Every day is a WOW!

Jan 05, 2009

January 5,2009          I can't believe how happy I am. I can't believe how good I feel. Every day I feel like I am carrying around a foreign body.  This body does things I haven't been able to do in a long time. I sit with my legs crossed. That to me is huge as I was always embarrassed that I couldn't sit like a lady. My legs were forced apart by fat.  I hope I always remember that humiliation. I hope that I remember all the things I hate about myself as a fat person so that I never allow myself to cross the line again.  I am embarrassed by the attention I am getting and thrilled at the same time. I want to look great every time I walk out the door. Hair done, earrings in, lipstick applied etc. It's hard to look good when your clothes all appear to be saggy potato sacks wrapped around you.
Still it's wonderful to walk by a skinny store and know that within a few months I will be shopping in there.  I love that my weight loss is attracting people to me and that I can tell them about why I am looking so much healthier.  I am like a religious zealot who is trying to convert everyone.
I wish that I had known about this earlier. I wish that it was more readily available in Canada and I wish that every obese person could have this surgery.

On a different note I hardly ever vomit now. The only food that doesn't sit well is a soft slice of bread or dry meat.  I am not taking in any sugar and I am no longer taking any insulin at all. No BP meds and no Cholesterol meds. All my labs came out well and me and my doc are both happy with my progress. 58 pounds today.
Life is better than good.

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