"Move, scale!" I said, "Move!"

Aug 09, 2010

Starting to freak...weight at a standstill! Well, I'm trying not to panic but I am post-op since June 16, and since July 7 I have been holding at the same weight, (in fact, even going up and down one or two pounds).  Others have told me it's the body's reaction to the shock of losing weight so fast (I lost 25 pounds the first 3 weeks before stalling, and 20 pounds before surgery), and I understand that. But now, though I'm not that focused on the scale, I am feeling nervous because it seems SOMETHING should be happening. Even a teensy-weensy, itsy-bitsy something, right? I'm eating according to Dr.'s orders and beginning to incorporate light exercise (I previously couldn't do any), and just can't fathom why nothing is happening.

I posted this in the Q&A and received some encouraging responses. I'm not overly concerned (at least, not consciously), but there is this gnawing little feeling that maybe somehow I'm doing it 'wrong' and / or it's not going to work for me.  It doesn't help that I'm a little stressed with life matters, and I'm sure that compounds the feeling. 

It's just that I got so much relief when I lost my initial weight pre and post surgery. I felt like long smothered energy came rushing back, having been freed from the prison of hopelessness it had been life-sentenced to. Too, I also felt lighter in my body. I felt I didn't have to drag around so much weight.  My body had become tired, struggling to cope with the new pain, and overwhelmed by the excess. Having lost 45 pounds it is so grateful--as am I. But now--funny--it feels like its settling down at this new place, and feeling a bit cumbersome and heavy again.

This is quite a process. As I've said elsewhere, WLS is definitely not for sissies. But I'm grateful for the privilege of being able to go this route.  Despite all the seeming ups and downs I am learning anew.  I am learning about food, about my body, how things work, etc., and it is wonderful. From here on out I think my relationship with food will not be so unconscious and I will have learned how to get a handle on things (read my life). I know this shall pass and this will be a memory one day. For now--arrrrgh! Just help me make it through this stall! 

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