Chub-Rub
For the first time since I decided to go back to school, I'm proud of myself.
I'm a 36 year old wife and mother of 3 beautiful daughters age 18,15 and 14 years old. I wasn't always big, not until I had my last daughter did I really started gaining weight. I seriously did not know how big I was. I would see big girls who looked so cute and carried there weight well, I would assume that I looked like them. One afternoon a few of my fellow bridesmaids in a friends wedding went to go pick out and get fitted for our gowns. We went to DB. There was about 4 big girls in the wedding so I wasn't worried. One by one I watched these women try on gowns that fit perfectly, some were even to big. When I tried on my gown the largest they sold, it didn't fit. I never came out the dressing room, just told everybody it fit. That's when I realized how big I was. Since then I have tried so many diets, my weight just increased and my self esteem just decreased. I learned to use humor to mask how empty I felt inside. It became so difficult to encourage my daughters to love themselves, when I don't even like to look in the mirror. I' am so grateful to my PCP who help me get over my fears and seek info about weight -loss surgery 4 years ago. Here I am today, looking forward to this journey.
