Ataraxia
My name is Corrinne, I'm 25 turning 26 on Christmas, from
My extra weight has had a really negative effect on me, physically, socially, emotionally, etc. I want to conquer this once and for all. I've been on almost every single diet out there. I've lost weight before but I always end up gaining it all back and them some. At one point I even lost about 75lbs but it didn't last. It was nice to know what it feels like to be normal, it felt absolutely wonderful and I want that feeling back.
I'm 5'5.5 with a BMI of 40-41. I'm somewhat in denial about my weight. I keep telling myself that I hide it well that I don't look as big as the number on the scale. I tend to store all my weight in my gut which makes hiding it easier but its the worst body type for heart health. My obstacle now is insurance(Aetna PPO). One of the criteria is a 6 month doctor supervised diet with a dietician. I've done tons of diets but never with a doctor so for the next 6 months I'll be on a diet. Most likely I'll lose just enough weight to no longer meet insurance criteria but not enough to change my life. Another criteria is a 5 year history of being significantly overweight. I know I meet this criteria but I fear I don't have any doctor records from this far back because I never went to the doctors back then. I didn't even get my own primary until after I lost the 75lbs.
I've been going to the Barix pre-op support group meetings, last night was my second meeting. I've got pretty wicked social anxiety so I mostly just listen. I've been visiting the thinnertimes message boards for the past few months but last night some people mentioned the obesity help forum so here I am. Thats about it for my intro I guess. I hope it wasn't too long. I look forward to getting to know everyone here.
~*~Corrinne~*~
