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I have been feeling pretty good & on track as best as I think I can.  Just knowing that I have the support of so many behind me & keeping my health as a 1st priority has definitly made things easier.  Also knowing that I will be the only one to blame has been great motivation as well as having a "sponsor type" in Dennis.  Even though I have not had to lean on him, I know that if I am having a particular struggle that I will need help with he will be there to help.  Thanks Dennis!! 

Also, I checked in with my nutrionist yesterday & had a really good talk with her & not to mention
a good weigh in as well.  Thanks Lynn!!

I am having trouble today with the planning of my meals for this weekend.  It really is not that hard!!!!!  Just do it.  I just seem to be over tired & having a hard time focusing on any 1 thing.

This weekend has been a little more difficult to stay focused just because I was running around doing errands & not completly having all my meals planned.  I know what I need to do for the following week. And I will do just that for this week.

So far so good..  I have been able to stay focused & feel pretty good about it for a whole whopping week!!!
I know it is only a week but I can feel the difference in my clothes & my complete out look.
I am still struggling a bit with sleeping some nights but I will figure it out.  I have been blogging & making sure that everything that goes into my mouth is on my food log.  The suggestion was also made to become a "born again sugar virgin" & I think that is exactly what I need.  I have been pretty good with watching my sugar intake for the most part but for some reason Twizzlers did not bother me & if I needed a fix I would take it.  NO MORE  The same goes for the occasional alcoholic beverage. Even the liquior that does not have as much sugar that is tolable I will try & stay away for a few months again to start & see if that helps in getting my body back on the losing track.

Today I had gone to the 1st Saturday meeting at Barix Langhorne & I have got to say that I am so glad that I did.  I have not been going to any of the support groups lately for a list of reasons / excuses.  Well, NO MORE!!!!  I had truly forgotten what it feels like to have me as my first priority & to connect with the folks that are all like me.  By this I mean that we all come from very different walks of life & very different up ringings but we all have the same struggles,goals & issues.  Don't get me wrong I have the best husband in the world & I could never ask for anyone more understanding & supportive but there are time that I feel that as much as he tries he just does not understand where I am coming from.  I had such a good time reconnecting to some of the folks I had not seen in quite a while & received some really great ideas & overall support with my latest struggles & inspriation in moving forward on this journey.  To everyone I had spoken with today.... THANK YOU!!!!
I hope you know how important you are

It has been quite a while since I have blogged or focused on the most important thing in my life.  MY HEALTH & this journey that I started.  Well, it has been long enough!!!!  I have started getting back to basics in Food logs, nutrition appointments, planning meals & physical activity.  I am tired of not truly feeling good about my weight loss & beating myself up since I KNOW that I should be much further along then I am right now.  And why is that??  I had to take a good hard look at myself & what I was doing.  Yes, have a come a long way in the past couple of years?  Sure, but when I signed on the dotted line to once & for all go forward with this surgery a year ago, I made a commitment to myself which I have since backed out on.  I have NOT made myself & my health my 1st priority in a while & I know that sometimes it is easier said then done but the problem with me is that I have always put everyone ahead of myself & I have been the one to suffer.  I did start off very good in the beginning of last year with saying no to certain requests that would not put my time or feelings first which was hard at the beginning but felt really good after a while.  I had also learned of some of my so-called best friends & family that maybe took advantage at times.  That was eye opening, but a very good thing to be opened to.  I have several reasons for my lack of focus over the past couple of months but to be honest they have to be put behind me.  I need to work on a way that I can be there physically & emotionally for my loved ones who truly need me while still making my goals not slip in the process.
Sometimes I feel that this struggle is a minute to minute struggle where other days are not as difficult.  Today is an hour by hour kind of day so far.

It's been a while since I last posted.

I have completed a 5K walk with some of the support group members on July 5th which was great!
I have also had my 6 month post op vistit with Dr Marymor & he is extremly pleased with my progress. He states that I am right where I need to be with my progress but I am still having issues with the numbers as much as I try to not get fixed on the numbers it is still a difficult thing for me. This is definitely something I need to work on a bit more. I think some of it is also not recognizing myself in recent pictures. Weird huh!! I think I also need to be posting on this more often as well as keeping up with the food logs. If anyone out there has any ideas for keeping the logs more current I would love to hear them.
Thanks

Thank you to you all that have commented & wrote to me.  Can I just say I feel 100% better today after my 3 month follow up.  I am within the range that Dr Marymor would like to see me at.  I think I need to try & ease up on myself a bit.  Easier said then done huh!  At 3 months out I am now down 23% of my excess weight which in the big picture is pretty awesome.  Thank you to all of you that support me.  I hope you know how special you are.  What a huge help to know that I am not alone in this & that I have someone to turn to at every turn.  Thanks a bunch!!

For days now I have been feeling back & forth with my weight loss.  I feel much better in my skin.  GREAT!!  but then I start to talk to other people that have had the surgery or look at others blogs & think to my self I really need to be doing something different to optimize my losses.  On the one hand a part of me does realize that I should not be comparing myself with others since the fact of the matter is everyone loses at a different rate but it is hard not to.  And on the other hand I do realize that if I put this whole thing into prospective I am so much healthier & better off then I was just 4 months ago.  Why can't I just keep that side of the thought in my head from creeping into the other?  I do have my 3 month post op with Dr Marymor on Thursday & I am hoping that I am right on track.  Does anyone truly know what the correct track is supposed to be?  I feel like I am going nuts over this

Today has been just another typical day at the office.  Another day of answering phones, attending meetings & helping out where ever needed.  Oh it is also the typical day of rumors.  A few of my co-workers & I have made the "What is the rumor of the day?" game.  That has made it a bit easier to deal with on the daily.  Why is it that when someone like myself ( who has been heavy all of my life) gains a whole bunch of weight on top of already being extremly heavy & not a story is said or told & more importantly I was not treated any different then I had been in the years past.  But now that I have been more serious about my health & much more strict with myself & my choices moving forward in this year. 
I now have people whispering behind my back, speculating as to what I may or may not had done & some folks just being down right rude.  Really I do know & realize that in most of these cases it is a jealousy thing which I will never fully understand but all in all I just wish people would try & stop sabatoging others for doing something that they are not strong enough to do for themselves.  All n' all  I know is the BEST decisicion I could have made.  And most importantly as difficult as it some days I am NOT going to let these folks deter me from the big picture that I have in my head & the outcome I have set out to accomplish.