Feelings as relates to Emotional Eating

Laureen S.
on 5/11/11 11:52 pm - Maple Shade, NJ
Good Day to All,

I have not posted this in a little while, in part because I don't always have something to talk about and in part because I've been on an emotional roller coaster lately and have not really felt motivated to post. . .

The emotional tie in to food, for many of us, is an unconscious way to cope with feelings, I will keep this to the me person, as I really cannot speak for you all, but I know that on some levels there will be those that relate to my ruminations here. . .

My life, as of late, has been a constant barage of change and that creates in me feelings of not having control of anything, which is somewhat ironic that I still think along those lines, as often enough I am someone who states that "control is an illusion". What I am aware of is that some things need to change in a big way and only I can achieve that, I am emotional by nature and can also be on the depressive side of things when I feel slighted or misunderstood and funny thing is when that occurs I get hung up in my emotions, I think in large part that is the contributing factor to my obesity throughout my life, as well as the other addictive behaviors I have exhibited.  I feed my feelings, most especially the ones that related to sad or disappointed and therein lies my biggest issues, as I am too often at the disappointed spectrum, which furthers my sad self.  Expectations, no matter how small or unconscious they are, are the starting point for all that brings me to an emotionally desolate place internally and it is that sort of stuff that brings me back to making bad choices for me.  I have been slapped in the face with a few realizations lately that can only help me, if I keep my eyes on the road ahead and remember where I traveled to get to where I am. 

The only thing I can control is my actions and reactions to the stimuli around me, and in that area, there is plenty of work to be done.  I began that process of changing my actions and reactions almost 24 years ago, when I walked into my first 12 Step Program, though I did not realize how much I needed it then, and throughout my journey within recovery I sometimes forget it is not an event, but truly is a lifetime journey and that there will be periods where re-commitment is necessary and while my sobriety has been constant for all these years, there are times that my addictive personality traits rear their ugly head and it is then that my program of recovery becomes a tool that helps me move forward.

Where I am right now is a better place, living in the solution is a brighter and better place.  I have been making good choices in spite of how I have been feeling, as I learned and continue to learn, feelings are not facts, however, they can guide us to change if we explore where they are coming from. 

Thank you for reading and sharing in my journey.

Hugs, Laureen


My Mantra is that I do not determine my success by the number hanging in my closet, nor will I let the scale determine that success either. . .  It is through trial and error I will continue to grow and succeed. . .  Laureen

"Success is a journey, not a destination."  Ben Sweetland

Connie D.
on 5/12/11 12:35 am
Thank you Laureen for always sharing!

Hugs....connie d
shelto1946
on 5/12/11 1:57 am
Laureen,

Glad to read your post today.  Difficult as it may feel, posting/sharing/reaching out is a good thing to do when we are feeling down.  Isolation is not a healthy status for us.

I am one of the many who identifies with your disease, your journey of recovery, and the struggles you continue to face.  My love and prayers coming your way and to all who struggle. 
Thanks to all who share wherever they are inrecovery, as it helps me in every way.

Love to all and strength/support to those in need,

Judy G from Waltham, MA [aka Shelto1946}
Nancy H.
on 5/12/11 7:53 am - Traverse City, MI
Laureen, I am so sorry you are having such a hard time. I wish I could take some of the stuff for you. Just know that when you aren't here, you are really missed, but you have to do what is best for you.
Nan
Mag (Marguerite) P.
on 5/12/11 9:17 am - Green Valley, AZ
Dear Laureen,
    Sorry you are going through such a difficult time. I care about you very much and will be saying a prayer for you. Thanks for sharing your innermost thoughts and feelings.   Love,  Mag  
           
Debbiejean
on 5/12/11 10:14 pm - Shelbyville, MI
Laureen, thanks for sharing.

I too am an emotional eater and always will be. I will fight this fight until the day I die and I know and acknowledge that fact for me. Winning that fight daily is something I think about just before I go to sleep. I count my successes and learn from my failures. Is it failure? Nope, just learning new ideas and accepting the fact that my emotional eating won't go away. I have tools, I use them and one of them is your reflections that you post.
You can teach "an old dog new tricks" and each day for us is a new beginning.

I never look back, just forward. To our future! May be all have excellent health and lifestyles.
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