It's Thursday and I am back again. What's up???
Dearest Sistah,
You can call me at any time and if I am not at the end of the phone, I will ALWAYS call you back, just let me know when is a good time. . .
Yes, my open and honest self has spilled the beans and for the same reason that Pat, Cheryl, you and Annette have jumped on board, because we are not alone, even when our feelings would isolate us and make us believe in the "bad" self that is trying to drown what is so wonderful about each and every one of us. I am my own worst critic, however, I believe that I deserve the good things in life and my actions are largely about creating that reality, I speak from the heart to purge what thoughts run through my mind, so as not to make them drive me nuts!!!
I love you and we are all, whether or not we want to admit it, addicts, whether it's food, coffee, cigarettes, sex, spending, sitting in front of the computer playing bejeweled, we are all trying as best we can to cope in a world that moves too fast and seems to be harder and harder to keep up with.
Hugs, Laureen
P.S. See my separate post on what I am trying to do. . .
You can call me at any time and if I am not at the end of the phone, I will ALWAYS call you back, just let me know when is a good time. . .
Yes, my open and honest self has spilled the beans and for the same reason that Pat, Cheryl, you and Annette have jumped on board, because we are not alone, even when our feelings would isolate us and make us believe in the "bad" self that is trying to drown what is so wonderful about each and every one of us. I am my own worst critic, however, I believe that I deserve the good things in life and my actions are largely about creating that reality, I speak from the heart to purge what thoughts run through my mind, so as not to make them drive me nuts!!!
I love you and we are all, whether or not we want to admit it, addicts, whether it's food, coffee, cigarettes, sex, spending, sitting in front of the computer playing bejeweled, we are all trying as best we can to cope in a world that moves too fast and seems to be harder and harder to keep up with.
Hugs, Laureen
P.S. See my separate post on what I am trying to do. . .
My Mantra is that I do not determine my success by the number hanging in my closet, nor will I let the scale determine that success either. . . It is through trial and error I will continue to grow and succeed. . . Laureen
"Success is a journey, not a destination." Ben Sweetland
Gut spilling seems to be so difficult for many of us. We keep those not so good thoughts and feeling buried deeply inside. Letting it out helps relieve stress but good grief, we continue to clam up.
Laureen - from the responses this morning, it looks like so many of us share your same woes.
I have spent the past several months escaping reality by sleeping as often as possible. A couple of Diphenhydramine, an Ativan and I can lose a few hours of worrying through sleep.
Not a good combination but my thoughts have come dangerously close to wanting entire bottles.
United we stand. Thank God to all of you for opening up and caring.
Kisses
Annette
Laureen - from the responses this morning, it looks like so many of us share your same woes.
I have spent the past several months escaping reality by sleeping as often as possible. A couple of Diphenhydramine, an Ativan and I can lose a few hours of worrying through sleep.
Not a good combination but my thoughts have come dangerously close to wanting entire bottles.
United we stand. Thank God to all of you for opening up and caring.
Kisses
Annette
Annette 
Nettie,
Yup, taught "to be seen and not heard", or "if you've got nothing good to say, then keep your mouth shut", we did and reached for food instead. . .for too many of us, our weight was the way we both hid and were seen for a long while. . . so keeping things in is certainly a way of life. However, the thing that those of us with religious upbringing were also taught was, that "When God was finished, He saw that man needed a helper, a companion" and so He created another, "Eve". My guess here is He did not mean for us to go through life feeling like there was no one on this earth to turn to in turmoil, whether inner or other, so why oh why do we keep inside that which, when shared, often enough is lessened or at least understood as no others can understand? He gave us one another and so, on this forum, I feel safe enough to be who and what I am, knowing that someone on here will surely understand the way I think.
Love you and wish I could make all of us have happy, contented lives, without pain or hardship, but that is not reality for any human walking the face of this earth and so, we are here to help one another in our daily walk.
Hugs, Lil Sis
Yup, taught "to be seen and not heard", or "if you've got nothing good to say, then keep your mouth shut", we did and reached for food instead. . .for too many of us, our weight was the way we both hid and were seen for a long while. . . so keeping things in is certainly a way of life. However, the thing that those of us with religious upbringing were also taught was, that "When God was finished, He saw that man needed a helper, a companion" and so He created another, "Eve". My guess here is He did not mean for us to go through life feeling like there was no one on this earth to turn to in turmoil, whether inner or other, so why oh why do we keep inside that which, when shared, often enough is lessened or at least understood as no others can understand? He gave us one another and so, on this forum, I feel safe enough to be who and what I am, knowing that someone on here will surely understand the way I think.
Love you and wish I could make all of us have happy, contented lives, without pain or hardship, but that is not reality for any human walking the face of this earth and so, we are here to help one another in our daily walk.
Hugs, Lil Sis
My Mantra is that I do not determine my success by the number hanging in my closet, nor will I let the scale determine that success either. . . It is through trial and error I will continue to grow and succeed. . . Laureen
"Success is a journey, not a destination." Ben Sweetland
Hi Laureen, Pat, Margo and the others having difficulties:
I too have been dealing with the food demon ... the other night when I couldn't sleep, I downed a whole package of cracker chips ... only meant to have a few, but by the time I was done, I had most of the package gone. Not good. My problem isn't at 3 or 4, because that's when I'm going to work. An iced coffee (which is just like water ... because I don't put anything in it) will last me for hours and satisfy me. My problem is at midnight when I get home from work. I'm tired, I'm aching, stressed out, upset from whatever happened at work that night (especially if I'm doing Monroe sports, as I'm doing most nights this week) and I'm hungry, because I haven't had time to take a break for dinner (I take a protein drink and some fruit and a protein bar for snacks). I just want to eat everything in sight. Not good.
I too have gained 30 pounds from my original loss and am up a size, so I'm not happy with me, either. I've had to buy bigger bras, bigger jeans ... some of my shirts are tight on me. One of my biggest problems is no exercise ... well, the only thing I can do is get in the pool, and it's closed right now until the weather gets warmer. My body hurts so much all the time I don't want to do anything most of the time. I'm depressed most of the time too ... If I didn't have you guys I wouldn't survive.
I too turn to alcohol on occasion but fortunately, I can only handle one glass of wine or one beer before I get really drunk. It hits me really hard. I only have one or two drinks A WEEK and only on my days off. It's probably good I can't handle my alcohol any more because I probably would turn to it too much.
True confessions time ... well, this is good for our souls, huh? It's like sitting in a giant circle, holding hands.
I too have been dealing with the food demon ... the other night when I couldn't sleep, I downed a whole package of cracker chips ... only meant to have a few, but by the time I was done, I had most of the package gone. Not good. My problem isn't at 3 or 4, because that's when I'm going to work. An iced coffee (which is just like water ... because I don't put anything in it) will last me for hours and satisfy me. My problem is at midnight when I get home from work. I'm tired, I'm aching, stressed out, upset from whatever happened at work that night (especially if I'm doing Monroe sports, as I'm doing most nights this week) and I'm hungry, because I haven't had time to take a break for dinner (I take a protein drink and some fruit and a protein bar for snacks). I just want to eat everything in sight. Not good.
I too have gained 30 pounds from my original loss and am up a size, so I'm not happy with me, either. I've had to buy bigger bras, bigger jeans ... some of my shirts are tight on me. One of my biggest problems is no exercise ... well, the only thing I can do is get in the pool, and it's closed right now until the weather gets warmer. My body hurts so much all the time I don't want to do anything most of the time. I'm depressed most of the time too ... If I didn't have you guys I wouldn't survive.
I too turn to alcohol on occasion but fortunately, I can only handle one glass of wine or one beer before I get really drunk. It hits me really hard. I only have one or two drinks A WEEK and only on my days off. It's probably good I can't handle my alcohol any more because I probably would turn to it too much.
True confessions time ... well, this is good for our souls, huh? It's like sitting in a giant circle, holding hands.
Eileen,
I feel you and hear you loud and clear and while I don't know what the answer is, I will be putting a thread up daily for people to share honestly, without fear of judgment, but also being willing to take suggestions or words of encouragement from one another and see if staying honest and sharing about our feelings as they relate to our need to eat through them, will help us. We are here to support one another, if not here, then where?
Hugs, Laureen
I feel you and hear you loud and clear and while I don't know what the answer is, I will be putting a thread up daily for people to share honestly, without fear of judgment, but also being willing to take suggestions or words of encouragement from one another and see if staying honest and sharing about our feelings as they relate to our need to eat through them, will help us. We are here to support one another, if not here, then where?
Hugs, Laureen
My Mantra is that I do not determine my success by the number hanging in my closet, nor will I let the scale determine that success either. . . It is through trial and error I will continue to grow and succeed. . . Laureen
"Success is a journey, not a destination." Ben Sweetland
Good morning George and all,
Back to work very early, and staying late to make up hours.
Went to the Dr. with my mom and dad. We have seen, it seems like, a bazillion MDs. The date for surgery is April 20 tentatively. Things look pretty grim. Her health is pretty fragile and if it weren't cancer I am sure they would not be so willing to put her on the table. She still needs clearance from her heart doc and because the dx is Cancer he prob won't say no but will really lay it out for her what a huge surgery this is and what her chances are of recovery and all that. If she doesn't have it she will have about a year. So she is trying to decide what to do. Both of my parents are really pretty young for all this but have such fragile health that they are more like 10 or 15 years older than they are. I always thought my dad would go first.
OK, change of subject.
Our Spring is taking so long to get here. But I know it will be here one way or another. Can't wait!
Oh, I have ramble her for too long, gotta get ready for work!
Take care,
Cheryl
Back to work very early, and staying late to make up hours.
Went to the Dr. with my mom and dad. We have seen, it seems like, a bazillion MDs. The date for surgery is April 20 tentatively. Things look pretty grim. Her health is pretty fragile and if it weren't cancer I am sure they would not be so willing to put her on the table. She still needs clearance from her heart doc and because the dx is Cancer he prob won't say no but will really lay it out for her what a huge surgery this is and what her chances are of recovery and all that. If she doesn't have it she will have about a year. So she is trying to decide what to do. Both of my parents are really pretty young for all this but have such fragile health that they are more like 10 or 15 years older than they are. I always thought my dad would go first.
OK, change of subject.
Our Spring is taking so long to get here. But I know it will be here one way or another. Can't wait!
Oh, I have ramble her for too long, gotta get ready for work!
Take care,
Cheryl
We never touch people so lightly we do not leave a trace.
Peggy Tabor Millin
Whhoooooooo George, have fun at the Rangers game! Feeling like a kid again is great!
Good morning OFF family,
The sun is shining but it's still cold in Michigan. People are leaving next week on their Spring Break, kids are excited and summer's coming soon!
Nothing new with me so this will be short.
On the news today they had a lady that was hypnotized into believing she had a lapband. Cost of this is between 500.00-1000.00
I don't think that would work on me, I'm not too suggestive but hey if it works for people I say go for it! You know there is all ways some new fangle thing that will come out of the woodwork for people to try to get thin...and we bite every time!
Not me, no dieting and just Mindful Eating and exercise. Drinking all my water and taking baby steps! Hugs Debbie
Good morning OFF family,
The sun is shining but it's still cold in Michigan. People are leaving next week on their Spring Break, kids are excited and summer's coming soon!
Nothing new with me so this will be short.
On the news today they had a lady that was hypnotized into believing she had a lapband. Cost of this is between 500.00-1000.00
I don't think that would work on me, I'm not too suggestive but hey if it works for people I say go for it! You know there is all ways some new fangle thing that will come out of the woodwork for people to try to get thin...and we bite every time!
Not me, no dieting and just Mindful Eating and exercise. Drinking all my water and taking baby steps! Hugs Debbie
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