Missed everyone

I haven't been on in a couple months. As you know, i am a homebody, for the most part due to a visual impairment. For the last 12.5 years, Dasie, my Maltese, has been my constant loving companion keeping me company when it was usually only the two of us. About 8 weeks ago I bumped her. She was in pain, so we rushed her to Emergency Vet care. It appeared to be a sprained neck, but as it turned out, it was far more serious. Dasie had vascular tumors on her heart and spleen. I lost her 2 weeks ago today.

As horrible as this sounds, I have grieved more for her than I have for any person I've lost. She practically never left my side. If you saw me you saw her. Unbeknown to me, last summer my oldest daughter had a painting of her commissioned. It was my Christmas present. Only God knew what was in store.

As for my weight...nothing mattered but her. I don't think I've had one full dose of calcium in 8 weeks. I'm now trying to regroup and get back on track. Oddly for the fist time in my 57 years I did not stress eat. I stopped weighing as well and probably hit an all time low without knowing it.

I did log on a couple times, but I did not feel up to participating. I hope everyone had a blessed Christmas, Hanukkah and Holiday.

I'm sorry for your loss. They now believe dogs evolved along side humans as a necessary companion that worked for our benefit and theirs. I jus****ched a great show on Netflix (we don't have cable) about dogs and their ability to "read" human expressions. They are the only animal that can do that, not even monkeys or apes can do that. They seem to be connected to our souls.

My husband told me about a time just a few days before his major motorcycle accident (broke his neck and became paralyzed), he got up from bed and started into the hallway and saw his beloved but deceased dog at the end of the hall happy to greet him. He said he instantly realized he was having a vision (never has had one before or after this event) but also knew that he was expected to make a decision. The decision was whether to walk towards the dog as if to meet him in the afterlife or not to. He said he was already walking into the hallway but made a quick exit out the back door which was adjacent to the hallway. Once outside he contemplated what just happened and felt strongly that if he walked straight to the dog that something was going to happen that would end his life. A few days later, his accident occurred out in a remote area. He could hardly breath when laying paralyzed on the ground. Eventually help came and he was airlifted to a trauma hospital and did survive. I'm writing a memoir that includes parts of his life. This will be in it. I believe dogs are in heaven. Even other pets. If it was loved, God makes room. Just my belief system. 

Thank you for your beautiful response.  I agree 100% with you.  God's love is vast and pure, and I know I will see her again.  I purchased her in 2000 following an unexpected trauma in our family.  What therapy and drugs could not accomplish, she brought me out of a dark place.  Your memoir about your husband's experience will be a wonderful tribute to him and his pet.  Thank you for telling me your story.

do you know the Rainbow Bridge poem?  I will try to find it if you aren't familiar with it. 

I am so sorry for your loss.  You will get through this but I know it won't be easy.  We are here for you when you need support, weight wise or any wise. 

Yes..I love that poem.  My step-mother devoted her life to animal rescue.  Every time she had to put down an animal, she read that poem.  She passed in 2011, and her only request was to have it read at her funeral.  Thank you for mentioning it.

I'm so sorry.  : (  Welcome back and know that we're sending hugs your way.

--gina

 

Thank you Gina.  I've truly missed everyone.

I am so sorry for your loss.  I hope you know we are here for you.  We have always had a pet and I know what a big part of our lives they are.  When we lost our sweet Daisy in 2007, DH and I were both devastated.  Everyday when we came home to the empty house, we would just cry and cry.  We finally had to give in and get another pet - our Little Willie.  He is now just as special to us and we would be lost without him.

Here is the Rainbow Bridge poem that Price was talking about.  I think it is beautiful.

Linda

Linda I really needed to hear that.  I am pretty much crying off and on all day and night.  My husband contacted the lady we got Dasie from, and she has a litter ready to go to homes January 10th.  I'm just so conflicted.  I feel like I would be disrespecting her if I got one so soon.  I worry I would compare.  I'm all alone in the house, and my husband believes I need one sooner rather than later. It is good to know your Willie is just as special.  Thank you for your love and support.

I think it will help you. It really did us. I did tell my husband I wanted a male instead of female and wanted a brown(red) instead of black and tan like our Daisy was. I did not want to replace her, but we both needed another pet.

I thought your name was Dasie!!