I cheated :(

We just have to keep moving forward and make sure we DONT do it again in the short time before surgery.

We are gonna be in the same hospital. Im suppose to be discharged on Dec 5th. So I wont be around when you are there. But I will be wishing you best of luck

Thank you Manda, it is so much easier to help someone else forgive themselves than to forgive yourself isn't it?  I will be thinking of you on your day as well.... good luck to you!  I  believe you are the closet to a surgery twin  that I have LOL

Mandalious,

OK, confessions of a post op.....I am NOT sharing this to encourage you or anyone else to be off of opti, but to ease your mind, let it go and move forward.

I had to do opti for 2 weeks....over halloween ( who the **** leaves a woman home alone with FULL size chocolate bars and not enough kids to give them out to???) I ate 2. There ya go, it's out there. And that's over and above my confessed other cheat. Initially in my mind I thought, well, geez, I might as well just eat the rest of the time and do opti the last few days prior to surgery.....The mind games we play with ourselves is incredible. I gave myself a talking to, got back on track and stayed on opti.

Fortunately I did because my band was adhered to my liver, Dr Hagan had to cut it off of my liver, which resulted in some bleeding and having a drain post op.

The thing is, Dr hagan is a kind compassionate man, I guarantee if you were to call him tomorrow and confess, he'd say, it's ok, you are only human, get back on track though so we can make your surgery as safe as possible.

So, moving forward, you ( and you too Tammy ) are worth it, you will be so proud of yourself getting back on track and sticking to the program.

Oh, and perhaps you could suggest to that man of yours that he eat his chips etc elsewhere!

You go girl (s)

Terri

Thanks Terri!

I appreciate it that. I am moving on. Being strong and gonna rock the remaining time.

I hope Dr Hagan doesn't have too much of a difficult time. I believe Dr Klien will be assisting for a bit because of my weight. 

your guy is an enabler and has to go lol. j/k

a few chips wont hurt you. they arent going to cut you open and stop, think of the money lost if they did that every time someone cheated on opti! not gonna happen.

but in all honesty, you need to talk to your dude and give him the whats up. opti is the easy part. it was simple. add water, ice, flavor, blend, drink. couldn't be any easier. after is hard. i am finding it a lot more difficult to measure, track, take vitamins, water, etc. it takes real effort. so he needs to be on track for after, this is long term.

not trying to be an asshole just being real.

You aren't being an asshole.

He isn't a permit fixture in my life and been in the process of determining figuring out if and show I cut the ties.  So I agree with you. I don't need side influences.

I am sure afterwards is gonna be interesting.Im looking forward to having different textures and flavors in a couple weeks. 

it is hard. my wife still eats normal stuff, and when i say normal i mean how we have always eaten so bad. pizza, pasta, burgers. but i am determined. yesterday bought her and my daughter a burger and fries from a new place opened up near my shop called holy chuck burgers. i wanted one so bad, but didn't. just came home and had some tuna on crackers. terrible but oh well. this is about my life and long term.

during opti was tough, my wife was awesome at helping me but we still had chips and cookies around the house.  i didnt cheat once though. i ate some thing i shouldnt have eaten last week, just some chicken noodle soup from swiss chalet but it was not small enough pieces, i was so ill. learn from the mistakes and move on. **** aint easy.

good luck next week.

You should be proud of yourself. I find you so inspiring.  

The soup pieces where too big even after chewing it up?

Can I ask what you been eating for the last month? 

Inspiring? damn, i am blushing lol. i am just trying hard to lose weight. i have a wife, a 23 month old girl with a disibility and a 7 month old boy who i want to be around for. :)

ya, the pieces were a bit big even after chewing. i admit i am still having an issue chewing as much as i am supposed. i still tend to eat too much too fast, but working on it.

i really messed up in week 3, i thought it was week 4, dont ask me how. my brain was clearly not working. so i started eating stuff i wasnt supposed to. then went back to liquid to rest my pouch for a week.

so. for right or wrong i have been pretty much sticking to the following for the past 2 weeks.

breakfast -

plain oatmeal and some protein shake. i hate plain oatmeal so have switched to cereal that i let sit in skim milk till soft. then take all my vitamins for morning.

snack -

usually a few melba toast with some laughing cow cheese. the flavored ones are pretty good.

lunch -

soup - i add some unflavored protein powder. take iron.

snack -

yogurt with protein powder. i add a 2nd protein shake after.

dinner -

i have a small tin of flavored tuna on a few soda crackers.  or soup with protein powder. take evening vitamins.

snack -

yogurt with protien powder

that is pretty much it. although i do have some no sugar added ice cream with my daughter at night.

i try hard to get all my water in but i dont manage to get it all. i am 5 weeks post op on monday and down 77lbs! i am happy but have a lot more to go.

That's great. I love that you are doing this so you can be the dad you want to be.  That touches my heart.

thanks for sharing the food for the last

couple weeks.

I'm gonna be week four for Christmas Day. Trying to think what would be good to make. I won't be attending a " regular" family dinner. So just be chilling at home w a friend coming over to watch corny movies. I was hoping I could something like moist meatloaf well chewed would work?? What you think?

I understand the long way to go!! 250lbs is what I need to lose!! I have to lose an obese person. You being down 77 in 5 weeks give me hope I can be down 50- 60 lbs by end of Jan 2014