Got my wish!...I think

Aug 26, 2010

 Well, I think I got my wish...all the complaining about liquids and now that I can actually have food, I can't eat!!!...It seems like it's virtually impossible for me finish my protein shakes, vitamins, and food in a 24 hour period.  My liquid intake is about a sip every hour, and we are not supposed to eat and drink at the same time...I'm stuck on soup...at least I am still able to get all the liquids down without waiting 30 minutes between.  I am still feeling tired just to get the basic housework done.  The "BESTEST" part of all of my complaining is that my husband keeps saying my face is changing...I STILL DON'T SEE IT!!!...I have so many big clothes in my closet that I think my clothes still fit the same as they always have, I still don't see what he is seeing.  I am tempted to go to the store just to try on some clothes, but I do not want to be at this size so I think it would be a waste to buy clothes when I have bigger plans for this body.

What I will say irritates me (as if I haven't been doing that already ), now my husband feels as though he can  tell me about how big I was before and how much food I used to eat, and how miserable I was...Okay, is this a compliment? or is he actually slamming me and I don't know it?...Either way, I don't want to be reminded of how I used to be...that me is GONE!!...I buried her on Aug 2!...my stomach doesn't feel like a bottomless pit and I don't feel like I am starving myself but I do feel afraid to eat...I haven't had any dumping and I would like to keep it that way.  When can I relax about eating...there seems to be so much stress about food that I just wish I could live on liquids!...I know that is not what I wished for a week ago!

Well, I got my wish...now I don't know what to do with it!!!!...What can I eat?....

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