My own personal Ah Ha Moment

I just finished writing one of the best blog posts I have ever written. Seriously. I just poured out my heart and soul... and man, does it ever feel good! (real reason i write = free therapy!)

You see, I have been working on the Mental side of WLS, as well as the physical side... and I have written about my own Ah Ha moment where I acknowledge that my fear of failing, was the REAL reason I would fail in the past...

Also, I have had an amazing week... i started running... which is a huge thing! So proud of myself for doing this...not just trying it, but DOING it!

Also, I went shopping in a non-plus size store, and bought a size 16 shirt, with a fitted waist! Holy **** Batman! That is amazing! (Incidentally, there is a picture of me in the new shirt on the blog.)

It's been a phenomenal week, and I am in such a positive place right now...

plus, I am down 3lbs so far this week... because I have been upping my game on the physical side... 'cause i'm a runner... ha ha ha, i love saying that!

Happy Saturday folks, I have been writing for hours and I have to go eat something now! Back later!

I am proud of you.  You are an inspiration for me.  Keep up the good work runner!!  Hope I can say that one day. 

yeah... i'm pretty much an athlete.... you're awesome!!!

You are so right! That was a really good blog post and I wanted to tell you how much I enjoyed reading it:) You have a knack for putting it out there...the thoughts and emotional roller coaster we are on with this WLS journey. The mental side is actually, I think, the biggest challenge. It is the secret to keeping the weight off once we get there and the honeymoon stage is over.

I am at goal so I am thilled to be where I am and maintaining, but the mental side is the challenge of staying at goal. More "food" for thought. I too am determined not to fail. My Ah Ha moment was realizing it is only partially a physical journey.

Good for you ....running:) Way to go!

Toni...what a fantastic blog post.  It brought tears to my eyes because i could so relate to the fear of failure you talked about.  Today is not a great day for me and i continue to struggle with so much anxiety and it is the fear Of failure that i believe is feeding into that anxiety.  Reading your post was like looking into my own mind.  What an inspiration you are and what a fantastic writer.  U have so many gifts...thanks for sharing them!


Toni

Thank you so much for reading, and I am so glad that I was able to offer inspiration, and dare I say it... food-for-thought? (Seriously, has that term ever sounded funnier than in that last sentence??!)

I hope to write a book some day, so other people who are going through this process, or even thinking about going through it, can find another person out there who knows exactly what challenges they are facing, and specifically how it feels emotionally to ride this roller coaster.

When I feel an emotion, I try very hard to articulate it. Sometimes it takes me minutes, other times it takes me days and maybe a week... but by the time I am able to articulate how I am feeling, I want to share it with others....just in case they are feeling the same way...

None of us are alone on this journey... and it really helps to know that.

 Like babybuggie said, this past week's blog post of yours brought tears to my eyes.  I long for the day that I can start running.  Your post inspired me to get the couch to 5k program for my phone, which I fully intend to start using when my body is ready.  Starting my opti in a week and a half, I'm jazzed!  Planning for the future and setting goals.  You have been a real inspiration to me, in more ways than I can articulate here.  :)

I'm so excited for you Heather! Your time is almost here!!!!! Soon you will be on Opti, and next thing you know you will be on the Loser's Bench with the rest of us, and honestly experiencing the best ride of your life.

The best thing I did throughout this process was planning and setting current goals and future goals... like the running. I dared to dream that I could, and now I am.

When you are so completely and totally focused on all of these lifestyle changes, you wake up one morning and suddenly realize that it's not a matter of remembering all the rules, they become sort of automatic...and you realize, holy crap! I'm living a healthier life! Actually living it!

I can't wait for you to experience all the firsts, and all the Wow moments that come with post-op recovery and weight-loss... once you start losing you gain this momentum, and you see such progress so quickly that it keeps you motivated... and it's like you are a freight-train...headed straight for your goals... Just don't forget to take time to reflect, because that is when you will REALLY SEE the progress you've made.... the progress that can't be reflected in numbers on scale, or reflections in a mirror...

take care girl! And keep Bloggin' ('cause its good for the soul!)!