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Topic: ~SPIRITUAL~ A DAY AT A TIME
02-28 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
We're taught in The Program and the Twelve Steps that the chief activator of our defects has been self-centered fear -- mainly fear that we would lose something we already possessed or demanded. Living on the basis of unsatisfied demands, we obviously were in a state of continual disturbance and frustration. Therefore, we are taught, no peace will be ours unless we find a means of reducing these demands. HAVE I BECOME ENTIRELY READY TO HAVE GOD REMOVE ALL MY DEFECTS OF CHARACTER?
TODAY I PRAY
May I make no unrealistic demands on life, which, because of their grandiosity, cannot be met. May I place no excessive demands on others which, when they are not fulfilled, leave me disappointed and let down.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
The set-up for a let-down.
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We're taught in The Program and the Twelve Steps that the chief activator of our defects has been self-centered fear -- mainly fear that we would lose something we already possessed or demanded. Living on the basis of unsatisfied demands, we obviously were in a state of continual disturbance and frustration. Therefore, we are taught, no peace will be ours unless we find a means of reducing these demands. HAVE I BECOME ENTIRELY READY TO HAVE GOD REMOVE ALL MY DEFECTS OF CHARACTER?
TODAY I PRAY
May I make no unrealistic demands on life, which, because of their grandiosity, cannot be met. May I place no excessive demands on others which, when they are not fulfilled, leave me disappointed and let down.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
The set-up for a let-down.
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: feeling horrible :(
I saw my surgeon last week for my 18mo. check up. I GAINED four pounds. This might not seem like a lot, and it really isn't, but I've NEVER had any regain until now. I'm still not great with weight lifting (he suggested I do that immediately) and I've made a half-assed attempt at walking every day. i can't stay motivated....when I don't walk I can't get remotivated to do more. So far, I've walked three times this week, lifted once and figure if I start slowly I'll have a better chance of developing a GOOD habit.
I know I'm beating myself up and am totally devastated that I gained even a small amount so quickly. This is where I'm at and it's not good. I'm depressed, on prozac now, see my shrink on Monday, don't sleep well, am obviously not eating well and am feeling like a failure. I spent a fortune right after my appointment on make-up and perfume, shoes, a bathing suit, jewelry and movies. I need to stop shopping, start walking and eat better. Sigh...Hope everyone else is doing ok.
marie
I know I'm beating myself up and am totally devastated that I gained even a small amount so quickly. This is where I'm at and it's not good. I'm depressed, on prozac now, see my shrink on Monday, don't sleep well, am obviously not eating well and am feeling like a failure. I spent a fortune right after my appointment on make-up and perfume, shoes, a bathing suit, jewelry and movies. I need to stop shopping, start walking and eat better. Sigh...Hope everyone else is doing ok.
marie
Topic: Surgery, recovery, dealing with physical pain
Hi Everyone,
I had sinus surgery 10 days ago, and have had some interesting experiences during my recuperation period. I went into the surgery with a lot of fear about relapsing with my alcohol recovery because of the painkillers. I am also in an Intensive Outpatient Treatment Program for my alcoholism, because of my terrible relapse and being very newly sober.
The first few days after the surgery, I had little physical pain, probably because in addition to my narcotic painkiller, I still had the anasthesia in my system. Then, the pain kicked in, and I was concerned. My sponsor took me to meetings, and kept reassuring me on the phone that I was okay. Then, this week, I thought I was out of the woods. I went to my treatment group on Monday, and then when I got home, I got hit with the most horrific earache I have ever had. I was in tears. I took my painkillers and they did nothing to get rid of the pain. I went to my ENT surgeon for my post-op visit, and he said I had sinus pressure in my ear. He gave me more steroids, which I ran out of after the surgery, and sent me on my way with instructions to irrigate as much as possible.
Well, the earache keeps coming back each day, in the afternoon, and now that I have returned to work, I have been in tears by the end of the workday. Now, I am getting panicky because I am almost out of my painkillers. I don't know if I am panicky because of my fear the pain will hit me again over the weekend, and I will run out of my pills, OR, if I am panicking because I am an alcoholic afraid I won't get my legitimate fix over the weekend.
My plan is to wait and see how things go over the weekend, and if the pain becomes too unbearable, I will go to the emergency room, and get my ear checked out and see what pans out that way.
I can take a lot of pain. I gave birth to two children who weighed 10 and a half pounds at birth, and I did it naturally. I cannot handle the level of pain that ha**** my ear this week.
Sorry to whine. I just had to share where I am at.
Trish
I had sinus surgery 10 days ago, and have had some interesting experiences during my recuperation period. I went into the surgery with a lot of fear about relapsing with my alcohol recovery because of the painkillers. I am also in an Intensive Outpatient Treatment Program for my alcoholism, because of my terrible relapse and being very newly sober.
The first few days after the surgery, I had little physical pain, probably because in addition to my narcotic painkiller, I still had the anasthesia in my system. Then, the pain kicked in, and I was concerned. My sponsor took me to meetings, and kept reassuring me on the phone that I was okay. Then, this week, I thought I was out of the woods. I went to my treatment group on Monday, and then when I got home, I got hit with the most horrific earache I have ever had. I was in tears. I took my painkillers and they did nothing to get rid of the pain. I went to my ENT surgeon for my post-op visit, and he said I had sinus pressure in my ear. He gave me more steroids, which I ran out of after the surgery, and sent me on my way with instructions to irrigate as much as possible.
Well, the earache keeps coming back each day, in the afternoon, and now that I have returned to work, I have been in tears by the end of the workday. Now, I am getting panicky because I am almost out of my painkillers. I don't know if I am panicky because of my fear the pain will hit me again over the weekend, and I will run out of my pills, OR, if I am panicking because I am an alcoholic afraid I won't get my legitimate fix over the weekend.
My plan is to wait and see how things go over the weekend, and if the pain becomes too unbearable, I will go to the emergency room, and get my ear checked out and see what pans out that way.
I can take a lot of pain. I gave birth to two children who weighed 10 and a half pounds at birth, and I did it naturally. I cannot handle the level of pain that ha**** my ear this week.
Sorry to whine. I just had to share where I am at.
Trish
Seek always to do some good, somewhere. Every man has to seek in his own way to realize his true worth. You must give some time to your fellow man. For remember, you don't live in a world all your own. Your brothers are here too.
Albert Schweitzer
Albert Schweitzer
Topic: ~SPIRITUAL~ A DAY AT A TIME
02-27 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
If I live just one day at a time, I won't so quickly entertain fears of what MIGHT happen tomorrow. As long as I'm concentrating on today's activities, there won't be room in my mind for worrying. I'll try to fill every minute of this day with something good -- seen, heard, accomplished. Then, when the day is ended, I'll be able to look back on it with satisfaction, serenity and gratitude. DO I SOMETIMES CHERISH BAD FEELINGS SO THAT I CAN FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF?
TODAY I PRAY
That I will getout of the self-pity act and live for today. May I notice the good things from dawn to nightfall, learn to talk about them and thank God for them. May I catch myself if I seem to be relishing my moans and complaints more often than appreciating the goodness of my life.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Today is good.
If I live just one day at a time, I won't so quickly entertain fears of what MIGHT happen tomorrow. As long as I'm concentrating on today's activities, there won't be room in my mind for worrying. I'll try to fill every minute of this day with something good -- seen, heard, accomplished. Then, when the day is ended, I'll be able to look back on it with satisfaction, serenity and gratitude. DO I SOMETIMES CHERISH BAD FEELINGS SO THAT I CAN FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF?
TODAY I PRAY
That I will getout of the self-pity act and live for today. May I notice the good things from dawn to nightfall, learn to talk about them and thank God for them. May I catch myself if I seem to be relishing my moans and complaints more often than appreciating the goodness of my life.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Today is good.
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: Grateful Post..
Today i am grateful..
For the love shown to Nina http://www.rydobesity.com/nina.htm during her time of need..
That I would rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not..
For the memories..
That I know I may not be perfect but I am not the worst person in the world I just want to be good that's all..
For the sun shining today..
I will be at a conference, for work, starting today so if I don't get to post a grateful post for the rest of the week can someone step in and do it for me..
For the love shown to Nina http://www.rydobesity.com/nina.htm during her time of need..
That I would rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not..
For the memories..
That I know I may not be perfect but I am not the worst person in the world I just want to be good that's all..
For the sun shining today..
I will be at a conference, for work, starting today so if I don't get to post a grateful post for the rest of the week can someone step in and do it for me..
Ramon Lopez
Co-Founder
http://www.rydobesity.com
Interview on www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com Please check it out.. http://www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com/programs/wls-journeys/wls-journeys-guest-ramon-lopez.html/
Video, about me, made by my best friend Yvonne.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gCxNTyRUo0
PEACE
464/409/200
Thanks Obesityhelp.com
Co-Founder
http://www.rydobesity.com
Interview on www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com Please check it out.. http://www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com/programs/wls-journeys/wls-journeys-guest-ramon-lopez.html/
Video, about me, made by my best friend Yvonne.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gCxNTyRUo0
PEACE
464/409/200
Thanks Obesityhelp.com
Topic: RE: Doctor
Wow, that's different. I had never heard of a doc saying that after the fact. How is your treatment for depression going? I hope it is okay. I am in ongoing therapy for my mental health issues.
Good luck. Keep up the good work.
Trish
Good luck. Keep up the good work.
Trish
Seek always to do some good, somewhere. Every man has to seek in his own way to realize his true worth. You must give some time to your fellow man. For remember, you don't live in a world all your own. Your brothers are here too.
Albert Schweitzer
Albert Schweitzer
Topic: Grateful Post..
Today I am grateful..
For Nina and all she does.. Please see this link http://www.rydobesity.com/nina.htm
For phone calls..
That I am a blessed man..
For the people from the Texas Message Board..
For the out pouring of love shown to Nina.. She is so touched..
For Nina and all she does.. Please see this link http://www.rydobesity.com/nina.htm
For phone calls..
That I am a blessed man..
For the people from the Texas Message Board..
For the out pouring of love shown to Nina.. She is so touched..
Ramon Lopez
Co-Founder
http://www.rydobesity.com
Interview on www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com Please check it out.. http://www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com/programs/wls-journeys/wls-journeys-guest-ramon-lopez.html/
Video, about me, made by my best friend Yvonne.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gCxNTyRUo0
PEACE
464/409/200
Thanks Obesityhelp.com
Co-Founder
http://www.rydobesity.com
Interview on www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com Please check it out.. http://www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com/programs/wls-journeys/wls-journeys-guest-ramon-lopez.html/
Video, about me, made by my best friend Yvonne.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gCxNTyRUo0
PEACE
464/409/200
Thanks Obesityhelp.com
Topic: Doctor
I am feeling so much better - My new doctor told me that I should have NEVER been a candidate for wls - he says my history of anemia and depression are so extreme that I was only going to suffer worse complications. Life is going to start making sense.
Topic: ~SPIRITUAL~ A DAY AT A TIME
02/23 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
The Twelve Steps teach us that as faith grows, so does security. The terrifying fear of nothingness begins to subside. As we work The Program, we find that the basic antidote for fear is a spiritual awakening. We lose the fear of making decisions, for we realize that if our choice proves wrong, we can learn from the experience. And should our decision be the right one, we can think God for giving us the courage and the grace that caused us so to act. AM I GRATEFUL FOR THE COURAGE AND GRACE I RECEIVE FROM MY HIGHER POWER?
TODAY I PRAY
I ask that I be given the power to act, knowing that I have at least a half-chance to make the right decision and that I can learn from a wrong one. For so long, decision-making seemed beyond my capabilities. Now, I can find joy in being able to make choices. Thank you, God, for courage.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Freedom is choosing.
The Twelve Steps teach us that as faith grows, so does security. The terrifying fear of nothingness begins to subside. As we work The Program, we find that the basic antidote for fear is a spiritual awakening. We lose the fear of making decisions, for we realize that if our choice proves wrong, we can learn from the experience. And should our decision be the right one, we can think God for giving us the courage and the grace that caused us so to act. AM I GRATEFUL FOR THE COURAGE AND GRACE I RECEIVE FROM MY HIGHER POWER?
TODAY I PRAY
I ask that I be given the power to act, knowing that I have at least a half-chance to make the right decision and that I can learn from a wrong one. For so long, decision-making seemed beyond my capabilities. Now, I can find joy in being able to make choices. Thank you, God, for courage.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Freedom is choosing.
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: Grateful Post..
Today I am grateful..
That for the prayers and outpouring of love shown to Nina..
For knowing I am going to be okay..
For the sun..
For the moon..
For no tickets..
Nina asked me to add that her and her son are both very grateful for every keystroke of every email and private message that she has receieved.. She stated her son would have been proud to see all the TMB come together.. She said she loved you all and will post the arrangements later..
RIP Chito
That for the prayers and outpouring of love shown to Nina..
For knowing I am going to be okay..
For the sun..
For the moon..
For no tickets..
Nina asked me to add that her and her son are both very grateful for every keystroke of every email and private message that she has receieved.. She stated her son would have been proud to see all the TMB come together.. She said she loved you all and will post the arrangements later..
RIP Chito
Ramon Lopez
Co-Founder
http://www.rydobesity.com
Interview on www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com Please check it out.. http://www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com/programs/wls-journeys/wls-journeys-guest-ramon-lopez.html/
Video, about me, made by my best friend Yvonne.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gCxNTyRUo0
PEACE
464/409/200
Thanks Obesityhelp.com
Co-Founder
http://www.rydobesity.com
Interview on www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com Please check it out.. http://www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com/programs/wls-journeys/wls-journeys-guest-ramon-lopez.html/
Video, about me, made by my best friend Yvonne.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gCxNTyRUo0
PEACE
464/409/200
Thanks Obesityhelp.com
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