) and I've made a half-assed attempt at walking every day. i can't stay motivated....when I don't walk I can't get remotivated to do more. So far, I've walked three times this week, lifted once and figure if I start slowly I'll have a better chance of developing a GOOD habit.
I know I'm beating myself up and am totally devastated that I gained even a small amount so quickly. This is where I'm at and it's not good. I'm depressed, on prozac now, see my shrink on Monday, don't sleep well, am obviously not eating well and am feeling like a failure. I spent a fortune right after my appointment on make-up and perfume, shoes, a bathing suit, jewelry and movies. I need to stop shopping, start walking and eat better. Sigh...Hope everyone else is doing ok.
marie
I know I'm beating myself up and am totally devastated that I gained even a small amount so quickly. This is where I'm at and it's not good. I'm depressed, on prozac now, see my shrink on Monday, don't sleep well, am obviously not eating well and am feeling like a failure. I spent a fortune right after my appointment on make-up and perfume, shoes, a bathing suit, jewelry and movies. I need to stop shopping, start walking and eat better. Sigh...Hope everyone else is doing ok.
marie
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