TGIF - The Elephant in my room - Dealing with regain

 Laureen.........thank you for being so caring and supportive. I have been trying to pull myself out of this for awhile now. I pray to God and don't understand why he keeps  me on this earth with so much pain and heartache. I speak to Chuck too. I have even written him letters. There are so many times I want to speak in person with him just one more time...just one more hug...one more laugh....one more I Love You. 
My heart is just broken and needs time to heal. Right now I don't even want to go to MN because he isn't there. It just isn't the same. He was my very best friend....my anchor.....my biggest support. We have been best of friends since we were 15 years old....there wasn't anything we didn't know about each other..the good ...the bad...and the ugly!
I just have to start caring about myself....I have lost that and can't seem to find it. I feel like a robot just going through the motions. Not a good place to be.

Many thanks again....love and hugs...connie d

As I said, I so understand you, as my relationship with my cousin was the same and when she left so suddenly it was devastating, especially due to the events surrounding her passing, which are just too long and painful to recount and why I was angry for almost two years after she passed.  Like you I was going through the motions, with no heart and it was a long slow process, but one that today I can say I am glad I made it through, so I hope that last statement can give you hope and that your day comes when you can find joy in living soon.

Lots of loving wishes coming your way.  Laureen

Connie my friend, hang in there. Allow yourself the time to miss your soul mate. It takes time. So right now this minute I'm telling you to give yourself permission to feel sad, write those letters to your man, send a balloon up in the air with a message written on it for him. In time you will let him go but for now your just walking through life. In time you will be living with joy and laughter, just not now. One day the light will shine at the end of your tunnel.
For now:
Don't work on your weight. Just accept what it is for now. The weight will come off later.
Write down on a piece of paper one thing you are grateful for and pin it up where you can see it.
Don't beat yourself up about NOT exercising for now. Later...your mojo will come back.
I can tell you right now...you are one special lady, God has plans for you.
Put all those bad feelings in your "God Bag" and close them up sister. Toss that bag in the corner and really let God take control of all the stress.

Lorraine...I love your regain post and how we are working through them. This is my life and sometimes I get a handle on it, sometimes not... I will always have to fight regain. Food will always be my comfort. Food is not my best friend but dang...sometimes that *****y food thinks she comes first in my life and I keep telling her I replaced her with my new best friend call exercise followed by my other BFF...MINDFUL EATING!
And hey...getting old is not for sissies!! Tomorrow's another day. Debbie

Boy Laureen when I saw your post tonight I thought OMG did my elephants move to Laureen's place?? LOL

Yeah I am serious now...I know what you mean about the regain and all...I have been there also when I moved to Ohio just over 3 years ago. I fought to get that weight back off and so far I have done it!! Its a struggle everyday for me and I hope it stays off!! Wishing you the best of luck with yours to keep it off!!!

HUGS