Alicia M.

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I have not been on in a long time and had no where else to turn.  I know I can get the support i need.  

 on July 22 2011 I lost the greatest man every my daddy.  This was hard and still is.  I live in his home and have done lots of work to get it in the condition my son and I can live and maintain it on my SSD.  Bills are a challenge and stressful big time. 

I have gain a lot of weight I am up to 173 pounds and not happy at all.  I still am good no sugar low carbs but I tend to graze to much I think.  I drink coffee non stop I eat when I am not hungry.  

I have a son 16 and 290 pounds I hate seeing him this way and I cook healthy but his medication for ADHD is messing with him big time.

I stress over that and it did not help Jan 2012 I had major back surgery fusion at L4, L5 S1 and a decompression I did fantastic felt great THEN 3 months post op I was sitting at red light and someone ran into the back of me and ever since then I am down and out no motivations pain unreal this accident caused a rupture at L3 and I will need surgery again but dr wants me to hold off as long as I can.  I can't walk no more because of pain  and daily chores is a handful.

I have a son who will not help and fighting all the time is depressing enough so what do I do ?????? 

I can't go back to dr I am ashamed of  the gain of weight.  

I am a work in progress again smh

I have not been here in a long time and a lot has gone on since then.

I am now 138 and maintaining my weight finally. 

I have had a lot of strictures in 2008 last one was May of 08 and I did well till July and had another one but I think this was all due to stress from other problems I am facing and dealing with.  I also had a ulcer with this stricture.

I went to see Dr. Williams July 21st  and was scheduled July 24 for EDG with dialation. 

I had 2 full tears to my rotator cuff in March and that was fixed after my cruise in April and major complication from that.  I just had a manual manipulation  on Aug 6th. 

I go to Phycial Threapy every day right now since manipulation for 2 weeks and then back to 3 days a week.  Been on this schedule since January with PT. 

It seems right now everything is working out and I am progressing finally.  I have a numbing issue but I have 3 weeks to see what happends with that and what doctor will do.  They will do EMG to check nerves if I do not get it feeling back. 

I am going to the OH seminar in Atlanta so hope to see all my friends there.  I posted new photos up check them out.

Wow its been a while since I updated my page.  I have made my goal weight of 145.  Since my update in October I had stricture issues and Dr. Davis got very worried after my Nov one that he started me coming ever 3.5 weeks for a EDG with dialation.  I am feeling and doing much better now.  I am keeping food down and finally eating.  Seems like stress was the main cause of all my strictures acting up and I am working on controling that.  I made a lot of changes with friends and getting more help from my family and son's school.  I was just taking to much on and I finally relized that.  I go back next Wednesday Feb 27th for another dialation hopefully this will be the last one.  I do get some pain but at least it does not close and I don't get sick.  

My 1 year was on Feb 14, 2008.  Time went so quick but I did it and am so proud.  I never expected the results that I acheived.  I was 349 at my highest day of surgery 312 and TODAY 145.  204 total I have lost WOW IS ALL I CAN SAY.  I feel like a new person.  I had all my blood work done and everything was great finally.  I am getting all my protein in though food no shakes at all.  

I have one more goal and I am ready to acheive that.  I want to quit smoking.  Wish me luck.

 

Well it has been a while since I last posted.  I am very active with the PTA and my son's school and baseball is almost over for my son his last game is tonight.  I was doing okay until last month I went for my 7 month post op visit with my follow up doctor and I had told her I was having a feeling like someone squeezing my pouch at time mostly when I was stressing and was throwing up but not all the time.  My blood work came back and I returned the call and was told my potassium was very low and need to go on a powdered potassium that I would mix with liquid.  I was told to follow up with my PCP which I did and she told me it sounded like a problem from surgery and go back to surgeon.  I questioned this but did as I was told now 2 weeks have past and I get a call from the follow up doctor who works in the same office as my surgeon told me I needed a CT scan so they schedule it.  I called my surgeon and they said no CT to go for a barium swallow and come see Dr. Davis the same day.  I went the next day for the test and I had another stricture.  I was told to go to ER that night and get admitted which I did and then I waited and be awoken any time I tried to sleep.  I was put on potassium drip which is no fun what a burning feeling.  The nurse I had was not very nice and would not find out when my procedure was I tired to get her to call my doctor all day by 3:30pm I was ready to leave and told my nurse to discharge me AMA (against medical advice).  At that time my nurse was able to call my doctor but I was in pain and just wanted to leave.  I know not a good idea especially when my doctor was on vacation the next week.  I regreat every day after that.  I was in pain so bad and could not eat just liquids and those were hard.  I had a feeling like someone putting a knife and squeezing my pouch to not end all the time I would get an hour or 2 of relief a day the rest horrible.  I waited the week and then I called the doctors and they got it scheduled and they went and stretched the stricture and come to find out it was barely open I was shocked I will try to post those pictures.  I can say I am much better its will be 2 weeks tomorrow.  I have not thrown up once since they fixed it.  I have so much energy now.  I am down to 172 pounds now.  Doctor is very happy how things are going for me.  Till I post again.  Enjoy

I went to my regular doctor today for a my 3 month blood work to check my surgar.  Well last week I had this spot on my hand looks like I hit it on something and it was just getting worse and started hurting to the touch too. I was suppose to go Tuesday to the doctor but my pain management appointment went longer than expected.  I figure I would just wait till I saw her Thursday to check it out.  Well it's really kills me even to the touch and burns like hell too.  Well come to find out I was bit by a brown recluse spider.  I did get a steriod cream to put on it but I just don't know how this will help it out.  The pharmacist said it may get worse before it gets better.  Well the way this works it seems that where the bite is poision is eating my flesh ugggggg.  I should have had it checked sooner I noticed the spot last week.  I will take a picture tomorrow camera is in the car.  Till next time.

When I was away we went to Canopie Lake Park in NH and I rode my first roller coaster ever.  Look at what I rode can you believe this is the first one ever and even a corkscrew one.  My son kept going come on mom you will fit.  I did with room even. Well he received 2 free tickets to Six Flags from school and my daughter was going to take him well I am going to take him now and we are going to ride all of the ride.

It has been a while since I posted.  I have been very busy since school got out and trying to keep my son Jessie very busy.  We did go to Massachuesetts for 2.5 weeks and had a great time.  We did saw so much and walk a great deal.  I don't miss the north at all.  Weather changes to much from cold to warm.  One day it was 48 in the middle of June. Crazy.  

Right before our trip I was having this funny full sensation all the time and was getting sick throwing up food alot.  I just didn't feel like eating.  Well when I came home I made an appointment with Dr. Davis and went in to talk to him and he wanted to do an Endoscopy to see if I had a stricture.  On Monday June 25th.  I did go and he was saying that my opening when he did the surgery was 12 centimeters and when he went down to look it was 4 centimeters.  Well he did stretch it out and told me to give it two weeks and see how I felt and I may have to have it done again.  I am still not eating much but I can at least eat food again.  I will give it time.  As of today I am down 96 pounds from the day of surgery and a total weight loss from my highest weight is 133 pounds.  I did join Fitness 19 the weather here is very hot and on orange or red days (ozone levels) I am not to be out with my asthma, this resticts me from walking.  My pain management doctor released me to do resistance exercise also, I am so happy about this.  The personal trainer has me doing light weights and more reps which is just fine for me.  Well I need to post some pictures I cut all my hair off  so it don't look like I am losing as much as I was.  Hope to work on that today.  I am staying home and relaxing and going to work on my scrapbook from our trip.  Till next time.

It's been a while since I blogged so I will update.  I went back to Doctors on April 19 that was my 2 month post-op visit.  Dr. Lynch said I was doing good but I was not eating enough and was losing a little to fast.  He said my protein intake was great.  My blood work came out great too.  I have been trying to eat more at meals but if I push it I get sick so I try to eat more snacks than meals.  On April 19 my weight was 259 so from surgery date to then I lost 53 pounds and from my highest I lost 90.  I think that is great.  I feel like a new person.  I have had a lot to deal with these pass few weeks.  I lost my boyfriend on May 12th.  I am so lost without him.  I have fought real hard with this and I am doing fine now.  Today I weighed in at 236 pounds so from surgery till now I am down 76 pounds and from my highest I have lost 113.  I look at it this way I have lost my son he weighs 108 pounds a whole person small one at least.  I checked my BMI and its only 38 so I am obease I was super obease.  I am on the right track it looks like.  I will need to find someway to exercise more inside our weather is starting Orange and Red code alerts for smog and my asthma is not any better.  Today the smoke from the fires are settled in here so I am stuck inside all day.  I will go in the mornings when the pool opens next week to swim and stay in the rest of the day.  I am going to Massachusettes next week for a couple of weeks not sure when I am coming home yet.  It will be good to get away from here for a while so I will be back and catch you all up when I get back.  Bye for now.

Today I went to the surgen for my 1st visit since surgery and when Dr. Davis came in first thing he said was how much weight did you lose and I was like 36 pound is that okay.  Well his jaw dropped his eyes opened wide and was like that is fantasic.  I was so happy.  He was very happy with my progress. He was like your the one that is terrified of getting sick so how are you doing with that and I was like only one time.  He was very shocked with that also he said you are doing good then.  I said I stick to the bible (my guide lines) very well.  I am having a little problems with BM's have not gone in like 5 days and he said that is not good wants me to take 1 oz of Milk of Magnesia. I also have to up my fiber intake but that only started yesterday.  Well from my highest weight of 345 till today I am down a total of 69 pounds.  Wow I can't believe this.  This is the best tool in the world.

I was just looking at my BMI and wondered what it was today.  I was shocked it had droped like it had.  I started my web page here on 8/19/2005 and my BMI was 52.3 weight 324.  Today my BMI is 46 and I am 285.  I am feeling really tired these passed couple of day and been sleeping alot.  I do as much as I can around the house to keep it up.  I have a hard time with some foods feels like a log sometimes when I eat.  I have been very lucky not to get sick or dump anything.  I can live with the pain in my pouch if it does not like it, it don't last to long maybe 20 mins or so.  I can't believe how well this is working for me I had so many doubts about this not working for me.  I came home on February 16th and I weighed 314 today 285 I am down 27 pounds already.  I wonder what I am suppose to have lost?  I feel great and I guess that is all that matters right now.  I am heading to the movies today with my kids and will catch ya'll up in a few day.  Oh we're going to see Ghost Rider been waiting to see this.