OT- problem with my mammogram
Two weeks ago I had a mammogram. It was a follow up from my mammogram six months ago, which found an abnormality that they thought at the time was just a calcium deposit of some sort, which apparently is not unusual. But they wanted to do a follow up in six months. With my new found phobia of doctors and medical care, I almost didn't go for the mammogram. I actually wasn't afraid of going, apparently a mammogram tech doesn't seem like a doctor to me so it didn't feel scary to go. The reason I almost didn't go was that I figured there really wasn't much point, because if they did find something and wanted to do a biopsy or something, there's no way I would be able to do that. There is no way I would be going to a hospital and seeing a doctor and stuff for a biopsy or any kind of treatment, so why bother with the mammogram. But I decided to do it anyway because I think having information is important. Of course, I figured everything would be OK anyway. I wasn't expecting them to find anything.
But apparently they found something. I just got a call from my PCP's office and they want me to come in this afternoon to talk about the results. It usually takes a couple weeks to get an appointment with my PCP. But they want me to come in today. Something is wrong. The nurse wouldn't tell me what on the phone, of course, but she did tell me that if everything was fine, they would not be asking me to come in. Which I already knew.
I know no one ever wants to deal with something like there and it's not like there is ever a good time for it to happen, but right now is the worse possible time ever for me. I am getting ready to move in a couple weeks. I will be living alone then. Well, me and Isaac. I am in the process of coming off my antidepressants - I'm down to half the dose I was on now. I've been having a lot of back pain and I haven't had any pain medication for my back for a couple of months now. I have no support of any kind whatsoever from my family - my mother and sister haven't spoken to me since thanksgiving. I just don't need something else to deal with right now.
Kelly
Please note: I AM NOT A DOCTOR. If you want medical advice, talk to your doctor. Whatever I post, there is probably some surgeon or other health care provider somewhere that disagrees with me. If you want to know what your surgeon thinks, then ask him or her. Check out my blog.
Oh wow Kelly, You must be so scared. I had a scare in 2009. Biopsy and all. Then again this past year (no biopsy this time). It's so frightening. I can't imagine how you're handling it without support. I know online support isn't the same, but we are here for you. I also know it's scary to face surgeons and biopsies. Just take it one appointment at a time. Please keep us posted. I will be praying for you.
on 4/7/13 11:03 pm - OH
Kelly,
You have been such an excellent source of support. I can appreciate that it may be hard and scary to be going through so much. Regardless of how much support you have, as you say, "information is important."
I'm believing the best for you!!! If there is a finding, early detection and treatment is essential!!
Please keep us informed. You are cared for, more than you know
Prov. 3:5,6
Oh, Kelly, I am sorry that this has been added on top of everything else. I had an inflammatory breast cancer scare a few years ago, and it was very stressful. I did not know you were in the process of moving, and I can imagine how stressful that is for you, even with Isaac.
As you already said, information is important, so just take things one step at a time and find out what the problem is. Try not to think beyond just that step. If the doctor recommends a next step, don't feel pressured into agreeing to anything immediately. If they really need to do a biopsy, perhaps we can help you come up with a way to make that possible and bearable (e.g., having someone go with you who can help you or can advocate for you).
Let us know what the doctor says. Will be thinking about you...
Lora
14 years out; 190 pounds lost, 165 pound loss maintained
You don't drown by falling in the water. You drown by staying there.
Oh Kelly,
So sorry you are facing this, thinking of you.
Cindy
It will hurt. It will take time. It will require dedication. It will require willpower. It requires sacrifice. There will be temptation. But, I promise you, when you reach your goal, it's WORTH IT! (Author Unknown). I feel this sums up my ongoing journey to a healthier me!
Sending prayers Kelly. You have been a huge support here to all of us. Let us help you anyway we can.
Please keep us updated.
Praying!
Michelle
Michelle
Did the happy dance onto the Loser's Bench March 18, 2013!
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