Wow almost a year!

Nov 12, 2011

Well it has been almost a year since I have written here.  So much has gone on.  I don't really want to play catch up but I do just want to put out there of what I am dealing with the here and now.

I feel like I am gong to loose it.  I really do mean loose it all.  So many bad things are going on.  I just want one good thing to go my way.  My husband maybe getting kicked out of the Army and on top of that they might be reducing him in rank.  If they do that then we will loose my car and his motorcycle.  That means that we will no transportation for anything.  I am under an amazing amount of stress.  I am trying to keep it together but I can't.  I can't make my husband fight to keep his job and I can't do my husband's job for him. 

My kids need a lot of help.  My son is just now starting to walk.  He will be 2 at the end of this month.  He can't talk yet.  Well I say he can't talk but he can say 3 words.  He can say "Bye, bye", "Bubbles", and "Cookie".  I take him to therapy once a week.  While we are there he goes to 3 different kinds of therapy.  It takes up over half a day just to go and do it all.  I would do anything for my son though.  My daughter needs more one on one time with me.  She has started school and I am never able to help her with writing her name because I am always so busy with other things that are going on.

I am also not liking all this extra skin I am having.  It is really getting in the way of my life.  Not only in the day to day things that I do but also in my marriage.  I am going to counseling for it right now.  I am also going to see a Plastic Surgeon.  I have seen one but it was a very bad experience.  I called my insurance to get a new referral to a new place.  Lets see if this place is any better.  I know that some insurance's don't pay for anything but I am at least going to try.  I can't really control all the bad things going on in my life and I feel like this is the only thing that I can try and make go my way.  I can go on and on about all this extra skin but I will save it for my councilor. 

I also feel like if I don't get this skin removed then i will gain all my weight back.  I know that I could gain all the weight even if I have plastic surgery but it is just the way that I feel.

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