aka_theempress
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year
Dec 12, 2010
This year has gone by incredily fast. I've lost a total of 84 lbs. not the 100 plus I thought I'd lost. *smh* I'm now weighing myself on scale at work, since it's been closer to accurate. I'm working with my PCP to come up with a plan that works for me, to get fully back on track. I'm thinking revision still but will see if it's necessary.
Doing well overall. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year until the next time.
Re-focus time (again)
Oct 24, 2010
24 October 2010
It's been 3 years since I had my RNY, and I'm not at goal. Hell, I'm not at my initial goal--to weigh less than 300 lbs. I went to the doctor's office and I weigh 344, up from 342 on the last visit in July. Well shazaam! He wants me to give up sweet tea and fried chicken. I asked him if he wanted me to choke someone. Hahaha! I don't have any excuses. None I can clearly say hey, it's this blah, blah blah that has caused me not to stall at my weight loss.
I can offer the truth---I didn't exercise, take vitamins daily, or continue to visit my surgeon. Those all contributed to my lack of continued success. I won't view it or myself as failures, because I've never lost 84 lbs. before and managed to somewhat maintain it. I can live with 2 lbs gained in 2 months, because while I was at school, I was too stressed. I'm a stress eater, but I managed not to gain any more than that.
So it's refocus time again. I have started working out at the gym, three times a week. I do weight training and walking. I'm also planning to get back up to my surgeon's to see what options are available. I know, I know what I said earlier but that was before my months and months of stalling. I am exercising to see if the problem is me and not the need for revision. After that, we shall see.
Still thankful for my surgery. Holla y'all
It has been a minute
Aug 30, 2010
30 August 2010
It has been a minute since I've posted. I have no new information. Still trying to come off the rest of my weight, but I'm finding myself doing the same thing. Basically, running in quicksand. Currently, I'm in training for my job, which is a stressful situation. Someone say "chips". I haven't gone completely backwards, but not making any progress either. Pretty much suck-y. I know, whine, whine whine. I'll take cheese with that please. LOL
Until next time...take care.
Fat, the final frontier (warning soap box post)
Apr 06, 2010
I'm a big woman. I've struggled with my weight all my life. Even when I was smaller, all I could see was my fat. Fat isn't a word I have problems with saying in describing myself either. I'm not a big person who'd cry because someone would call me fat either. In fact, if I were crying about that, it's because the person who was trying to cut or embarass me was about to get my fist shoved down her/his throat and a few teeth knocked out, because they've made me very, very angry. LOL
Sensitive? Eh, maybe. Or maybe I'm just fed up with ignorant people feeling free to criticize others for being big. It never ceases to amaze me how "people" feel free to tell a fat person that he/she is fat. News flash dummy, we knows we is fat. LMFAO! And who in Hades asked ya?
"I'm only saying something because I'm concerned about your health." Translation: I may feel bad about myself, and I want you to feel bad about yourself too. Another news flash: not every fat person is sick, and not every thin person is healthy. AND if we are sick, 7 out of 10 times, we knows dat too. Again, LMFAO!
What's got me riled? Reading too many dumb a-- (excuse me my Christian brothers/sisters, but Ima keeps it real. Offended? Please move on) comments about Gabby Sidibe. Mainly, Howard Stern's comments. I know, I know I should ignore him because he says things for provocation, but---the comments struck a nerve. Gabby Sidibe is a very talented actress, but all he cared to see and comment on was her size. He's not the only one either. Others have said critical and hateful things about her too. It just ticks me off, because people feel the freedom to verbally attack her like that. Yeah, yeah I get freedom of speech yada..yada..yada.. I said this is a soap box post, right? Haha
I'm not posting because I need people in my amen corner or need to have my self-confidence boosted. I just wanted to say WTH Howard Stern?? How about you get that moppy head, snaggle-tooth, big nosed horse face of yours fixed before you comment on somebody's fatness. Yeah, I know I'm a hypocrit to criticize his looks, but I couldn't resist, yo. I did say this was a soap box post. Climbing down now...
Anyways, opinions are like buttholes, nearly everyone has one. Just sharing my booty with you. LMBO!
In case you needed to know...
Mar 06, 2010
3/6/2010
I'll deal with one of the physical issues today. One of my problem areas has been getting yeastie beasties in the folds of the loose skin under my breasts and belly. I tried the OTC stuff (Gold Bond, Ammens, Johnsons baby and generic powders), all to no avail. Then I went to the doctor for a prescription. It worked a bit but not as well as it could have. So I stll had some issues with rash. What finally worked?? Skin-So-Soft from Avon. I'd had it for years, just taking up space. Anyway, it worked in relatively short time. I replenished my supply today.
All I have for now---sleepy from working last nightShoulda..woulda..coulda..
Feb 18, 2010
2/18/2010
Regrets are part of life. I have a few, like everyone else I'm sure. But one I'm kicking myself over as I think about it is not having WLS back in 2001-2002 as my doctors suggested. Sometimes, it's okay to let someone make a decision for you. LOL Me, with my stubborn self said H-- no! 
I can do this on my own. 
Well, kick me. 
If I had had the surgery back then, I'd be at my goal by now.
So, I have regrets, but I do know it happened as it should. Really, I do. I just gotta do the dang thang! I have been potato and sweet tea free since 4 January 2010. Yeah meeee! 
I have been using my weights and have noticed some firming of my arms. 
They are still chunky, but getting better. What I hate is my apron gut. It's still poking out AND drooping.
Well hell. Looking forward to some snip-snip-snip of it. Hoo hooo!
Until next time OH family
It's a new year and season
Jan 21, 2010
I'm still here and doing well. The fight to lose these remaining pounds continue. I have yet to join a gym, but am making progress with foods. I can say I've not eaten any potatoes nor drank any sweet tea since 4 January. The potato was harder to give up than the tea, which surprised me. I did feen yesterday for tea and almost forgot myself by swinging by Sonny's. Regrouped and re-focused. Whew!
Until next time.
Merry Christmas to one and all!
Dec 24, 2009
As I look back on my journey, I realize how blessed I have been. And I still am. I noticed how when I walked the few yards to my mailbox that a little over 2 years ago I couldn't do it without pain, sweating like a pig and being extremely winded. No, I'm not at goal yet, nowhere near that but thank God I'm no longer where I was. I won't lie, this holiday I'm eating the goodies. Come January, I go on a fast with my church, so I'll have another opportunity to learn more about my relationship with food. I've not yet determined what I will fast, but sweet tea (my liquid elixir) is something I may need to, because I love it so much. Pray for me (LOL)
In the meantime, I'm looking for a place to make myself work out. When I'm on my own, I start off good but get de-railed after a few missed sessions. *sigh*
Anyway, Merry Christmas to y'all!
Still in it to win it
Nov 22, 2009
I'm still here. Still getting myself in gear and losing a bit here and there. And it's slow. I imagine myself the old turtle. Slow and steady wins the race. It's just a matter of time to reach my goal. The one I'm concentrating on now is to get under 300 lbs. I'm right on the cusp of it. Of course, it's like I sabotage myself whenever I get close enough to it. I lose then gain it back again when I eat those things not good for me. Don't talk about me, pray for me. LOL
It is a process, no doubt for me. A period of being on the wagon and falling off, getting back on. I'm going to keep pressing.
Challenges abound...
Oct 14, 2009
...fortunately not for losing the weight. I'm back on track. I've lost 12-14 pounds since last week via a combination of two things: I'm taking Metformin again and I'm watching my diet better. Read and heed newbies----all carbs are not alike. I know some of y'all already knew that.
Rice has been something I avoided, because it wasn't anything I preferred to eat. Plus, I thought it would be like the potato. Eating one = weight gain for me. So, I'm feeling pretty good about the weight loss.I had an experience at Wal_Mart today. Some guy was mocking me, basically about my weight. He was speaking French, laughing and staring at me. I ignored him, because I didn't need to get arrested at Wal-Mart for punching a candy a-- mofo in his mouf. LMAO! I pressed on and sashayed out after making my purchases. There's still progress to be made concerning "fatness".
At the end of the day, it's what God and I think about me that matters. I was angry, but I restrained myself.
