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Hi Guys!

I hope all is well with everyone! :) We are finally into April! BRING ON THE WARM WEATHER! :) Things are great here! I am officially down 53lbs since Jan and really being able to tell the difference! I have posted some new pics within the past few weeks as well as today. I unfortunately have to cut the blog short today, but it had been a while since I wrote so wanted to give an update. I thank again those who read and comment on my blog! You guys are awesome! Xoxoxxo

Hey Group! I hope all is well with everyone! :) It's been a little bit since I've updated. 

Things with me are going AMAZINGLY well! I am down 45lbs since surgery a month and 1/2 ago, and I am ecstatic to tell you that I am out of the 300's! And will never be looking back! I am seriously the happiest I have ever been in my life! The surgery was the best decision I have ever made for myself, and I'd go through it 100 times over again. To anyone that is Pre-Op, or just considering surgery, yes recovery and getting used to your new lifestyle takes time, but you will not regret it! I am back to the Rachel I was before surgery as far as being ones self goes. However, I have a new outlook and appreciation for life. Food no longer controls ME. I control FOOD. And my life. I have yet to start working out, which I'm not happy with, but I will be kicking that into high gear very very soon. This is all a process :) 

Like I said, I hope everyone else is well, and I thank you all that have been supportive! It means the world to me! 

Xoxoxoxox

Rachel :) 

Tomorrow will be 30 days since my DS and I am down 36 pounds! I feel wonderful! I did have a rough week and a 1/2 last week, and I had bad depression. Crying all day long, feeling like I had made a mistake with the surgery..but finally I bounced back and no longer feel that way at all! I had my 30 day follow up with my surgeon and nutritionist yesterday, and they told me I am doing very well! Which is obviously always great to hear! I had the hardest hardest time with drinking the protein shakes using powder...absolutely DISGUSTING! I was given the green light to try the pre made protein shakes as well as protein bars. I purchased the Premier Chocolate shake and the variety pack bars which each bar and shake have 30g protein and low in sugar! So huge plus! And, they taste great to boot! Thank the heavens! 

This has in NO way been an easy road, and I will never sugar coat the struggle to anyone. Because it is absolutely a mental and physical challenge and change. But now that I am healing, I am getting myself back..I feel a million times better this week. I am so fortunate for the support of my family and friends. It is crucial to have that support system! I know not every day is going to be as great as the day before, but I am strong, and I am completely happy with my decision to go through this. Those that are planning surgery and have not gone through it yet, it IS a struggle, but I promise you, it gets better! :) 

Hey Everyone!

I am a week out from my surgery now, and I must say, that I am feeling great! Yes, still in pain, but I know it'll fade in time. I am able to at least do MOST things on my own now, and that in itself is a huge success for me. Tomorrow I am going in for my 10 day post op apt with my surgeon and will hopefully have my drainage tube removed. The only thing I miss is sleeping in my bed LOL. I am currently in my recliner...not comfortable with trying the bed just yet. As far as hunger goes, I haven't had any cravings for food at all. Drinking my fluids and getting in my protein shakes, this easily keeps my tummy happy and satisfied. And honestly, I haven't actually felt hunger since before my surgery. I mostly feel thirsty ALL THE TIME. But I am taking care of that :) I know I have a long road ahead of me, but every day I get stronger and stronger!

More soon!

Hey group,

Wanted to give you an update. I had my DS procedure completed including Intestinal Bypass on Wednesday morning. Things went very smoothly. I have had a very rough recovery because as a precaution, they also removed my gallbladder and appendix. I was able to come home last night, and it has been a very painful road. The pain meds they have my on for home do not work at all (liquid Vicodin) and they also have me on a 50mg Fentanyl patch which also doesn't help. But I'm at least able to get up and do my walks and get things for myself. I am incredibly grateful because my aunt has been with me since the day of surgery and here now with me at my apartment taking care of me. I only wanted to come on for a moment so I can give you guys an update. I'll be back around in a few days once I'm a little better.

Talk to you soon! 

I received the call this morning! I am approved! :) :) January 28th is my official surgery date! ! ! ! Thank you to everyone for their kind words, prayers and positivity! 

So I came home to receive a letter last night from my insurance company. It was my approval/denial letter..and it was a denial. They cannot approve me because they claim I did not receive authorization from my primary physician. Which I could've sworn I had gotten one. But if anything, you'd think the referral from my primary TO the bariatric surgeon would've sufficed, but I know there are protocols they must follow. So now, I'm going to have to call my primary and get my authorization letter. I am bummed, but I know this was not a 'no' because I didn't qualify, I just need to get my auth. It says when I file my appeal, a decision will take 30-60 days. So obviously Jan 28th will probably not be my surgery date now. But, great things come to those who wait, so I will do what I need to do and be patient and hopeful. Can't help but be bummed and a little frustrated though. I cried on the phone with my mom a bit last night, and she helped in reminding me that this is just a set back. I am so thankful and incredibly lucky to have such an amazing support system! It's crucial to have during your WLS process. So hold on to those people and make sure you tell them every day how thankful you are for them!

Monday I will get on to fixing this hiccup.

I've never been so anxious for something in my life! My test results/paperwork was submitted last week to my insurance company for approval for surgery. My schedule date is Jan 28th, so we're hoping I receive a response before then! I am crossing my fingers AND toes! Lol They tell you to prepare, but, preparing mentally is not easy when it's not yet set in stone. But I do my best to strive on being positive, and I know that if I stay positive, even if there IS a set back, I will get through it. I just need to keep telling myself that. Being positive and having a positive mindset has always been a struggle for me. But since beginning this process, I have been telling myself to "prepare for the worst, hope for the best" scenario. I believe in god, and I do believe that if this was really in his plan for me, then it will happen. And I've said in previous posts, I feel it in my heart and soul that I will be getting this surgery. I've felt that way for a long time. So for now, I just have to stay patient, keep being positive and praying for the best outcome!

Blogging has really been helping me a lot through this journey. If I'm ever stressed or worried about something I just start writing and it helps so much. Very therapeutic! I know I'm mostly talking to myself, but I don't care. Lol! 

More later! 

Xox

I have to rant. Simply because I am fed UP! 

Being a single, plus sized girl in this world is very challenging. Especially when you're on a dating site. I cannot BELIEVE the audacity men have to think it's okay to be rude or vulgar to plus size women simply because they believe we're easy. Or will do anything because we're "desperate". Well, let me tell you something, we are NOT desperate. And we most certainly do not deserve to be treated with such disrespect! We are human just like everyone else, and do not in any way deserve to be belittled just because we are bigger people. I am so sick and tired of getting raunchy, vulgar and rude emails from men. Can any other women relate to this?? 

For as long as I can remember, I have been overweight. Trapped in a body that has limited me from truly living a fulfilling life. I have attempted diet after diet..and have lost some, but I've failed at success with this. 

I am praying hard that I will be able to submit my paperwork this upcoming week for approval for my DS procedure which is tentatively scheduled for January 28th. They say negative thoughts create negative outcomes, so I am doing my absolute BEST to stay positive and think positively.  I have received an incredible amount of support from family, friends and internet friends which I will be forever grateful to! But, I have also encountered the "Negative Nancy's". Which, I obviously ignore. I understand and respect those that have their opinions, but if you cannot support someone that is doing something for themselves that is detrimental to their health, then I really do not need them in my life. Plain and simple. I have come a long way, but I know this is what's best for me. This tool will only help me and guide me to a longer and healthier life. No, it is not an "easy fix" as most Negative Nancy's say. This is in fact surgery. This can be life threatening. In NO way an easy decision! I have a whole new respect for those that have gone through the pre-op process and surgery, from seeing with my own eyes the process ahead. Those that have responded and have sent me emails reaching out, THANK YOU! It truly means a lot to know I also have supporters here that I can relate to...

Until next time!

Xoxoxox - Rachel