my emotions

My emotions are ALL OVER THE PLACE! I'm scaring myself! I'm yelling at my son and at my hubby (which the hubby actually deserves today), I even yelled at the dogs! My surgery is in 12 days and maybe its just the emotional side of surgery, I don't know but I wi**** would STOP!

Sounds hormonal to me. It's not easy controlling that anger sometimes but walking away is my salvation. I find that works for me. You also may be stressed. Try to find time to decompress the way that works for you. i love a warm bubble bath, reading and lately just a long walk. Good luck with your surgery. i am saving a spot for you on the loser's bench. Best, Sharon

thank you!

Try sitting down to write yourself a letter or some sort of blog and explore some of the underlying emotions that you might be going through re: surgery or life in general. I think a lot of time there's so much hype and excitement going into surgery b/c people are imagining that this is the ultimate solution...but in reality, we are making a surgical, forever life altering change to our bodies that affects so much....our physical, emotional, mental and sometimes spirtual sides. It's horrifying and exciting.....I was a wreck before surgery, and after when all the hormones flood your body;...doesnt get easier. So, find a way to cope now.

I know how you feel. As I get closer to getting my pre-ops done and getting my big date, I find that I cry easily, and I haven't actually yelled anyone, but I really wanted to !!  I'm impatient and just want things and people to move along quicker. I just stop and think about how lucky I am to be able to have this surgery done and all the people who are supporting me in this journey and it helps me calm down. I guess this too shall pass. Hang in there, we'll make it just fine.
p.s. Give that poor dog an extra treat today. lol

I hear ya. I am a bit short of fuse myself. I've been trying to work
On my closet clearing(old junky stuff) and a little organizing so my return home is smooth. It's good to write these feelings down so you can see how far you will have come later. Thanks for posting!

Listen, I am not a big believer in expressing a lot of angry feelings.  I don't mean, stuffing your anger or not letting people know when you're angry.  But I had a therapist tell me once that research showed that emoting a lot of angry feelings (like yelling and throwing things - my favorite!) actually exacerbates the feelings, not disappates them.  So I really, really try to tell myself that yelling will make me feel worse.

I raised two girls, and nothing *ever* pushed my buttons like a 13-yr-old girl.  It was very hard, and I wasn't able to stay serene very often.  But it really, really worked when I could actually disconnect for a bit instead of having it out with my kids or partner.  Which is, believe me, my first instinct. 

((Hugs))

 I think that at the point in this journey you are at you may be doing like I did. I kept things bottled up and just didn't really want to let my family and friends know exactly how I was feeling. I would come on OH and share my feelings here but never really did with the people closest to me. Maybe it was for fear of just not really wanting to admit how I truly was feeling out loud. Maybe it was just not wanting to let them in on how truly miserable in my body I really was. I was always trying to hide how hard it was to get up and down, to breathe, or the pains I was in on just a daily basis. I even hid how heavy I truly was until about 2 months out from surgery EVEN FROM MY HUSBAND! Then the day of surgery when that lady came up to me and told me God told her that I was going to be ok did it truly hit me how much under an invisible cloak I was. I cried and cried still no one really understood truly what was wrong. Your under an enormous amount of stress right now and whether you want to admit it yet or not you are probably terrified like I was of the unknown but it didn't really hit me till about that 2 week from surgery mark. Hon your gonna be great and do amazing! Talk to your family and friends and let them in on how you really are feeling and if you don't want to do that then I'M HERE TOO!!!

Erica, U R the greatest!