Just a vent...no response needed!! Seriously!
I'm not password protected...(he is) because I felt I have NOTHING to hide. He says I'm hiding stuff and doing stuff behind his back. I starting talking to a friend (granted it was a male), but I did it on my CELL phone. Knowing FULL well he would see it on the bill, so not hiding it!! He just accused me of having a "secret" FB email account, so I can communicate with people and he can't see it. HELLO.. EVERYONE on FB has this!!! My stuff is in the WIDE open, because I have nothing to hide!! I thought he was checking my phone (behind my back), so I locked my phone. Swear to god, less than 3 mins after I locked it....he says "what are you hiding that you have to lock your phone?"! Why are you looking?!! So I've figured, let him "spy" and he will look like the ass in the end!
Now, you with the Landlord....another story! I can't believe that happened to you! I remember reading a bit about that in the past! I do respect myself more now than I use to and I've lost a lot of respect for him!!
Thank you so much for your support!!!
There are never any problems, only solutions. quoted by a dear and special friend!!!
My stats:
Starting weight 234 lbs Height 5 ft 6 in
Goal in 7 months (127 lbs)
Currently: 120-123 lbs
Tops Small Bottoms size 2!!!! UPDATED: 11/11
I definitely know about the "aha" moment. Its the day I woke up and said "if I don't take care of number1, no one will".... Often emotional abusers also become physical abusers. Get out while you can. I had a girlfriend say to me after I divorced him that she was afraid she would find me dead one day. He never hit me but... being on the outside she could see more than I could at the time.
Also - go get some counseling. I did some lady group counseling sessions with the Women's Resource Center in town. Did a world of good.
Hang tough - its a hard thing to do and you'll have a myriad of emotions to go through, but remember its all for you...
HW-218/SW-208/CW-126/ Lowest Weight-121/Goal-125 - hit 8/23/09/Height-5'3"
Regain 30 lbs from 2012 to 2016 - got back on track and lost it. Took 8 months.
90+/- pounds lost BMI - 24 or so
Starting BMI between 35 and 40ish?
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I'm like you, I've got a son with him....but ya know what...I wouldn't change all the crap I've put up with for the world, because of my son!!! I've laid low on FB, because recently a friend on there got burned because she was posting stuff. But I feel safer over here! Its public, but not as public as FB.He keeps talking, but then of course it turns into a disagreement/argument. And I say, I'm done!! I'm done arguing, I'm done fighting, I can't do it anymore. But he KEEPS going!! I've come to realize he is trying to manipulate me! He wants me to feel bad an cave. But I'm literally all fought out. I was "advised" the day will come when that happens. I didn't understand it until now! He has never physically abused me. Granted tonight I did get a bit scared (I'd never let him know), he was saying he hoped I got hit by a bus tomorrow, he didn't understand why I was hurting him like this, there is someone manipulating me in the way of thinking. I'm and f'n *****etc!! All this was said, while he had an empty beer bottle in his hand the he would swing around a bit and hit against his hand or leg!! I was a bit scared he was going to at my head with it. But I've informed a few people, if anything happens to me.....look at him!!
I've thought of counseling. I wanted to get it for us, years back. He always said, I won't talk to someone that doesn't know me about our problems. Now all of a sudden, he wants to seek counseling. But I'm at a point....its too little too late!
This is going to be a harder roller coaster than my post DS life. But I'm hoping that when it all comes out at the other end...everything will be ok and I will be a stronger person!!! I'm making my son #1 & me #1.5! Sorry to ramble!
Thank you again!
There are never any problems, only solutions. quoted by a dear and special friend!!!
My stats:
Starting weight 234 lbs Height 5 ft 6 in
Goal in 7 months (127 lbs)
Currently: 120-123 lbs
Tops Small Bottoms size 2!!!! UPDATED: 11/11
I've had to contain my emotions!! I didn't expect any responses! I figured there would be some...but OMG..you guys are awesome!! I love everyone of you!! I don't feel so alone!! I've personally responded to everyone, but I couldn't help but address the post as a whole!I've strayed from the LW Board awhile back, but I've come back as a lurker and occasional poster! Thank you everyone for embracing me and helping to hold my head above the water!! Sometimes I think its just me, and I sink back in to the depression of the fat person I use to be. Thank you for being my water wings! It means more than you all will ever know!!!
There are never any problems, only solutions. quoted by a dear and special friend!!!
My stats:
Starting weight 234 lbs Height 5 ft 6 in
Goal in 7 months (127 lbs)
Currently: 120-123 lbs
Tops Small Bottoms size 2!!!! UPDATED: 11/11
LOL!! I'm doing "ok", but just "ok".. big roller coaster!! Thought the WLS roller coaster as a doozie...!! Thanks for your support! I means a lot!
There are never any problems, only solutions. quoted by a dear and special friend!!!
My stats:
Starting weight 234 lbs Height 5 ft 6 in
Goal in 7 months (127 lbs)
Currently: 120-123 lbs
Tops Small Bottoms size 2!!!! UPDATED: 11/11
Now, start making preparations to take care of yourself once you leave him. Do your best to have him out of the house not you, you need it to raise your kids.
http://www.ncadv.org/protectyourself/SafetyPlan_130.html
We have your back just as Gina said...
Liz
Duodenal Switch (Lap) 01-24-11 | Surgeon: Stephen Boyce | High weight: 250 in 2002 | Surgery weight: 203 | Lowest weight: 121 | Current weight: 135 | Goal weight: 135
