jessann5’s Posts
So my husband and I have been trying to have a baby for about 3 years now with no luck. We are at the point where we are considering fertility treatments and maybe IVF.
For some reason Adoption never occurred to me until I started searching on the internet about infertility. I have nothing against adoption but it is a little scary to me because we are not rich, and our lives aren't perfect. I also wonder about children of different races. I don't really care what race the child is, but I am worried that I would not know how to raise them properly with respect to their race/culture since I might not know much about it. And also children with disabilities. I work full time and so does my husband, and it concerns me that we could not handle a child with special needs or behavioral problems.
I also wonder about the cost, and what is expected of me. Do I need to have the cleanest home on earth, is there going to be social workers and other people examining every aspect of my life/finances? I don't have anything to hide, but the thought still makes me a little uncomfortable.
Has anyone went through this process? How did it turn out and did you have any of the same concerns as I do?
As always, I know I can turn to my OH friends for answers and support.
Thanks guys!
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
That dinner sounds yummy!
Going out to eat is difficult at first because you can't eat much and the food is expensive. I have learned to see going out to eat as an "experience" rather than a meal. It is easier for me to see it that way. So in other words, you get to enjoy the company, the restaurant, and enjoy the evening out. The food is second to all of that.
We had friends in from out of town over the holidays and they wanted to go out to one of the Casino's here that does a Friday night seafood Buffett. They are out of town guests and I wanted to make them happy! But, two problems: I hate buffets, and it's expensive 35.00 each to eat at a buffet that has really average tasting food.
But I looked at it as an opportunity to hang out with my friends, and enjoy the social aspect of the situation. Because the two crab legs and 6 peel and eat shrimp I had, was defiantly not worth it, but the time I spent with them and our other friends that came with us was priceless.
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
Big hugs to you
I would imagine, Saint Frances has an unbelievable Dog park up there just waiting for her. I truly believe, God preserves the things we love and we will be with them again one day. So it might be tough to let her go, but believe that it is only a temporary separation, and she will be there waiting there for you on the other side, tail wagging, ball in mouth, and ready to play forever, with no separation this time.
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
Just wanted to send some love and hugs to you. Sorry you are going through this.
Sending love, and prayers for your peace of mind and asking God to touch you and heal you.
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
Is this week dragging or what! Maybe it's just the first full week back to work since the Holidays. After the carb overload this past few weeks, I am really not feeling so great coming off of them this week. The cravings are insane and I am feeling a bit run down and tired, but I will keep on!
B: Egg beaters, cheese stick
S: Cottage Cheese and carrot sticks
L: Salad with homemade southwest chicken salad on top, fat free Italian dressing
S: Carrot sticks, PB2
D: Baked Eggplant, turkey sausage
S: Salad with tomato and mustard dressing, pack of no sugar added hot cocoa
It's a pretty nice day here in Kansas City, so I will probably walk the trail this afternoon.
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
You can do it Peanut! Get those 25 pounds off!
It's Tuesday and I am at work, of course. A co worker of mine is on my nerves a bit this morning, because she is gossiping about another employee and the way she preforms her job. There is nothing "wrong" with how she dose the job, she just operates a little differently then the rest of us and there is nothing wrong with that, but for some reason this other lady thinks the way she does anything is the only right way to do it. So so so over this petty junk!
Anyway, thanks for the mini rant!
Watching the carbs, I had too many "off" days last month so I am working on getting back to normal. I cut out my usual 100 cal bagel, banana, and apple for the day hoping that it gives me a little boost.
B: 4 egg whites, string cheese
S: Carrot sticks, cottage cheese
L: Salad with homemade southwest chicken salad on top and light Italian dressing
S: Carrot sticks with PB 2
D: Weigh****chers recipe for King Ranch Casserole (never made it, but it looks easy)
S: Green salad with mustard dressing if needed.
Have a great Tuesday :)
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
It is a personal decision, and despite what others may say or think, they do not have to live in your body, you do. Make the decision you want to make. Having Surgery is a big step, but at the same time staying obese is a huge risk to your health.
If I can offer any advise at all it would be to accept that is is only a tool, just like a any other. A hammer may help put a house together, but you still have to build it. Be completely honest with your self and commit to staying on plan and following your surgeons directions no matter how crazy/pointless you might think they are.
Track all of your food, all of the time. From the day you leave the hospital, write down every bite you take, even when you mess up. I swear this is the one thing that has kept me accountable and maintained me weight. Because I know if I eat a McDonald's French fry, I have to track it and I don't want to see 400 calories of crap on my daily food log because it makes me feel awful.
It's true people gain weight after Gastric Bypass, but you do not have to. If you follow your surgeons plan, commit to your self that you will try every day, every meal to live your new "lifestyle" you can be successful.
This is kinda shallow, and maybe a bit wrong, but one thing that feels pretty much better than any other feeling in the world is when I see all those people who thought I would gain all of the weigh back, thought I shouldn't have surgery, talked crap on me, and behind my back wished and hoped for my failure. Walking into the room and the look on their faces when they see that I am thin, and maintaining my loss at almost 5 years out! Ohhhhh it is the BEST feeling EVER!
Sometimes when they start in about, how little I eat, or not eating dessert or trying to talk me into having a glass of wine and I turn it down. I just think to myself "You go ahead, I'll stay right here in my size 6 pants". Bad, I know, but true :)
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
Happy Monday :)
This weekend was a little rough for me, I was home and bored pretty much all weekend so I think I frequented the fridge more than I should have. But today is a fresh start and a new commitment to get it together!
B: egg beaters on a 100cal bagel, banana
S: string cheese and an apple
L: Salad with homemade south west chicken salad, light italian dressing
S: Cottage cheese, carrot sticks
D: Turkey dogs, baked French fries, and green beans
S: green salad with mustard fro dressing with a boiled egg white or two on top (if I need this, some days I do, some days I don't need a evening snack)
Doing: Jillian 30 day shred level one (this might be my favorite workout video)
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
Friday! I have missed you! 
B: scrambled egg whites on two corn tortillas with one slice FF cheese
S: Apple, cottage cheese
L: I was bum this am and instead of packing lunch, I sat on Pintrest and lost track of time, so it's a frozen Lean Cusine Chicken Alfredo meal for me.
S: Carrot sticks and cheese stick
D: Making an attempt at cauliflower fried rice I'll let you know how that goes.
S: 100 cal ice cream sandwich
Have a great Friday people!
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
at 5 years out, no regain and maintaing my loss I plan a "treat" every day. The key word is PLAN :)
I like to have a dessert in the evenings, I don't do much sugar free stuff, I jus****ch portions with the full sugar stuff.
after dinner so I usually have one of the below:
4 hershey kisses
2 small cookies
Fiber one brownie w/cool whip free
100 cal ice cream sandwich
1T peanut butter mixed with cool whip free or vanilla yogurt (OMG it's good! kinda tastes like fluffnutter)
That is pretty much my regular rotation. They help keep me in line and not "cheat" because I know everyday I can have a dessert, so that helps me not to feel deprived.
It's all about balancing your food, measure everything, count every cookie and, chocolate kiss. Planning what you are going to eat every day so that you can stay on track and on plan, but still eat the foods you enjoy.
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
I am starving today! No idea why, but I kinda want to eat anything and everything I can find! I am blaming it on carb overload the past few weeks and getting back to "normal" takes some time for the cravings to go away. But despite what my stomach is saying, I am on plan and on track today! So shut up pouch :)
B: eggbeaters on a 100cal bagle, banana
S: Cottage cheese and an apple
L: salad with chicken and light italian
S: carrot sticks and pb2
D: Grilled chicken and greek salad with taziki sauce instead of the greek dressing.
S: 100 cal ice cream sandwich (The market pantry ones from Target, are fabulous and cheep!)
Have a great day people!!!
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
Good Morning! Back to normal today! Had a cleansing of my cabinets yesterday and threw out a bunch of CRAP that I had acquired over the holidays. I feel better now that it is gone and I can open my cabinet and not have it staring at me!
B: 100 cal bagel with egg beaters, banana
S: Pear and a cheese stick (OMG, where is the apple?)
L: Salad with broccoli, shave turkey, and some light italian dressing
S: Apple and cottage cheese (yay! apple is back!)
D: Turkey brat with baked beans and salad
S: carrot sticks and spicy mustard and maybe more cottage cheese if I need something else.
Have a Great Day!!
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
Happy New Year!
I am kinda glad the Holidays are over! I love the parties and getting together, but if I am being honest, I am tired of the food temptations, I have changed a lot in the past 5 years, but there is nothing like stress and high emotions to widdle away my will power and make me want to eat.
And all of that food I must turn down every weekend makes me start to feel sorry for myself when everyone else is eating, drinking alcohol, and having dessert (That's just the truth). So I am glad it's coming to an end so maybe I can get back to normal. Most people have no idea what it's like to be a food addict, and how difficult it is to be around all of that food I shouldn't eat, and the strength and will power it takes to turn it down. (every single weekend, seriously we have had a party to attend every weekend since Thanks Giving)
B: egg beaters on a 100 cal bagel thin, banana
S: String cheese, apple
L: Salad with shave turkey, kidney beans, and light French dressing, cottage cheese
S: Pear, carrot sticks
D: Having sea food at my Mom's so I am planing head and I will have boiled shrimp, baked potato, and green salad.
S: Taco Dip with a serving of baked lay's
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
Just spilling a little of my guts here. This was a problem I didn't expect to encounter after I lost weight, but I did BIG time and here is what happened:
Our spouses struggle with their weight also and sometimes they feel left out of the weight loss journey or choose not to be a part of it. My husband was a big man 385 at his highest.After I had RNY I lost the weight, he gained more. It was a sad cycle to see him pack on the pounds. He refused any weight loss advise, help, support or anything for several years after I had RNY.
He lived a sedentary lifestyle. He sat all day at work and sat all night at home. Never more activity than walking around the house. He HATED to go anywhere, out to eat, any social event, even over to our families house. He just wanted to stay home, all of the time.
I on the other hand was ready to live! I wanted to soak up this life and enjoy my family and friends. So I started going without him, I would go to eat, parties, family events....he would stay home on the couch feeling sorry for himself and getting angry at me for leaving him home. SO this brought tension between us and we started to argue about it all of the time.
I told him one day in all the honesty I could muster, that I refuse to live my life on this couch any more, I will not sit here sedentary, while my life passes me by. I said I want you to join me and live this life with me because I love you, but If you choose to continue to live of this couch, I can not be a part of it. That hurt, he cried, I felt awful.....but I realized once I said it, how much I meant it! I was at a cross roads and was ready to leave if he did not change. I had loved him for 10 years...it was really difficult to think about the choice I was making.
I was free from 130 pounds that had held me down since I was a child and I was ready to get out in the world and live! But the man I loved, was not. He was content, sitting in front of the tv, not socializing, not moving, just waiting to die...at least that's how I seen it.
I went through my options: leave him, or work with him. I decided to work with him and give our life together a well deserved shot.
I asked him one day in late July of 2011 if he would do one favor for me, attend one, just one Weigh****chers meeting. I told him how much I loved him and that we would face this obstacle the way we did everything else, together. He agreed to go and after the first meeting, he began to change. One vegetable, one work out tape at a time he changed.
As of last weeks meeting, he has lost 140 pounds. We don't live on our couch any more we go places! We go to parties, dinner, out with friends, over to visit family. He is happy again and our lives are so much better. Our marriage survived. Thank God!
He never thought in a million years that he would be eating every vegetable under the sun and liking it! Or walking the trail in the afternoons instead of hitting up Sonic Happy hour for a $1 cheese burger and a coke.
It has not always been easy to support him, and sometimes I felt like more of a baby sitter than a support, but it has been well worth the effort.
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
So if you have lost 53 pounds in 5 months that is over 10 pounds a month or about 2.5 pounds a week! It sounds to me like the pounds are flying off of you. I don't know if a human body can shed weight much faster than that, unless you are starving to death.
The numbers don't lie, you ARE losing and rather Quickly too!
Hang in there and remember those pounds don't fall off over night and its only been 5 months :)
Best wishes to you!
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
Kat is so right. It's a complete life style change. 
You must be willing to change what you eat because the carbs like mashed potatoes, rice, ect will hinder your weight loss. At 5 years out, I try to limit my carbs to only one "bread item" daily like a tortilla, or english muffin. The rest of my carbs come from fruit, veggies, and dairy.
Just be open minded, and go into trying new foods with a positive attitude and give them a fair shot.
Best wishes to you :)
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
Congrats on your success! It feels good to have some complements and a positive things said about your appearance!
For me, I had a very unpleasant reaction to the attention from men. In my mind, I had been treated so badly by them since middle school when I became over weight. They would make fun of me, tease me, call me names. It made me kinda hate them. And this behavior from men continued in some ways into my adult years.
So when I lost the weight and they started paying attention to me and, I was ANGRY at them for that! I am the same person today as I was back then, but they never cared or even wanted to know anything about me, they judged me from the moment they saw me and didn't care how their comments, and reactions made me feel.
I am married to a man who has loved me through thick and thin (in the most literal sense!) And I am so thankful for him because he never once made me feel like the "fat girl" You know the girl that in every way possible is seen as inferior to anyone who is skinnier than she is, the one that only comes along to parties because her friends need a ride home, the one the guys make private jokes about. He never treated me like that. and I love him so much for it.
I am working on my opinion and the way I treat of other men, but it slow coming I still feel resentment and a little hateful towards them. I know I must forgive, but I can never forget.
Thanks for the vent/therapy session :)
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
Enjoy the day without the boss :)
Drove to work in a snow storm but made it in ok. For some reason my head is telling me to go get pancakes for breakfast, And I have to tell myself that just because it's cold and snowy doesn't' mean we get to pack on 100lbs and hibernate for the winter.
So food for today
B: egg beaters on 100 cal english muffin, banana
S: Cottage cheese and an apple
L: mixed green salad w grilled chicken
S: Cheese stick, oragne
D: Turkey burgers and baked fries, green beans
S: Homemade Hazelnut latte
Have a great day everyone!
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
I love the thrift store! I have to dress nice for work every day (and it sucks) but buying business type clothes is expensive! Ann Taylor wants $75 for a pair of pants...don't think so even thought they are great pants.
Forget the mall, I go to the thrift stores and get great stuff for hardly nothing. There is a little church thrift store here in town that has $1 clothes on saturday, so I try to get down there as often as possible. I always find my Ann Taylor pants there and usually a cute top or a bag. One of the best finds was a Hobo Coach bag for $1 yay!
I went this weekend to Savers and got two pairs of Big Star jeans, and a pair of Danskos the jeans were 6.99 each and the Danskos were 4.99.
Wish I was thrifting now, but I am at work :( oh well Thrift store this Saturday!
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
Sorry you are having a rough day :( I hope your hubby gets better.
Just curious, what tortillas do you use?
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
Hey Peanut, so sorry for what you are going through. Just sending love and prayers to you today :)
I made Christmas spritz cookies with the family last night and only ate 2! And for some reason they made me kinda sick, they were super small but still didn't set well with me. Anyway they turned out cute and I brought all of them to work with me this am :)
B: Egg beaters on a 100cal english muffin w a slice light cheese and a banana
S: apple, 1/2 cup cottage cheese
L: Mixed asian veggies with grilled chicken
S: Cheese stick, orange
D: Grilled chicken and salad
S: homemade hazelnut latte
Have a great day!
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
It's an amazing ride! I went from a size 24/26 to a 4/6 in two years. I keep my old pants and look at them sometimes. It is a great motivator to keep going. My husband and I both can get into my old Capri's we did it this past summer it was hilarious! Both of us in each of the legs.
I really need to post some new pics!
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
Went to support group this weekend to try and deal with the upcoming holidays and all of the food. My weight has been stable for a year. I haven't lost or gained anything in 12 months so I am not trying to mess that up with cookies, and snacks at Christmas time. So I start this week refocused on the task and thankful for all the blessings in my life.
B: Egg beaters on a 100cal english muffin slice 2% cheese, banana
S: Apple, cheese stick
L: Frozen Asian veggies with grilled chicken and hosin sauce
S: Carrot sticks, cottage cheese
D: Weigh****chers recipe baked chicken strips with, homemade baked fries, small green salad
S: Homemade soy latte with SF hazelnut syrup
Have a good day everyone:)
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
Happy Friday dance!!!!
I go to the dentist this afternoon for a crown on my molar :( never had one before so I don't know what to expect.
B: 2 egg whites on a sandwich thin slice of light cheese
S: Banana, Cheese stick
L: Salad with grilled chicken
S: Apple and cottage cheese
D: Might just be a protein shake (if my tooth hurts)
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
Pepto contains Aspirin and may increase your risk of developing a stomach ulcer and bleeding. I would go with plain immodium in the tablet from. I avoid the liquid because the syrup contains sugar. Tums are calcium carbonate and might help if your stomach gets upset.
Have fun on your cruise :)
RNY 1/29/08
Pre: BMI 47.6 wt 279
Current: BMI 24.9 wt 146
total pounds lost: 133
