bossladycb
ITS BEEN A LONG TIME
Nov 27, 2011
hey all...i know i am such a stranger on this site...instead of using it as my backbone...i tried to wade thru this world of weightloss solo. cant say its been all bad, but i know i should of stayed consistent on here. who else can really understand the journey not only physically but mentally?
i am one year and 4 months out...i had my ups and down. i have been fluxing between 170 and 175, which is now causing me anxiety. i still dont eat enuff in the day to gain weight...i know my body is just holding on to water...but its scary because this is when the real battle begins....hold the presses...see this is why i needed to be back here...it just dawned on me...a friend on here..went thru the same thing...her culprit...the mimosas she was drinking...well i guess i have to kick my love affair with moscato...
as a weightloss patient...i havent been a good student...i take my vitamins...but everything else...i slack...i am anemic (sp) hence the pounds of ice i chew thru daily...i havent had my one year check up...yes i need to get it together...
i have uploaded some newer pics...cant really say i can complain over all...well except the mental aspect...and thats for another day....its time to go back to basics...theres no choice...i must be successful in this!
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i am one year and 4 months out...i had my ups and down. i have been fluxing between 170 and 175, which is now causing me anxiety. i still dont eat enuff in the day to gain weight...i know my body is just holding on to water...but its scary because this is when the real battle begins....hold the presses...see this is why i needed to be back here...it just dawned on me...a friend on here..went thru the same thing...her culprit...the mimosas she was drinking...well i guess i have to kick my love affair with moscato...
as a weightloss patient...i havent been a good student...i take my vitamins...but everything else...i slack...i am anemic (sp) hence the pounds of ice i chew thru daily...i havent had my one year check up...yes i need to get it together...
i have uploaded some newer pics...cant really say i can complain over all...well except the mental aspect...and thats for another day....its time to go back to basics...theres no choice...i must be successful in this!
what ive learned
Sep 13, 2010
.......work the tool..dont let it work you! meaning....in order for my tool to work..i have to get up and move..duh! at some point the light bub came on. and guess what? as soon as i did that..what happens...yea yea yea...the scale moved! when i weighed yesterday..i weighed 246! so of course that has me motivated and walking at the beginning of lunch. how did my tool work me? the mental fight i had with myself for the 3 weeks i had a stall. that fight was vicious and nothing nice!
this journey isa complete trip! no matter what you do..who you talk to...theres my legs nothing that prepares you for this. i am thankful that i was given the opportunity to have it...
as for body image...lets just say no beuno (spelled that wrong)..ctfu! right now i am squeezing into about a 20/22. i would prob be a 18 if it wasnt more this midsection or what i like to call my ass in the front! ive heard taking fish oil will help me burn from my gut...i willing to try...then we wont talk about the cottage cheese thighs...i looked at them on sat while tryin on some pants and was looking for the peaches to go along with it!!
im still battling the food demon. for the most part m-f i do pretty good. weekends go to hell in a handbasket esp when im running around. either i forget to eat (go figure) or the options i have is just crap. i have dumped..by way of i eat something..pouch dont agree..im hunched over a tawlet somewhere upchucking my innards! niiiiicccee!! hell i will take that over sweating, shaking, and what not! awww the joys of gastric bypass....wouldnt trade this ride for nothing!!
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this journey isa complete trip! no matter what you do..who you talk to...theres my legs nothing that prepares you for this. i am thankful that i was given the opportunity to have it...
as for body image...lets just say no beuno (spelled that wrong)..ctfu! right now i am squeezing into about a 20/22. i would prob be a 18 if it wasnt more this midsection or what i like to call my ass in the front! ive heard taking fish oil will help me burn from my gut...i willing to try...then we wont talk about the cottage cheese thighs...i looked at them on sat while tryin on some pants and was looking for the peaches to go along with it!!
im still battling the food demon. for the most part m-f i do pretty good. weekends go to hell in a handbasket esp when im running around. either i forget to eat (go figure) or the options i have is just crap. i have dumped..by way of i eat something..pouch dont agree..im hunched over a tawlet somewhere upchucking my innards! niiiiicccee!! hell i will take that over sweating, shaking, and what not! awww the joys of gastric bypass....wouldnt trade this ride for nothing!!
still on the train to nowhere
Sep 04, 2010
i still have not been able to been this stall. i know its partly my fault...i gotta fall in love with moving my body. i cant expect my tool to do all the work. but so much has gone on in my world...to top it off...i think i am able to eat more than what i should...
i went online and ordered me the sample pack of unjury protein. i know i am not getting the 30g that is required right now. i read somewhere that besides hair loss, muscles giving out on me...that it could also hinder my weightloss....i am really interested in trying the unflavored as i may be able to add that to a lil of everything...no cal drinks...yogurt...soups...etc. i even been spending more time researching good eats (pouchfriendly.com) so that i can get away from doing the same ol stupid shit...taco bell, kfc, etc.
for my sake..i really need to break this stall soon. besides not seeing the scale move, it doesnt help that my dr well kaiser in fresno really didnt prepare me for all of this. **exhales**
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i went online and ordered me the sample pack of unjury protein. i know i am not getting the 30g that is required right now. i read somewhere that besides hair loss, muscles giving out on me...that it could also hinder my weightloss....i am really interested in trying the unflavored as i may be able to add that to a lil of everything...no cal drinks...yogurt...soups...etc. i even been spending more time researching good eats (pouchfriendly.com) so that i can get away from doing the same ol stupid shit...taco bell, kfc, etc.
for my sake..i really need to break this stall soon. besides not seeing the scale move, it doesnt help that my dr well kaiser in fresno really didnt prepare me for all of this. **exhales**
stuck already/feeling really fustrated
Aug 24, 2010
i would really like to be one of the many who can come on here and proclaim my love for my ryn...but as of right now that is not the case. i have been stuck on 250 for over a week and i am praying i am not hitting a plateau so early.
for me..i need to see results to help motivate me...thus far i have been far from motivated. its been a lil tough since i returned to work. that takes all my energy to even try to do any physical fitness. i have just enuff energy left to cook dinner for my twins then after that..i am laid out some where tired!. my mouth constantly feels like an african desert and i dont seem to be able to do anything about that. my palet has changed so much..its hard for me to find a food (esp protein) that i can stick with. i eat something one and develope a dislike for it..well exempt cream of wheat!
and lets not talk about the mental/emotional state im going thru....lawd baby jesus in his manager. i am questioning everything and more importantly everyone. i have become a hermit for one...as i said questioning thr true value of some of my "friendships" and because i cant party like i use to. i can only get iced water wasted so many times and i dont need the temptation of henscato (hennesy and moscato mixed) constantly calling my name...
imma stop here..i am not that focus to continue with all that i am feeling. my mind is like those episodes of hoarders...just a complete effing mess!!! can someone help..what am i doing wrong...i dont wanna feel like i went thru all of this for nothing.
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for me..i need to see results to help motivate me...thus far i have been far from motivated. its been a lil tough since i returned to work. that takes all my energy to even try to do any physical fitness. i have just enuff energy left to cook dinner for my twins then after that..i am laid out some where tired!. my mouth constantly feels like an african desert and i dont seem to be able to do anything about that. my palet has changed so much..its hard for me to find a food (esp protein) that i can stick with. i eat something one and develope a dislike for it..well exempt cream of wheat!
and lets not talk about the mental/emotional state im going thru....lawd baby jesus in his manager. i am questioning everything and more importantly everyone. i have become a hermit for one...as i said questioning thr true value of some of my "friendships" and because i cant party like i use to. i can only get iced water wasted so many times and i dont need the temptation of henscato (hennesy and moscato mixed) constantly calling my name...
imma stop here..i am not that focus to continue with all that i am feeling. my mind is like those episodes of hoarders...just a complete effing mess!!! can someone help..what am i doing wrong...i dont wanna feel like i went thru all of this for nothing.
3 weeks post op
Aug 16, 2010
as of tomorrow i will be 3 weeks post op. so far....ok. my starting weight was 304/day of pre op appt 279/ day of surgery 272.... and as of this mawning when i stepped on da scale....251!! yep 20 pounds down since surgery. i must say i am pleased. i havent seen 250's let alone 240's im a mighty long time.
i am still having a hard time getting in my daily allowance of protein. i also just started taking my vitamins the way i should...besides optimum health...tired of having no energy. i knew that would be a battle for me as i hate taking meds...
for the most part i really cant see the weight loss...but i can feel it. my ring keeps twisting on my finger...all my shoes that i have esp pumps and heals..they dont fit. when i got bigger..my foot became wider. so if there was a shoe i wanted..it wasnt nothing to go up a size of two so that i can fit it...well that means all my shoes in sizes 9-10..when i am truely and 8/8.5. yea so a lot of shoes will be....gonners!!!
the only concern that i have right now besides the much needed weight training...my mid section. there is a pair of seven seven (LB) that i have had for 3 years. they are a size 20. well guess what..if it wasnt for the gut (or as i call it..my ass that sits in the front) i would of been able to get into them. i can get in them now..just cant button. maybe if i lay down i can..but then i run the risk of taking out some young kid eyesite when the pressure gives and that button blows like a 2$ hoe....smdh....
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i am still having a hard time getting in my daily allowance of protein. i also just started taking my vitamins the way i should...besides optimum health...tired of having no energy. i knew that would be a battle for me as i hate taking meds...
for the most part i really cant see the weight loss...but i can feel it. my ring keeps twisting on my finger...all my shoes that i have esp pumps and heals..they dont fit. when i got bigger..my foot became wider. so if there was a shoe i wanted..it wasnt nothing to go up a size of two so that i can fit it...well that means all my shoes in sizes 9-10..when i am truely and 8/8.5. yea so a lot of shoes will be....gonners!!!
the only concern that i have right now besides the much needed weight training...my mid section. there is a pair of seven seven (LB) that i have had for 3 years. they are a size 20. well guess what..if it wasnt for the gut (or as i call it..my ass that sits in the front) i would of been able to get into them. i can get in them now..just cant button. maybe if i lay down i can..but then i run the risk of taking out some young kid eyesite when the pressure gives and that button blows like a 2$ hoe....smdh....
WTF!!
Aug 05, 2010
so i went out and bought a scale yesterday...it only showed a 9 pound lost since surgery...WTF!! so of course the first thing that goes thru my head is how this is not worth it...i could of starved my dam self adn had the same effing result. so i am not a happy camper by far.
but guess what...whats done is done. i cant take back the surgery and dont think if i could i would. guess during this journey there will be disappointments along the way...i just didnt think i would have to face one so soon.
so imma get on my ball and work my tool as best as i can.....whoooo saaawww!
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but guess what...whats done is done. i cant take back the surgery and dont think if i could i would. guess during this journey there will be disappointments along the way...i just didnt think i would have to face one so soon.
so imma get on my ball and work my tool as best as i can.....whoooo saaawww!
1 WEEK POST OP
Aug 03, 2010
well, my surgury went very well. however, besides my rny...i also had scare tissue from my 17 year old c-section and i had a nice size hernia. dr also had to i guess do some extra with my small instine as a result. i was released the next day only to go right back the following day due to extreme nausea ( i think my daughter was trying to kill me..ctfu).
now i am one week post off and how do i celebrate??? i finally had a bowel movement!! i know TMI..but if i cant share that here then where!!
so far i am doing ok physically. i have been lazy but i got my but up and out yesterday so i can walk around..i will be doing so later today as well. i want to have a routine established by week 2 post op.
surgery starting weight was 272....i will be going to buy a scale today so i can see where i am at with the numbers.
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now i am one week post off and how do i celebrate??? i finally had a bowel movement!! i know TMI..but if i cant share that here then where!!
so far i am doing ok physically. i have been lazy but i got my but up and out yesterday so i can walk around..i will be doing so later today as well. i want to have a routine established by week 2 post op.
surgery starting weight was 272....i will be going to buy a scale today so i can see where i am at with the numbers.
pre op appt/new surgery date
Jul 06, 2010
soooo...kaiser decided to change my surgery date to 07.27.2010 due to the nicotin test i evidently needed to take (although my dr stated he wasnt gonna test me). yet, they did not change the date of my pre-op appt which i still completed today (and no mention of the nicotin test...ummm). i was told it takes 2 weeks to get the test back..although when i completed the test we were 3 weeks out! also..how does that work? so i should stay smoke free..but yet you dont have a test to test me right before surgery?? yea.....i look at it this way, i waited this long. interesting enough..im prediabetic.
question for all of you out there. i start my pre op (liquid diet) next week. any suggestions of protein drinks? i need something i can tolerate for 2 yes 2 weeks. HELP!!
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question for all of you out there. i start my pre op (liquid diet) next week. any suggestions of protein drinks? i need something i can tolerate for 2 yes 2 weeks. HELP!!
outta control
Jun 23, 2010
soooo...i get a surgery date and i lose my effing mind?? i have been trying my best to keep my eating under control. its like its from one extreme to the next!! either i dont eat at all for weeks on end..or i am the human garbage disposal!! smdh...
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JULY 19, 2010
Jun 15, 2010
that will be my new birth date!! no matter how discouraging this path has been..i stayed the course. today i was rewarded with a surgery date....now i guess i can let the nervousness set in!!
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