alwayz_smilin2587
Separation
Apr 05, 2012
This is day 4 of my liquid diet and I am going strong. BUT I know at some point.... and it may not be for a month or so....but at some point I'm going to come emotionally break. Food has comforted me through everyhing: Boredom, heartbreak, happiness, social settings, anxiety etc. Today I thought about how good I am doing on this liquid diet but at the same time how good all the bad foods sound. How amazing it would feel to eat a cookie or to eat cheesey bread or fajitas or nachos. I also remember how guilty I would sometimes feel after eating that stuff. Some days I wouldnt feel guilty because I had become pretty good at hiding the guilty emotion.I'm glad I'm getting a therapist because I know I'm going to need emotional help. This year has really made me realize how addicted to eating I really am. For every emotion I have eating is involved. It's really sad. I'm just glad I'm on here and I'm stepping forward to fix it.
My heath is most important and I so badly want to get outa of this body that's consuming who I really am.
I'm ready to continue going strong and work through each day one at a time to make it through this roller coaster! :)
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04/16/2012
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Feb 13, 2012
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