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Topic: Early Sobriety and the Emotional Rollercoaster
The past 24 hours have been the emotional rollercoaster I so did not miss during my 6 years of sobriety. Life was not a bed of roses then, but I was a whole heck of a lot more stable than now.
I started my new Intensive Outpatient Program last night. Wow, was it so good. There were women alcoholics around my age, and the therapist is wonderful.
Today, I went to bankruptcy court, and had all that stress. To add to it, I needed my 2008 tax return, which I filed last week, but did not print, because I could not afford the ink. Then, I had to call the IRS to find out if I am getting my refund, or if it was being applied to my 2007 returns taxes I owed, which I claimed in my bankruptcy. Then, I needed to pay my cable/phone/internet bill, because they shut me off today. Funny, the cable company expects me to pay my bills on time. Duh! I had to pay the bill, so I could fax my return, so I had to buy the ink to print the return, yada yada.
So, I thought I would haul hiney to an AA meeting, and check out a new clubhouse, as I had encouraged a member of my group to attend and I would meet her there. She had never been to an AA meeting before. Well, the speaker went really long, people in the back were restless and talking to each other, phones were ringing, even though we were told to silence them. Argh! The good news is, I got my 30 day chip. I also got something out of the message.
So, I just needed to vent/share/lose my sanity.
Hugs,
Trish
I started my new Intensive Outpatient Program last night. Wow, was it so good. There were women alcoholics around my age, and the therapist is wonderful.
Today, I went to bankruptcy court, and had all that stress. To add to it, I needed my 2008 tax return, which I filed last week, but did not print, because I could not afford the ink. Then, I had to call the IRS to find out if I am getting my refund, or if it was being applied to my 2007 returns taxes I owed, which I claimed in my bankruptcy. Then, I needed to pay my cable/phone/internet bill, because they shut me off today. Funny, the cable company expects me to pay my bills on time. Duh! I had to pay the bill, so I could fax my return, so I had to buy the ink to print the return, yada yada.
So, I thought I would haul hiney to an AA meeting, and check out a new clubhouse, as I had encouraged a member of my group to attend and I would meet her there. She had never been to an AA meeting before. Well, the speaker went really long, people in the back were restless and talking to each other, phones were ringing, even though we were told to silence them. Argh! The good news is, I got my 30 day chip. I also got something out of the message.
So, I just needed to vent/share/lose my sanity.
Hugs,
Trish
Seek always to do some good, somewhere. Every man has to seek in his own way to realize his true worth. You must give some time to your fellow man. For remember, you don't live in a world all your own. Your brothers are here too.
Albert Schweitzer
Albert Schweitzer
Topic: RE: 30 days of sobriety
I'm so freakin proud of you Trish, I know how hard you've been trying. Good for you. Keep it up. Your PA friends love you. Hugs and Congrats. Jackie
Jackie J. 
1 choice @ a time > 1 day @ a time. Slow to Succeed is still Success ;-)
Topic: ~SPIRITUAL~ A DAY AT A TIME
02/11 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
I can always take strength and comfort from knowing I belong to a worldwide fellowship. Hundreds and hundreds of thousands, just like myself, are working together for the same purpose. None of us needs to ever be alone again, because each of us in our own way works for the good of others. We are bound together by a common problem that can be solved by love and understanding and mutual service. The Program -- like the little wheel in the old hymn -- runs by the grace of God. HAVE I THANKED GOD TODAY FOR HELPING ME TO FIND THE PROGRAM, WHICH IS SHOWING ME THE WAY TO A NEW LIFE?
TODAY I PRAY
May my thanks be lifted to God each day for dispelling my self-inflicted loneliness, for warming my stoicism, for leading me to the boundless fund of friendship in The Program.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
I have a world of friends.
http://www.aa.org/?Media=PlayFlash
http://www.al-anon.alateen.org/
http://www.aagrapevine.org/
I can always take strength and comfort from knowing I belong to a worldwide fellowship. Hundreds and hundreds of thousands, just like myself, are working together for the same purpose. None of us needs to ever be alone again, because each of us in our own way works for the good of others. We are bound together by a common problem that can be solved by love and understanding and mutual service. The Program -- like the little wheel in the old hymn -- runs by the grace of God. HAVE I THANKED GOD TODAY FOR HELPING ME TO FIND THE PROGRAM, WHICH IS SHOWING ME THE WAY TO A NEW LIFE?
TODAY I PRAY
May my thanks be lifted to God each day for dispelling my self-inflicted loneliness, for warming my stoicism, for leading me to the boundless fund of friendship in The Program.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
I have a world of friends.
http://www.aa.org/?Media=PlayFlash
http://www.al-anon.alateen.org/
http://www.aagrapevine.org/
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: Grateful Post..
Happy Hump Day..
Today I am grateful..
That my "give up" point has come and gone..
For people that text to just check on me..
That I know I am a blessed man..
For the people in my life that make me glad to wake up..
That I am going to be okay..
Today I am grateful..
That my "give up" point has come and gone..
For people that text to just check on me..
That I know I am a blessed man..
For the people in my life that make me glad to wake up..
That I am going to be okay..
Ramon Lopez
Co-Founder
http://www.rydobesity.com
Interview on www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com Please check it out.. http://www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com/programs/wls-journeys/wls-journeys-guest-ramon-lopez.html/
Video, about me, made by my best friend Yvonne.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gCxNTyRUo0
PEACE
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Thanks Obesityhelp.com
Co-Founder
http://www.rydobesity.com
Interview on www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com Please check it out.. http://www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com/programs/wls-journeys/wls-journeys-guest-ramon-lopez.html/
Video, about me, made by my best friend Yvonne.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gCxNTyRUo0
PEACE
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Thanks Obesityhelp.com
Topic: RE: Sober, smoke free, anxious and getting fat..
It's soooooo good to see you posting...I am right there with you in terms of the food. After my relapse with the alcohol 13 months ago, I threw all caution to the wind with my food as well. I am up more than 25 pounds, but it took me a year to put it on.
One of the things I am learning to learn is relaxation exercises. I know them in my head, but have not figured out how to implement them on a regular basis so they actually work when I need them the most. My therapist made me a recording of his visualization exercise and it helps tremendously, when I do it. So, why don't I do it daily? Duh! If I knew the answer to that one, I would not be in rehab IOP, and only have 30 days sober, cause I would have implemented his relaxation stuff when I had my personal meltdowns that kicked me into the worst relapse of my life in October.
All I know is that life happens to us one day at a time, so I have to live it that way. Take one day at a time, and practice some basic deep breathing exercises throughout the day.
I do understand about the hives though. My physical reaction to stress was ulcers. I have to plan my eating at work around my break periods because my lunch period is too short and I have the worst class right after that time.
hang in there...you are doing great. Congrats on your almost year. That's terrific.
Huggles and love,
Trish
One of the things I am learning to learn is relaxation exercises. I know them in my head, but have not figured out how to implement them on a regular basis so they actually work when I need them the most. My therapist made me a recording of his visualization exercise and it helps tremendously, when I do it. So, why don't I do it daily? Duh! If I knew the answer to that one, I would not be in rehab IOP, and only have 30 days sober, cause I would have implemented his relaxation stuff when I had my personal meltdowns that kicked me into the worst relapse of my life in October.
All I know is that life happens to us one day at a time, so I have to live it that way. Take one day at a time, and practice some basic deep breathing exercises throughout the day.
I do understand about the hives though. My physical reaction to stress was ulcers. I have to plan my eating at work around my break periods because my lunch period is too short and I have the worst class right after that time.
hang in there...you are doing great. Congrats on your almost year. That's terrific.
Huggles and love,
Trish
Seek always to do some good, somewhere. Every man has to seek in his own way to realize his true worth. You must give some time to your fellow man. For remember, you don't live in a world all your own. Your brothers are here too.
Albert Schweitzer
Albert Schweitzer
Topic: RE: Sober, smoke free, anxious and getting fat..
WAY cool on the chip, chickie!!! I too, have been gaining some weight back since the holidays. I've not exercised, not cared to, and haven't been doing the right things for my body. I'm convinced I'm going through womenopause and am now on Prozac. I see my surgeon next week for a follow up and am worried how my lack of motivation is going to look. (well, it'll look like fat on my hips, for one thing) I'm still down 75 ish, so that's good.
From what I l know of you on here, you are a strong woman, chickie...you'll be just fine. I'm sure the hives will recede and the stress will too. For both of us! GLAD YOU'RE BACK!!
Hugs,
Marie
From what I l know of you on here, you are a strong woman, chickie...you'll be just fine. I'm sure the hives will recede and the stress will too. For both of us! GLAD YOU'RE BACK!!
Hugs,
Marie
Topic: RE: Sober, smoke free, anxious and getting fat..
Michelle,
Congrats on your one year chip. I am coming up on 8 months next week. Your post really made me stop and think about a few things. I think I must be in a "spell" as you call it. It seems that since I have recovered (I think I have anyway) from pneumonia I have felt "off". I currently take Effexor and Geodon, with Vistiril (like Atarax, not addicting) if needed. I have lost all interest in just about everything. Granted, I work two jobs and am always busy going to meetings etc., but it just seems like lately I don't want to do crap. I would rather break my arm than clean the house, do laundry etc. I want to sleep, alot. I have also had a few incidents of the hives during some particularly stressful times at home. It never occurred to me that these could be stress induced. Most of the time, I just want to be alone. I'll sit in my room and read my AA books, do worksheets from my sponsor. Just being alone. This is not good with 2 older kids running around, 2 cats and 2 dogs (yes, its a circus!) and a hubby. Hubby read about 2 paragraphs on depression and thinks he knows it all. I am seeing my doctor next week for my regular appointment and I will mention this to him.
Its great that you have not picked up smoking again. I wish I could quit. Someday. Don't worry about the extra pounds, they'll come off when you're in control again. I haven't gained, in fact, I lost, but I was really sick for about 3 weeks. Good luck. I'll be thinking about you. Kathy
Congrats on your one year chip. I am coming up on 8 months next week. Your post really made me stop and think about a few things. I think I must be in a "spell" as you call it. It seems that since I have recovered (I think I have anyway) from pneumonia I have felt "off". I currently take Effexor and Geodon, with Vistiril (like Atarax, not addicting) if needed. I have lost all interest in just about everything. Granted, I work two jobs and am always busy going to meetings etc., but it just seems like lately I don't want to do crap. I would rather break my arm than clean the house, do laundry etc. I want to sleep, alot. I have also had a few incidents of the hives during some particularly stressful times at home. It never occurred to me that these could be stress induced. Most of the time, I just want to be alone. I'll sit in my room and read my AA books, do worksheets from my sponsor. Just being alone. This is not good with 2 older kids running around, 2 cats and 2 dogs (yes, its a circus!) and a hubby. Hubby read about 2 paragraphs on depression and thinks he knows it all. I am seeing my doctor next week for my regular appointment and I will mention this to him.
Its great that you have not picked up smoking again. I wish I could quit. Someday. Don't worry about the extra pounds, they'll come off when you're in control again. I haven't gained, in fact, I lost, but I was really sick for about 3 weeks. Good luck. I'll be thinking about you. Kathy
Topic: RE: 30 days of sobriety
CONGRATS on the 30 days remember this is one day at a time..
Ramon Lopez
Co-Founder
http://www.rydobesity.com
Interview on www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com Please check it out.. http://www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com/programs/wls-journeys/wls-journeys-guest-ramon-lopez.html/
Video, about me, made by my best friend Yvonne.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gCxNTyRUo0
PEACE
464/409/200
Thanks Obesityhelp.com
Co-Founder
http://www.rydobesity.com
Interview on www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com Please check it out.. http://www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com/programs/wls-journeys/wls-journeys-guest-ramon-lopez.html/
Video, about me, made by my best friend Yvonne.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gCxNTyRUo0
PEACE
464/409/200
Thanks Obesityhelp.com
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