4 Day count down...

May 18, 2010

made it in time to write tonight. Im feeling....hungry, empty, tired,weak... anxiouse  for this to be over with. Day 8 on liquid fast. Im hoping all the stuff I went out and brought at GNC today i can use. Worried about getting in all that protien daily. Worring about my hair. Thinking about as they wheel me into the room what ill say to my husband and mom...what if i dont make it? What if I do and not be sucessful. After I can eat again, will I go back to fried chickenand fish? i do miss it....I cant lie. I miss Taco Bell, I want to eat steak. I do not want to revolve my life around food. I want to be healthy, i want to have kids. I want them to be heathy and not sucuumb to childhood obesity. I dont want to be that busy mom and give my kids fast food.I want to learn to cook healthy. I want to be OBSESSED with the gym. I want to be nicknamed gym rat....I want to look so damn good....lol!!!! Praying my gas will be gone so i can make it to the movies to see Sex in the City  2.ok im tired check in tommorrow, and its my last day of work   and I think im drained....

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