emotional eating

Jun 05, 2012

Well, I have had a rough couple months lately.  My cousin was killed in a motorcycle accident in April. very tragic.  He was a widower and leaves 1 child of his own and his late wife's 2 children. Very sad.  While I was at his funeral, my work had a conference call that I missed, and long story short....announced that our contract was being terminated early & that my position would be terminated May 31.
Ugh.  So, it has been a tumultuous time for me, and I have definately found myself emotional eating....not making healthy choices, not doing my protein shakes, snacking on a lot of crap and sweets and coming up with every excuse in the book as to why I should shove something into my mouth!
Consequently, I am up from where I love to be at 125-126 lbs to 132-134 lbs right now (132 today).  Until yesterday, I hadnt walked or worked out in 2-3 weeks (consistently-- maybe a walk here or there)  So, yesterday I signed up for unemployment and went back "on the wagon" with healthy choices, protein shakes back in, and limited snacking to a yogurt and a sugar free pudding.  Got on the treadmill as   well. During this time though, I could see old habits rearing their ugly head- with the sweets, pieces of candy, cookies, crap going into my mouth even though I wasnt hungry AND despite the fact that after I eat them, I feel like crap and go into a "food coma"!  But emotions can really influence us & despite physically losing the weight, I still have the same issues & have to continue to fight them daily.  I am back to remembering I am a FAT person who is "renting" a skinny body and I cant afford to start those bad habits again!  All this week I will be good and strict about my eating- see how much of those extra pounds come off and if they are still there next week, it is back to the 5 day pouch test to get myself back under control.
I am just glad that I only get to a certain point now before I realize I am slipping...so far.....this site helps- I can go back to where I was and look at my before pictures and realize that it is NOT worth that tiny taste in your mouth to go back to the misery I felt before I lost the weight.  I am so thankful for this new life-- I cant let a few obstacles in my way push me back down again!

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