bjblue
September 12, 2011
Sep 12, 2011
I finally got off my antidepressant, hoping this will help me get some control back over my eating habits, and care about what I am doing to my self.
I have been thinking for the last year-2 that I should have gone with the RNY like my Dr. wanted me to, but was too afraid to do that one. Boy, was I stupid. I should have just went with his recommendation. Now, I don't know if I can get a revision surgery or not. I have been having problems with throwing up, things getting stuck in my band, etc, and can't seem to eat the way they wanted me to eat after surgery. Right now I don't have the insurance that would cover the surgery, and am debating on trying to get added onto my husbands for next year and pursue it. If nothing else, maybe just to get the band adjusted? I don't know. Will have to find out if they have restrictions on if there is a 1-time wls lifetime clause that I am seeing other people post about.
I have a lot of excuses and can blame a lot of circumstances on my behaviour eating, but I alone have to shoulder the responsibility, which I am totally aware of. I am just not happy with the band at all, and really want it out. Everytime I try and eat the way they want me to, things get stuck, pills don't go down, and I am throwing up all the time. NO FUN... Then, I revert to the easy things to go down that they don't want me to eat. Hence, a lot of weight gain.
I am also trying to get more active again, so hopefully I can start dropping some pounds through physical activity.
I wish that I really had someone to keep me on track - but, it's really on me. So, wish me luck...
6-14
Jun 14, 2011
Protein shake-1 scoop chocolate protein powder, 4 ounces lo-carb yogart, tablesspoon peanutbutter, 2 tbsp half & half & water & ice. Also had 1 3.4 ounce kefir probiotic.
Snack - almonds
Lunch - 1 ryvita cracker with tunafish w/mayo, and 1 mozerella cheese string.
sugarfree jello with whip cream.....sugar free italian soda
pistachios
spoonfull of peanut butter
mcdonalds double cheeseburger minus the bun
drank 56 ounces sugarfree oceanspray cran-cherry at work.
I did get on the scale this morning and was 237.4 (was 240.8 on Sunday), so going in the right direction....
6-13
Jun 13, 2011
6-2-2011
Jun 02, 2011
Breakfast: oatmeal with lite marg & half&half
Snack - banana
Lunch - 3/4 cup lentil soup, rye cracker with lite margarine and tuna salad (mayo & tuna)
Snack - small apple and peanut butter
evening snack - double chocolate chip muffin (albertsons)
6-1-2011
Jun 01, 2011
Oatmeal w/lite marg for breakfast.
Lunch - 1 cup lentil soup, 1 rye cracker with peanut butter small apple w/peanut butter
Banana
2 granola thins, 20 tortilla chips w/hummus
Dinner - rye cracker with tuna salad
1/2 cup no-sugar added ice cream, tblsp hershes & whip cream
I know that this wasn't the best, but I think I did pretty good, because I am coming off a really bad sugar binge for the last few months.
5-31-11 evening update
May 31, 2011
May 31, 2011
May 31, 2011
Well, I am starting again yet today. Did 30 min's on elliptical and about 15 min's with dumbells working the arms. Also did some stretching.
My weight this morning was 237 and my fasting blood sugar was 118.
I have debated on joining a gym, but don't know that I would go enough to make it worth my money. I will once again try to keep up on the elliptical and walking, and using the tools I have here at home.
My food today: 1 package 170cal oatmeal, with lite marg & 2 tbsp half & half (which I know I didn't need to add, but makes it easier to get down). Drinking so far: 24 ounces crystal lite grape. Will try and stay motivated and log my food and exercise. Will measure weekly - just measured bust, waist and hips today. Bust was 46, waist was 44, and hips are 50.
January 23, 2011
Jan 23, 2011
Wednesday April 21
Apr 21, 2010
Well, I didn't do as well as I would have liked, but haven't totally gone overboard. Still feeling a bit off from being sick, and breathing is weird. Dr. gave me an inhaler to try for a few days, says it may be a spastic airway associated to the bug I had last week. Just tired, and no desire to do much right now. Hopefully I will feel better by the weekend, so I can get back out & do some yard work, or get back to the Y for water aerobics. Didn't want to go tonight because of the breathing thing...
On the other hand, I got my new stove yesterday...I can now bake/broil/roast again! But, it does mean I have to cook, as well...But, after fighting with my oven for the last 7-8 years, it will be soooo nice to actually be able to turn it on without all the time and frustration (the electronics panel went out and was over $600 to get a new one)...Used to be able to go through a routine to work on getting the oven on - never an easy task....but last week, it totally wouldn't work after spending an hour trying to get it turned on. I did have it for almost 18 years though....
2 year anniversary!
Apr 17, 2010
That is probably the only regret that I have about having LapBand surgery - I wish that I had went ahead with the proximal Dr. Srikanth wanted me to have, then I WOULDN'T be able to tolerate sugar. But, no I couldn't get my arms around having my stomach cut off and disconnected in me, so couldn't do it. Hindsight is 20/20. So, I have to work with the tool that I have, which is the band, and do what I am supposed to do to get the weight off.
So, Welcome back to the program to me!